Stolen Jule
(For Carl)
As I look back on our friendship years,
I cannot help but to shed a few tears.
How could I be so blind as to not see,
What I had always wanted was now before me.
How could my mind not know what my heart knew to be true,
How did I go through life without a single clue?
But now that I see, is it to late,
To have the heart of my one true fate?
Was I that slow to comprehend or understand,
The boy I met who became a man.
Would things have changed or stayed the same,
If I had known the truth before it came?
And though we cannot go back to who we were,
Has the shine really vanished?
Was I the one so cruel?
To become his stolen Jule.
What True Love Really Means
Love is such a strange emotion,
We all seem to go through the motion.
Never really knowing, it sometimes seems,
Of just what true love really means.
We always give our hearts so free,
The pain that comes we never see.
And when it comes to our door,
We swear to love never more.
But when we find the love we need,
No longer is the ground fertile for the seed.
That's when we find ourselves forever alone,
Never really understanding, what we already know.
That love is such a precious emotion,
We never should just go through the motion.
Of living, of loving, or of just being free,
Of being able to love you or me.
So we must remember what true love really means.
Even when love sometimes seems,
A little crazy or out of touch.
Just remember love means too much.
Have You Ever Known?
(For Carl)
Have you ever known a love so true, that it opens the most secret part of you?
Have you ever known a love so strong, that even death cannot break its bond?
Have you ever known a love so deep, that it invades your dreams as you sleep?
Have you ever known a love so real, that even after death it's with you still.
Have you ever known a pain so great, that the life you have you want to take?
Have you ever known a loss so full of sorrow, that you wish there was no tomorrow?
Have you ever known a person who died, who could make you feel all of this inside?
Have you ever known someone like this, someone you'll never stop to miss.
Have you ever known someone who held your heart, from the very start?
Have you ever known someone who always stood by you, when no one else would stay true?
Have you ever known someone who's voice was always so dear, and who's truths you still long to hear?
Have you ever known someone you need every single day, and to whom you still have so much to say?
Have you ever known someone you've always needed the most, though he lived on another coast?
Have you ever known someone to whom you never got to say goodbye, with a tear and a sigh?
Well, I have known,
For I met such a person many years ago, and from the start he invaded my soul.
But now he's gone and he'll never get to see, my son who looks so much like me.
He'll never get to see me be the wife, of the man I will love more then life.
He'll never get to see the grandbabies yet to come, nor the old lady I will become.
He'll never again share my tears, as I stumble and fall through the years.
He'll never again share the happy days, that I know are yet to come my way.
He'll never again get to see,feel or know, the person he helped to shape and grow.
And he'll never again get to see, the poems I still have within me.
So tell me, have you ever known....
Without You
(For Kymm)
My days are so lonely without you here,
I miss you always being there.
My tears fall every single day,
There is so much I long to say.
Instead I'm left alone with the past,
Wondering how long will this pain last?
My anger swells with each teardrop,
My silent screams never stop.
Years have past since you were stolen,
and yet my heart still feels so broken.
I look to the heavens with quiet despair,
My tears fall as I whisper a prayer.
Wishing with all my might that you were still here,
and wondering why I am living this nightmare.
This isn't how it was suppose to be,
My heart and mind cry out angrily.
Where are you, where is my friend?
This isn't the way it's suppose to end.
What happened to living side by side,
and watching the rhythm of the tide?
Where are the grandchildren playing at our feet?
Where are the cool drinks to chase away the heat?
Instead I sit here adrift in a sea of pain,
Knowing each day will always be the same.
Broken dreams to keep me awake,
Endless sleepless nights as my heart breaks.
My days are so lonely without you here,
I will miss you always being there.....
