About me, that I would never write on facebook's
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Nothing. Concentrating on what I'm doing.
Topic: Life

Although this record keeping blog is for my persy intents and purposes, to remind myself of things, etc, if you happen to find yourself here, welcome. 

 

"About Me" that I would never write in the facebook section of "About Me"

 

Homogenous mixture of Mexican and American culture. Knowledgable in both. Lived in Torreon, Coahuila first 12 years of my life. Raised Catholic, attended a Jesuit school up until 6th grade. Moved to Madison thereafter, attended Velma Hamilton middle school, and graduated from Madison West high school, all excellent institutions. Got accepted into UW-Madison, finished my first year there, started a 3rd semester but for many reasons took a year off, and found what I didn't have-direction in life.

Not afraid of commitment. In the past (Feb-June 2007) I've smiled upon the thought of settling down and starting a life with a girlfriend if The Creator called for it. She was 24, UW graduate. Seeing as how we're both intelligent and capable people, I wouldn't by any means say the thought of it was foolish, immature, or anything like that. But that didn't happen.

Honestly, I'm faithful, loyal, respectful, one to take responsibility for my actions.

No drama, carry-on sized baggage, no inferiority complexes that will lead to jealousy, insecurity, etc. Not violent. Not clingy.

Stylish, never/seldom trendy. 

I'm an artist. I paint, I draw, I play some guitar and some piano. I write, mostly to do some deep thinking and remember thoughts, memories and dreams. 

Very healthy family history and/or gene pool on both sides. 

My abuelita's got my back for most intents and purpose$ until I become independent.

Oh oui bien sur, j'aime cette langue beaucoup, je la parle assez bien je crois. Je dois travailler avec l'accent, mais ca va meilleurer si je vois films que j'aime en Francais avec les sous-titres en Francais. C'est un objectif important pour moi.

Been there, done that, learned by trial and error, and grew out of it. Unhealthy self-consciousness, insecurity, smoking, low-mild depression. Not really a drinker. No obsession, or any desire for that matter, to watch sports on tv.

Very patient. Knowledgable, well read. Always on the learn, not so much about superficial politics, or about trends, or about celebrity lives. More about enlightenment, religions, psychology, health, the mind, the body, the soul, life, death, conspiracies, best methods and tips to do things, self actualization, to name some off the top of my head.

Not materialistic. Although I do appreciate the finer things in life, making lots of money or having toys is not my purpose. If they come while doing what I like to do best the best I can, then good. But as a teacher, I feel my purpose is to influence teens in the way they see school. Be the cool teacher that lets his students know if anyone ever needs to talk to someone, that's me. Change their view of school as a tedious thing to just go through, to them thinking of it as more of a pleasant and useful tool meant to teach them how to think for themselves. Using methods ranging from the simple 'fill noun/verb/adjective in the blank in the proper tense' to readings about inspirational things, I plan to plant a positive seed in the thought patterns of as many of my students as possible. I want to be the person that teaches them what I wasn't taught, gives the advice I wasn't given, listens objectively to any personal thing a student may be going through or being troubled by, and points them in the right direction. I feel that is my call in life. And I feel and believe I can do it best by being a teacher, in my case a Spanish and English teacher.

Because of all this, I believe I would make a great dad when the time comes. After taking the "family, marriage and intimate relationships"  class [I kept the book to have it as reference and keep learning from it], I was very much influenced to, in order to be the best parent I can be, learn and know as many things as possible about behavior, social patterns/trends, things to do, things to avoid, nutrition, reward and punishment, etc.
I arrived at an enlightening realization- the best kind of parent is one who is a parent/guide and a friend at the same time. Most important realization that many parents never arrive at. I look forward to learning as much from my son/daughter as he/she'll learn from me. Not hammering my beliefs into hir, but more like guiding hir in life as an unconditional friend who's always looking out for hir and wants the best for hir. Asking hir what he/she thinks he/she should do, why, why not, how does he/she feel about that decision, etc. [hir=him or her]

 

 

 

Some long term goals, starting summer '08, if The Creator wills:

Get back into the habit of working out, and get in good shape. Learn more about effective methods, routines, what works, what to avoid. 

Hand in hand with getting in good shape,  goes eating healthy. Get into habit of drinking water and milk only, eat fruits and vegetables daily, learning to cook healthy meals.

Learning a new word per day. The more one knows, the more free one is. The more words and definitions learned, the more one can express, and better.

Learn to be funny-er. Different humor styles, learn a joke a day, watch stand up comedy, read strategies, etc.

Get into habit of sleeping 8 hours a day. That's only as important as your health.

Learn the art of lucid dreaming. And of the law of attraction/power of positive thinking/feeling/visualizing/harmony.

Watch popular movies, dubbed in french, with french subtitles, repeat after the characters, keep learning french and learn the accent as well as possible.

Incorporate knowledge through conditioning, using notecards, tapes while driving, reading, repeating, visualizing and feeling, etc.

Become more organized. Use time more effectively, make a daily schedule or checklist of things to do. Do everything as soon as possible, in order to really have FREE time with no worries. 

Learn to meditate effectively. Learn about chakras, yoga, spiritualism, and all that good stuff. 

Last [for now] but not least, learn to dance As many styles as possible, but definitely pop & lock and the C walk, they look so fly/lucid. (In a lucid dream, you have control, and you can even fly. Being lucid, and flying, are by definition, cool)

Quotes
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Silence, being pensative

Interesting quotes.

 

 

Except for our bodies there are no other temples in the world

 

It is the deep urge to be one with the whole, the deep urge to dissolve I and thou into one unity.  Love is that because we are separated from our own source, out of that separation the desire arises to fall back into the whole, to become one with it.

 

If you deceive someone, you lose one of life's greatest treasures, you lose the capacity to trust. Because without trust, love is not possible.

 

Remember: whatsoever I am saying is not the thing that I want to say to you. Whatsoever I am saying has nothing to do with truth, because truth cannot be said. Whatsoever I am saying is nothing but a hammering. If you become awake, you will see the truth.

 

"ordinary is the door for extraordinary."

 

The world is not a problem; the problem is your unawareness.

 

Don't choose. Accept life as it is in its totality.

 

"Who am I?" is not really a question because it has no answer to it; it is unanswerable.  It is a device, not a question.

 

Your seed has been covered with so many layers of culture, etiquitte, education, religion, country, that you have completely forgotten that you are here to grow, that you have become a lush green bush full of flowers, fragrance, dancing in the wind and in the rain and in the sun.

 

 The dance of the flower in the wind, in the sun, in the rain, cannot be understood by the head; the heart has to be open for it.

 

 Truth is an experience, not a belief. Truth never comes by studying about it; truth has to be encountered, truth has to be faced. The person who studies about love is like the person who studies about the Himalayas by looking at the map of the mountains. The map is not the mountain! And if you start believing in the map, you will go on missing the mountain. If you become too much obsessed with the map, the mountain may be there dust in front of you, but still you will not be able to see it. And that's how it is. The mountain is in front of you, but your eyes are full of maps-maps of the mountain, maps about the same mountain, made by different explorers.
Somebody has climbed the mountain from the north side, somebody from the east. They have made different maps: Koran, Bible, Gita different maps of the same truth. But you are too full of the maps, too burdened by their weight; you cannot move even an inch. You cannot see the mountain just standing in front of you, virgin snow peaks shining like gold in the morning sun. You don't have the eyes to see it. The prejudiced eye is blind, the heart full of conclusions is dead. Too many a priori assumptions and your intelligence starts losing its sharpness, its beauty, its intensity. It becomes dull. Dull intelligence is what is called intellect. Your so-called intelligentsia are not really intelligent, they are just intellectual.
Intellect is a corpse. You can decorate it-you can decorate it with great pearls, diamonds, emeralds, but still a corpse is a corpse. To be alive is a totally different matter.

 

 

Whatsoever you are doing…be double-arrowed.

 

Speech By J.D. Walsh For Madison West High School's Graduating Class Of 2005
Mood:  suave
Now Playing: Graduation video, brain movies
Topic: Life

Today IS, a little bit frightening. Never have more poetic words been written before.  Let me first thank the administration for letting me be part of this wonderful world, and day. However, this speech is not for you....

 

Let me thanks the friends and family who have come here to support your loved ones in this amazing day. However, this speech is not for you.....

 

To the graduating class of 2005, who have honored me by inviting me to stand here today, this speech is for you.  Well, not all of you. Some of you were mean and popular. I’m sorry i cannot help you. You've peaked.

 

But to the rest of you, my fellow outsiders, the overweight, too tall, glasses, smart, dumb, awkward, dungeon masters, shy, depressed, friendless, gamer, stoners, you love radiohead, you haven’t even heard of radiohead,  you’re from another country, you’re a theater geek, you're different from everyone else, this is your speech!

Things are about to get a lot better, and not because you’re graduating, no that’s too easy. Things going to get better because you’ve asked the dominoes pizza guy to give your speech at graduation.
Like a Greek oracle dressed in a white t-shirt that says Tuesday on it, I’ve come along to pass along the knowledge of a whole 13 years. Some will disagree with it and you are wrong to do so-- you do not wear a white t-shirt that says Tuesday on it, I do.
Do not continue down a path of unenlightenment, turn around and run into the arms of the man who sells you two pizzas for the price on one, only on Tuesdays, prices may vary.

To be honest today is a big day, a day of change. Before I left Los Angeles, I found out that my wife and I, well my wife and I found out that my wife is pregnant. Thank you. That’s very nice of you. I’ll actually just repeat that whenever I want you to clap at the end of a thought, so….

Buckle up here it is: most graduation speeches are about how you should care more about the world. This one is about caring about yourself. You Are Worthy Enough To Follow Your Dreams. You ARE Worthy.
You’re worried about failing in life? A failure is someone who never pursues his or her dreams. You have a dream; you may not even know it yet. Don’t pursue my dream or anybody else’s.  If you wanna be a teacher because you love to do that, then do that.

Don’t pick a path because it’s safe. How many people at the end of their lives have thought, “I could have done so much more, but I didn’t. I was afraid. I didn’t think that I was worthy.” The people that do pursue their dreams and sometimes fall short are risk takers. Be someone who in the end of their life said “I did my best. I tried everything I wanted to do my life was not a failure. Risk now before you have too much to risk.

Regret, remember that one, and fight it everyday. I could go on and on about spending your life pursuing your dreams, so I will. But let’s focus on the next 4 years, love, school, money, and defining what kind of person you are. Sure there are bigger problems in the world, but you didn’t invite Coffe and Nam from the U.N. to give your speech. You invited an actor from the Smart Guy.

We have all these rules, I can’t date in the same dorm, or I can’t date at work, or I can’t date a friend, why not? Why CAN’T you date in your dorm? Never again will you be living with 100’s of other single people who are hoping to meet someone. The odds of you making out with someone are fantastic. It’s like summer camp for a year! Start making out with people, often, making out is fun, do it often.

Stop worrying about rejection and start asking people out. Think about that person you spent the last 4 years hoping to make out with and you never even let them know.  Well I’m about to tell them for you; girls, you know that guy you’ve been best friends with for so long, and you guys hang out all the time and it’s so great, he’s in love with you. And guys you know that girl who’s like super cool to hang out with because she’s like a guy it’s not all weird and stuff, she’s in love with you.

 

You never told the person that you love how you feel, think about that for a second. Let us bask in our collective ashamed silence….You’ve Failed….that’s a pretty bad feeling huh? Good! Remember that feeling for the next 4 years. Don’t be sitting at your college graduation thinking, “Why didn’t I say anything?” Regret-- remember that one and fight it everyday.

Today I want you to stop letting fear run your life. No longer will you stare at the ceiling at 2 am in the morning, hoping that you have telepathy to tell the person that you love how you feel.

They might say no, and it will suck. But sometimes they will say yes and you may get a chance to kiss the person you care about and no amount of rejection can surpass that. Tell them how you feel, I like being with you, let’s go out next week, believe in yourself, Ich bin ein believer.

Couple of things. Don’t date a chick that has more than 3 cats, she’s crazy….If a guy has a nickname that is a noun and he speaks about himself in the third person like “the hammer” wants to go get pizza, he’s crazy.

But most of all date someone who you enjoy talking to. Beauty fades, annoying is forever.

Also, be safe, no joke, people will lie to you in bed. They’re not doing it to hurt you, women do it because they don’t want you to think that they’re easy, and guys do it because they’re worried that if they tell the truth it might stop. Play it safe every single time. Somewhat safe is not safe. Somewhat safe is like taking the airbag out of your car and replacing it with a nerf football. It’s somewhat safe but why would anyone ever do that? Unless then you took the airbag, and made a giant marshmallow, then you put like sofa cushions, then you made a giant s’more! you get my point :D My wife is pregnant!

 

And ladies, men will admire your sense of confidence when you say that it will go no further. We’re expecting to hear no. Don’t let guys treat you like a garbage can, that’s Oprah’s term. Because you’re not, you are the most awesome thing in this world. Some of you didn’t go *applause starts* well yeah, at least the ladies should be clapping to that….the ladies like “noo, we’re all equal….”

Some of you didn’t do well in school, some of you blew off school. If you want to go to college or maybe a better college it’s not too late. Work hard and transfer to your dream school. I transferred twice, to get to UCLA and these teachers will tell you I was not a very good student, I wasn’t was I?

Most of you are going to go to college or to work.  If you’re going to go to University listen to me- stop worrying about your grades. College is the pursuit of knowledge, not the pursuit of a GPA. I took so many shortcuts when I was in college so I could get the best grade with the least amount of effort.

 If you focus on learning about stuff that you’re fascinated by, the grades will come. Today you get your freedom. That has a nice ring to it, well then let freedom ring. I loooove Madison, I hope to raise a family in Madison, get out of Madison.

Start experiencing your life. It’s backpacking through Europe, it’s getting 5 people into a Honda civic and driving 40 miles out of your way to eat this totally amazing burrito. It’s running down the street naked with your underwear as a bonnet yelling the “British are coming”. Do it, do it because it’s funny, or do it because the British are actually coming.

Parents, here is your responsibility. Send your kids money. Don’t wait for them to beg, no college kid has ever said “I have too much money, my parents send me too much money, I wish they would stop” every month you’re gonna mail them cash for no reason, with a little note that says it’s from you, and from me. And grandparents you get in on this as well, it’s from grandpa, and nana, and JD.  Then send the bill to west high school. They make enough off that pottery auction there.

Your parents are going to want you to play it safe and get a responsible career, it’s because they don’t want you to become homeless, riding the rails and playing the harmonica with your dog Jefferson. This wont happen by the way because we don’t live in 1935.  other parents want you to take the safe route because they did and they are happy so why wouldn’t you be?

If you are ever stuck and you’re in a rutt and you don’t know what to do try this, wake up at 7am and work out. Then try not to watch any television for the rest of the day. You’ll feel a difference. I promise you nobody who still lives on their couch at their parent’s house at 25 wakes up at 6:30 in the morning and thinks I have to get to the gym before all the tread mills are taken. You can watch Oprah, cuz that chick will get you off your butt.

And then look around and see the things that the people you admire are doing and do it. The things that I have accomplished in my life have come from watching other people do something and thinking “when in the course of human events am I going to stop watching, and start doing?!” Life is about stepping forward while others stand still. We all have doubt. Some of us are just pretending better than others. We’re worried that someone will tap us on the shoulder and say “We know that you’re faking it, we know that you’re still that scared, fat 13 year old kid who got picked last 2 years in a row at Stew Jackson’s basketball camp”. Hypothetically.

 

Tom Hanks was asked if he was nervous working for Steven Spielberg on “Saving Private Ryan” and he said he was really nervous that after the end of two weeks Spielberg would come to him and say “Sorry Tom it’s not working out we’re gonna have to replace you.” Tom Hanks. Two-Oscars Tom Hanks. And he’s worried that he’s not worthy enough.

 

The truth of the matter is no one is ever too busy, no one, no one will ever tap you on your shoulder and say, that you are faking it, because they’re too busy looking over their own shoulder. because none of us are worthy, all of us are worthy. We are all scared. I was scared when they asked me to speak today. Tell them that you can’t do it Tell them that you’re doing something super Hollywood awesome thing that’s cool. I’m worried today that it wont go well. But I’m not gonna work harder, I’m going to brive you.

 

Everyone who walks across this stage today is going to get a penny from me. I want you to take this penny and at the first fountain I want you to make a wish for your future, but I want you to wish for the opposite of your dream. Something like I hope I never am an architect. Then tell someone what you wished for. See nobody ever said that if you wished something in a fountain is guaranteed to work, but everybody knows that if you tell someone, it wont work. So what you’ve done is you’ve reversed it, the polarity, the space-time continuum, is the, the, my wife is pregnant!

 

In return for this penny I ask for three little favors. The 1^st one is that in the next 6 months do something that scares you, like ask somebody out on a date. Two if you are about to be somewhat safe with somebody on a date, I want you to stop, tell the person I’m sorry, I promised JD, and walk those lonely 2 blocks to the open pantry and get yourself something that will make you safer. And the last favor is that soon you’re going to be, you’re going to see somebody at a party, getting ready to drive that’s just slightly drunk, straight out of some lame driver’s ed video, and no one’s stopping them because they don’t wanna look stupid. Just once, for me, I want you to stop it. I want you to be braver than I ever was.

 

Today is another day in making decisions that make you who you are. Are you a giver or a taker? I say be a giver because otherwise you get so wrapped up in being a hungry hungry hippo that you don’t realize that you’re plastic fat and purple. Givers don’t sweat the small stuff, they give because it makes them happy.

 

Are you a victim or a hero? You face some adversity along the way, don’t be a victim. They don’t write books about people who faced adversity and then stayed crumpled on the ground in the fetal position. People have had bigger obstacles than you and have had overcome them. If a woman can change a nation by not getting up from her seat on a bus, you can change your life by getting off the couch.

 

Are you the one that takes the final shot, or do you watch somebody else take it? Always take the shot because you realize that sometimes it goes in and sometimes it doesn’t, and that’s just life. But the more you take the shot, the easier it gets. Are you someone who believes in themselves or do you need other’s approval? Pretend to be confident and soon you will be. Don’t tell anybody except those that you love and trust that you are scared. Do the best job that you can and hope for the best. The only way to feel worthy is to believe in yourself that you ARE worthy.

 

One more analogy. Life is like a party. There are people who dance at parties, and there are people who sit at parties. And the dancers are the ones that risk looking like a fool and have a great time. And the sitters just sit there basting in their own broth of fear and they have a horrible time. What are you going to be? Are you going to be a sitter or a dancer? And I don’t want you to decide in some mythical time down the road, I want you to decide right now. Because we’s gonna dance. And you can sit there if you want, because it’s a little bit fightening. But I’m gonna do it, I’m gonna live life what I love to do. And you know what? I love to dance. Bring it!