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2:28am ||Monday,July 12th,2004
Well, yesturday, July 12th, has been the worstest day in this year so far! First off, early in the morning a guy i most truely care for, doesn't think we should be talking anymore. I really don't get him 'cause I REALLY try my hardest to see him and he just doesn't understands. He says it's my parents, and after all I've done for him! I actually cut my screen out of my window to slip something to him. Yes, I have to admit, I would love him even more if I could hear his voice once again. I miss him alot. When he said that, I froze up, almost had a panic attack, I didn't know what to do, so I figured it was best to just then, let him move on with his life. Why would he bother to be with me. After all, once he said that and we both hung up, I almost started to cry, but I pulled myself together. Then I just fell to my bed and started to think over some things. Then probably 20 mins. later he calls, I answer, he doesn't say anything and I know it's him, cuz I have caller ID, I mean come on now. So I stayed on the phone waiting for him to say my name. Then I hung up because he didn't. I was like oh well maybe he wanted to compromise because he couldn't actually live without talking to me once again as I felt for him. So seconds after I hung up, he called again, I answered once again, at first he didn't say anything so I just sighed and waited. He finally said my name, I was like " I thought we weren't talking to each other anymore? " I just said that because I thought he changed his mind and was gonna finally let us talk once again. But then he just says, " Oh I see how it is bye." So , I stayed on after he hung up for like a minute or so, cuz he jokes alot. Then I hung up and called him. He said "hello?" I was like "wait hey, I really didn't mean it like that." Before he heard the rest he hung up... PURPOSELY!! I thought his cell phone needs charging so he'll charge it up then will eventually called me, or that he was probably fixing his earpiece and he accidentally hung up like earlier. I called him back , he said "hello?" I said once again,"why'd you hang up?" then guess what? He hung up on me?! Ain't that booty or what? I felt like everything, but mostly confused. So I just fell asleep and went to bed. Just thinking , and confused as fuck! And dawg! This supposed to be a happy entry but daaamn, he gotta be all emotional and everything.....big daddy superman my ass!
Current Mood: Depressed
Listening To:Beyonce:Dangerously In Love 2
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