Welcome back this is page four on how FMS and Lupus has affected my life.
Another tool I use is writing, writing helps me to accept, and deal with my emotions; writing is a tool I use often Like I use prayer and meditation . I am seeing more and more that I am not alone. God is always with me. I am finding it is good to share with others who are going through similar experiences. I like the idea of a support group for FMS because we can encourage each other. I have received positive information from this support group what a blessing we have. I think since we look good on the out side and we feel like were dying in the inside people just do not understand our pain. People who have not experienced FMS or Lupus do not know how it is to live in our shoes. The pain we have is real people have to believe what we say.
We have feelings we are human, I believe having FMS and Lupus can be a blessing don’t get me wrong I would not wish this on anyone, but because of the pain, and the depression, I have been in I have gotten desperate to really enjoy life. Now I see what living in the moment really means. Since I have been sober and been going to 12step meetings I have been told to stay in the moment but not until having FMS and now Lupus have I really understood what staying in the moment really means. From day to day I do not know what to expect some days I can walk, some days I can’t. I am not taking life for granted any more like I used to. I am starting to see more what life is really about. Life is a gift. I believe we can have a wonderful life. We have to learn our limitations, learn what we can do, and cannot do, learn to ask for help when we need it. Give ourselves permission to not be perfect. Rest and relieve our stresses of daily living.
I have a choice I can feel sorry for myself and try to hide from the world as I have done since I was diagnosed with FMS and Lupus, or I can go on and make a life for myself, and even a better life then the one I had before FMS. Life is what we make it. I can enjoy or destroy it. It is my reactions to the experience of life.
In the pages you are reading about how my life has changed from FMS and Lupus I have written it though the months from March till now.I had to come back and add some since I was diagnosed with Lupus.
Thank you for taking the time and visiting me. Hope you come back as I am always adding more to my pages.
