This was written April of 2003.
My attitude is changing I am excited since the first meeting at the FMS support group. I cannot get out often but it is nice to be able to go to meetings to get support and meet others.
There are times I feel this pain I have physically is a punishment for me being the drunk I was. Then I have to remember I don't believe that God punishes, and I believe life is an experience for us to experience to get closer to our HP to experience the all that God is.
I am finding out that there are certain actions I can take to better myself to live a longer, healthier, happier life. I have found out that swimming is easier than walking or stretching so that is a tool I can use. There is help for people with FMS and Lupus we just have to look and ask questions. I am becoming ok with myself, and learning to stop when I need to. I give myself permission to be human. I think acceptance is the key, not that we accept and sit around all day and do nothing but I feel I have to accept what I have and then do the foot work to make a life for myself. I am learning my limitations and rest when I need to, not go over board and do every thing at once.
One thing that really helps me to accept what is going on in my life, and living with these diseases is prayer and meditation. I have a lot of conversations with God; my way of praying is talking to God; like I talk to people. Then I have to listen for the answers. Be still to hear answers, I breathe in and out to get through the pain when I am in flair ups with FMS.
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