Page two continuation on how FMS and Lupus has changed my life.
Page two continuation on how FMS and Lupus has changed my life.
Since November 2003 I have used a cane to walk. In April of 2004 I received a wheel chair from a church that donates them to people who need them. I have not been able to work since November of 2003. I use a cane to help me get around in the house and the wheel chair if I need to. I never know when my legs will give out and drop me to the floor.
It has not been easy for me to accept this I use to be in good shape and could do so much more but now I feel like I am 80 years old in a 39-year-old body. It is not fair! I am learning that life is not always fair but this is the way it is. I have to accept it and go on with life make the best of it. We are not here forever I may as well enjoy the life I have and be positive.
This part was written right when I was told I had fms in March of 2004. My ego and pride has been getting in my way. I have cried a lot and I have been isolating a lot. I believe a lot of the problem for me is acceptance. I have to accept what I have then I have to take action to help myself. Since I have started going to the FMS support groups on line and in person when I can get there, I feel better.
This was written in August of 2004
I have to accept that I have FMS and Lupus, and make the best of it. More than ever I have to have a complete unfailing trust in God. I am reminded of what the actor Jerry Lewis says at the end of the MD telethon “ You will never walk alone.”
