I feel relieved now that I know I am not crazy. I have had pain, for years; going on 20 years. I just ignored it; I thought I was going insane. I hurt all the time and the pain would move from place to place on my body. I cried all the time it was depressing. I would wake up in the middle of the night shaking and freaking out in my head thinking this is not real. Now that I have a name for this condition I am relived to know I am not insane.
FMS affects your whole body it feels like having the flu that never goes away. Lupus affects your whole body too but it also is like having rheumatoid arthritis because the joints are affected and the immune system is affected. I don’t sleep well at all I am up every 2 hours, some nights I can’t get to sleep and I just stay up until I pass out.
For years I was using food like a drug and I just accepted myself fat. As time went on the pain I was experiencing became worse I got sick and tired of it and since I did not have insurance I was not able to get any medication. I searched all over the net about FMS and healthy diets. I am going back a few months before I got my insurance and before I knew I had fms or lupus I thought I had fms but was not sure at the time.
I found lots of information and started to change my eating habits. I lost some weight I feel much more positive about myself. My self-esteem is better now.
My muscles still hurt, the weight loss has not helped the pain of FMS, or the Lupus, but the weight loss makes it easier because I can stand longer on my feet. I could not stand while cooking in the kitchen for long periods of time. What helps me is using a bar stool to sit on while washing dishes or chopping vegetables. When making a big meal I have to do it little by little.
The Following Pages is how Lupus and FMS changed my life.
