~Unfolding the Rose~
It is only a tiny
A flower of God's
But I cannot unfold the petals;
With these clumsy
hands of mine.
The secret of
Is not known to
such as I.
GOD opens this flower
When in my hands
they fade and die.
If I cannot unfold
This flower of
Then how can I
think I have wisdom
To unfold this life
So I'll trust in
Him for His leading
Each moment of
I will look to him
for His guidance
Each step of the
The pathway that
lies before me,
Only my Heavenly
I'll trust Him to
unfold the moments,
Just as He unfolds the rose.
One Night, in 2000, I met a gal called “Patty” in a chat room; It was her first time into ChurchUSA. There seemed to be an instant connection,
and we have grown to be very good friends.
I believe the Lord sent Patty my way, and I am so thankful for her.
Having over 400
foster children, and two of her own, makes Patty one remarkable gal! Needless to say, she is a compassionate and
caring woman of God! ~ Meet Patty! ~
Hi.... ~Patty~ here... Jeanene wants me to tell you about me. Silly
girl... doesn't she know I'll bore you to death?? Oh well....at least you'll
get to see Jesus sooner!! *S*
I chose the
story of the Quilt to put on my page because I can relate so much with the
writer. It talks of a life that had more pain and sorrow in it than most people
should ever have. My life was similar. Many losses in
relationships...deaths....and many hurtful childhood days. My mother was an
alcoholic....my father hid himself away from us all because he couldn't cope. The emotional
abuse drug my self esteem through the mud and back again. For some
reason only the good Lord knows....through it all I have been able to have a
huge forgiving heart. Through all the hurting I still loved them very much my mother
remarried a man that was even more abusive than she...spent years listening to
him ridicule me....
Love won out though...he is now saved
and says it was from watching me. He couldn't believe I could still love him.
I was able to see later in life what
the Lord had meant for me....that the bad in my life would give me the much-needed
empathy for the work I do today. As I spent my teen years angry at the world
and especially God.....it is hard to understand why He would want me, but He
did. I would scream and yell at Him for not just letting me die. If He was such
a "good God", so loving and caring, why did He forget me? He saved me
from 2 suicide attempts.....the last of which I almost made it. Still with the
miracle that happened with that attempt...I continued to mistrust Him. Funny
though how I couldn't just stop talking to Him. *S* or walk away
Finally at the age of 37 He got tired
of waiting for me. As I sat in my car at my friends house..( a Christian
friend that had been praying for me all along).. a very brilliant light
flooded my car. It was a warmth that made me weep because the emotion was so
intense. I imagine it to be like the brilliance seen in that woman's quilt. I
knew right then that I would never leave Him again or mistrust Him. He never
gave up on me like so many others in my life. I wanted to be just like him. I
try so hard to give to others...to love others as He does. It is not an easy
task and I wonder often how He can continue to show so much mercy to us.
I have learned finally what it means to
rely on God....to trust unconditionally....to love unconditionally. I found out
that all the hurts and pains allowed much empathy for others. I now run a group
home for delinquent teen girls. They are the ones that have been tossed out of
3 or more foster homes. They are kids that need to see that unconditional
love....that acceptance no matter what they did....that mercy.... that hope.
Praise God for His patience and His
loving me. I pray I never forget how much He has blessed me.
God bless each of you ..... And may
you see the glory of His light upon your face!!!
Column: SALVATION ALLEY
"PATTY'S HOMEPAGE & ALBUM"
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