Hate

 

This thoughts I had for you
Were cruel and without love…
The words that came over my lips
Were hard and pushed you away…

Haven't I thought you're my love?
You're my life?
So how could I think and say all this
What I've said…?!

Can't understand myself
Can't believe all this…

It's just like a feeling
I cannot control…
Although I want it.
From time to time
I hate you more than I love you

And I told you
That I hate you
Hate you more than I believe
More I want to become true…

Yes, I hate you…
Can't stand you anymore…
Not this feelings I have…
It's no love, but it's no "I like you"…

And so all I can do is to hate you
To forget you, the one I believed in.
Believed in all what I dreamed of
But suddendly everything was for nothing.

Suddendly I noticed nothing of all this
Would ever come true.
My feelings for you can't be right.
Can't be true…

I don't want to believe it…
Don't know how I could forget you
Forget all this huge feelings for you…
So the only opportuity I have is
To hate you…

Hate you for what you've done to me
What you made me feel
Made me believe…

But now that I said
I feel this terrible pain in me
Pain that reminds me
That I lost you
Lost you even I never had you
Lost you in myself
In my stupid feelings and thoughts…

Tears are running down my cheeks
My heart torn up…
I'm torn…because without you
I can't live…I don't want to live
And I realize that I told you
A big lie…the biggest I ever believed in…

How could I hate you
When you are
The reason of my life…

You're all my life…

(c) by S.P.

 

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