Monday, July 26, 2004 | 06:16 p.m. | trauma at the park
listening to: dir en grey - fukai
mood: appalled and disgusted
waaaaaa!!! i was harrassed by a little girl in the park!!! dammit! imagine being harrassed by a mere LITTLE GIRL!!! i shouldn't have underestimated her.... she kept following me and...i should've seen it coming...from the time she started hitting my shoe, then scratching my hand... then... suddenly... i didn't know exactly what she did, but it hurts!!! dammit!!! dammit!!! it happened in the morning and it hurt until lunch... and i'm not the only one.. earlier, she harrassed a friend of mine too...what exactly happened was, there was this girl in the park who was begging for some change... and i said i didn't have any. (i really didn't have any except some for my jeepney fare and i needed it) i started to move away from her to my friends and she followed me. she kept speaking in a dialect i didn't understand so she might not be from the area... and it happened. she hit my shoe then scratched me then.... dammit!! what a great way to start the week!
it seems that i'm a magnet for those who are in need of money... while eating lunch at chowking with my friends, this guy tried selling me dried mangoes for fifty bucks. he even begged. nobody else in the restaurant bought from him probably because he came at the wrong time and went to a wrong place. there's a lot of them in the campus those who hand you a card with their names and their situation, that he's a self supporting student and it would be appreciated if i buy from him and stuff...i'm also in need of money so why do they always approach me?! do i look friendly? and i thought i look suplada.
a tricycle driver smiled(!) at me while walking home...then he turned and smiled(!) again...i don't know him so it weirded me out. what's the world coming to?! i'm seeing something bad in the future...
Monday, July 19, 2004 | 09:59 a.m. | bout the layout...br2
hmmm... i'm in an internet cafe and i checked this page. the font of the title was different. i forgot that not all pc's have the same font so maybe i'll just make it a banner.
yesterday, my brother brought home a copy of battle royale 2. he borrowed it from his friend and he'll be returning it today. good thing he made a copy (i know i know it's illegal but we'll not be selling it or anything). i'll be watching it later :)
edited on july 31
Sunday, July 18, 2004 | 08:24 p.m. | new layout
i made this layout a while ago..i'm still not satisfied with it so expect some changes soon...Monday, June 21, 2004 | 07:15 p.m. | ....
dammit.....9 units pa lng ako. kailangan ko pa ng 3 units.... buti nakakuha ako kaninang seven kya naging 9 units ako kanina. problema ko na lng ung es13. sana may magpacancel bukas sa 10-11:30 na class. last chance ko na yun... pag wala.... i'm DOOMED... baka macancel reg form ko kasi less than 12 units ako.... mapipilitan akong mag file ng loa para sa sem na to. tapos, sa bahay ulit ako buong sem. nakakatamad yun... ay, di pala. may pc na kami ulit ngaun kaya may mapagkakaabalahan ako ngayon kung sakali... aayusin ko site ko at mag eeksperimento sa photoshop... ayus din un... magseself study din ako ng flash... ayus! pero kung nangyari man na ma-loa ako... madedelay ako ng isa pang taon.... kung sakali seven years ako sa college... ayoko nga! yoko maging 'urban legend' sa ceat.
Sunday, June 13, 2004 | 01:34 p.m. | old town
i forgot to write this yesteday...last friday we went to lucena city, quezon, to get my aunt's new passport. we passed bato springs where the water's very cold and where my friends and i had our sem-ender, villa escudero and monte vista beach resort where we camped during my sophomore year in hs. it's not very far. you could see the ocean from the road just like in ilocos. anyway, we reached lucena and saw an ad of sm. i didn't know that there's sm in lucena. i didn't expect it cos lucena city doesn't look like a city at all. it looks more like an old town. there's a lot of old houses (those made of wood), torn buildings and old buildings that need renovation. even the government institutions need some renovation. only the road is nice. i wonder where they use their funds... my father said that lucena's full of rebels, it's no wonder. lucena looks like a town of outlaws like the ones you see in cowboy movies.
anyways, my aunt got her passport then we went to the public market. i saw some very interesting events. well, not really, it might look ordinary to others. while waiting in the car i saw three young girls walking hand in hand (my guess is that they're sisters), the youngest one in between the two. they stopped and looked in the window of a tailor's shop. the youngest one couldn't see so she asked to be carried so she can also look in the window. the eldest carried her. then she put her down. the other girl ran up a ramp into a house and so did the eldest. the youngest couldn't make it cos the ramp was steep so she asked again to be carried, and the eldest came back for her and carried her up the ramp... there, i find it cute don't you?
another scene i witnessed was of a green grocer and his 2 kids. his vegetables were spread on the sidewalk in front of a closed shop next to the tailor's shop. some guy came and did some sermoning then went away. then the grocer started packing the vegetables and the children helped him... it seems that he was warned by the guy not to sell on the sidewalks or else he'll get jailed or sumthing... i watched him as he placed the vegetables in plastic bags and once in a while a customer would stop to buy but he wouldn't sell to them. they finished packing when my aunt and mom came back with the fish they bought. they transferred somewhere and they left a big plastic bag full of eggplants i dunno why.
we went home and on the way we bought some pineapples cos it's pineapples festival in calauan.
@ 2:34pm
i googled for some marvin sia info and i found two sites, blogs actually. i learned that marvin has a friendster account. i searched him and added him as my friend. i also sent him a message. i hope he replies soon. JJJ
Saturday, June 12, 2004 | 07:41 p.m. | happy independence day!
when my brother told me that there's a contestant who looks like Vanness in Colgate's Trip Kita (reality dating-adventure game) i din't believe him. i thought that this guy must be a crappy one but i was wrong. i saw him at the commercial of the final episode..he and his partner made it to the final three pairs. i wanted to get to know him better so i watched the show earlier this afternoon. he's not bad at all. he does look like vanness! his name is marvin sia. he has long layered hair, low voice, and a nice toned bod. his bangs always gets in the way of his left eye so he flicks it often. here's some info i found about him from watching the show.
reasons why he isn't like vanness
1. he collects dvd's (and vanness collects what? toys?)
2. he collects comic books
3. he always has a stock of peanut butter (his fave) and milk in the fridge
4. he knows how to cook a variety of dishes (including pasta, etc.)
5. and most of all he likes to write and not sing
another thing i found out from watching their song and dance number is that he isn't a dancer like vanness. and also that he's good at emoting that he can be an actor.
anyways, out of four special awards he won the mr. friendship award and his partner won the ms. friendship award. but most importantly he won the grand prize which is one million cash. also, he'll be the next face of colgate. i was expecting the winner to be beau because i thought that he has the nicest smile of the three. but i guess colgate chose him because of the popularity of f4 look alikes (ranier of starstruck, hero of star circle). i'm happy he won because i'll be seeing more of him in the future. ^^JJJ
i watched america's next top model for the first time. i liked elyse from the moment i saw her. she has short hair and a pale face. i liked her shot with the snake... i thought it was very beautiful. i also liked adrian's (?) shot, with her 'mask of zorro' makeup. i really admire girls who are beautiful even with short hair or boyish cut. i wonder how'd i look with a boyish hair cut. the problem with my hair is that it's wavy and fly away. i don't know what kind of cut suits me.
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(bits of info about me)
i haven't done this in a long time....
hmmm...we're 4 in the family, 2 girls and 2 boys. i'm the second child..my sister's the eldest; she's a year older than me. my brother's 2 years younger and my baby brother, 16 years younger. actually my baby brother is like an answered prayer. because during the time when my mom was pregnant with him (i didn't know), i had baby cravings.
Thursday, June 10, 2004 | 02:25 p.m. | blue
i just came back from the registration. hmmm...they've improved. instead of students crowding the counter i was shocked to see students lined up. it was faster, they were very efficient. i got my reg form within a couple of minutes...
bleh >_< my reg form... they gave me form5a, a blank form, which means that i'll be the one to look for subjects (or sumthing)... sigh...i already got two...and still petitioning for the other two.... 3 units each, that's a total of 12 units, and that's the maximum that i can enroll in...sigh...i've got to check on them tomorrow.
my aunt (more like grandma)... i'm so happy that she's still here. her work is in nueva ecija (very very far from here) and she comes home every weekends. she's been here since friday last week, to look for our house while we were in baguio. this is the longest stay she ever had since she started working there. i wish that she'd just stay here....
Thursday, June 10, 2004 | 11:42 a.m. | i'll gallery
waaa! akane! so cute ^^
Tuesday, June 1, 2004 | 04:24 p.m. | "she's going to change the world but she can't change me..."
i'm happy because my readmission was approved which means i'll be going back to school this sem. yes... i've been a bum for too long that i'm afraid i don't have the skills anymore or have forgotten even the basic ideas or lessons that i knew. i hope not...
last week i've been busy playing gunbound. it's an online game like ragnarok but unlike it, gunbound's free... the gameplay's like worms but there's a variety of tanks or mobile for you to choose. there's also hidden ones that's very powerful. you can customize your avatar with different kinds of clothes, hats, eyewear, tattoos, accesories, flags, etc.... aside from that, you get to play with people from all over the world. it's very addictive, download it at http://gunbound.net.
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Thursday is writing your life story!you're more
concerned with the bigger issues of life rather
than high school drama. this is all well and
good, but don't get so caught up in your
figurative language that it seems like you're
speaking Nepalese. like that's a language.
Which Band Is Writing Your Life's Story?
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yeah! thursday! i like their songs especially war all the time and signals over the air.
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Tuesday, May 18, 2004 | 07:52 a.m. | "yum yum yum yum yum. delicioso!"
here i am again, taking advantage of the unlimited surfing hours of pacific internet. actually, i couldn't sleep (again) and i'm hungry (dinner was not enough?). it's a good thing we have cornflakes and milk. i'm eating it right now while downloading i'll generation basket vol.1-4 thru bitorrent. it's 20% complete and there's still 12 hours and 10 mins to go... i guess i'll be spending the whole week downlaoding it...
Sunday, May 16, 2004 | 02:58 a.m. | "silence is golden, eloquence is silver"
i learned something bad about gackt. i don't know if this is true; i heard it from someone. i learned that he got mad at a fan of his. a show got some fan who looked like gackt and dressed him up as gackt. when he got onstage he immitated gackt's posture and voice. he didn't know that gackt was backstage and saw everything he did. gackt got mad and rushed onstage with a clenched fist...that's all i learned. i hope it's exaggerated. i can't imagine gackt getting angry on tv and doing something like that to a fan... and i adored him so much.
i learned another thing today... my crush is in a relationship! the last time i checked was last month and he was still single then...and now....i checked his friendster account and saw his status. i thought that he will concentrate on his studies... but he's graduating next year, so i think it's ok. it won't affect his studies if he knows his priorities. oh well.... there's nothing i can do.. i hope he's happy...(oh please! don't kid yourself!) well, it's not like he won't be having any more relationships, he isn't tied yet, so there's still a possibility.....(hehehe... what am i thinking.)
And Ooh, Solitude,
Still with me is only you
Ooh, Solitude,
I can't stay away from you
Ooh, Solitude,
Forever me and forever you
Ooh, Solitude,
Only you, only true
~ an excerpt from "Solitude" by Evanescence
i started reading monster by naoki urasawa. the plot is great, it takes place in germany, very unique, there's also some technical stuff. the protagonist is a brain surgeon or something. i like the story it's intriguing. i usually read shoujo manga so this is refreshing. urasawa also created 20th century boys.
Friday, May 14, 2004 | 7:17 a.m. | i can't sleep.
my sister woke me up at 4am; it was my turn on the pc. i spent 1hr and a half surfin the net, checking my deviantart and friendster account, searching for celebrity pictures to photomanipulate. all i found are a few pictures of vincent kartheiser.
after that i went back to bed but i found out that i'm not sleepy. i spent a few minutes awake on my bed trying to sleep. but i just can't. so i decided to clean the living room and wash some dishes that were left overnight. and here i am in front of the pc again.
we have a new cpu, finally, after more than a year since our pc crashed. we got it assembled on sunday. and now it's faster, has a lot of disk space and what i love the most, it has a graphics accelerator for games. now, i can play need for speed underground. ^^
Tuesday, April 6, 2004 | 05:44 p.m. | lyrics - chris cornell
Preaching The EndChris Cornell
Hello, I know there's someone out there
Who can understand
And who's feeling the same way as me
I'm twenty-four and I've got everything to live for
But I know now that it wasn't meant to be
'Cause all has been lost and all has been won
And there's nothing left for us to save
But now I know that I don't want to be alone today
So if you find that you've been feeling just the same
Call me now it's alright
It's just the end of the world
You need a friend in the world
'Cause you can't hide
So call and I'll get right back
If your intentions are pure
I'm seeking a friend for the end of the world
I've got a photograph, I'll send it off today
And you will see that I am perfectly sane
Not for a lifetime or forever and a day
'Cause we know now that just won't be the case
There will be no commitment and no confessions
And no little secrets to keep
No little children or houses with roses
Just the end of the world and me
'Cause all has been gone and all has been done
And there's nothing left for us to say
But we could be together as they blow it all away
And we can share in every moment as it breaks
Call me now it's alright
It's just the end of the world
You need a friend in the world
'Cause you can't hide
So call and I'll get right back
If your intentions are pure
I'm seeking a friend for the end of the world
Saturday, March 20, 2004 | 03:51 p.m. | lyrics!
this song is dedicated to all my friends, inspirations, and esp. to my family... common na ung "because of you" ni keith martinThe Reason
Hoobastank
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
