November 4, 2000---At this point I had been waking up with nausea and very sore breasts for about a week. I really hadn't thought much about it until today. I laid there in bed and thought OH MY GOD, it can't be. I can't be pregnant. Not now. I tried to push the thoughts out of my head all day. We went to the flea market and I was walking around shopping and had a sudden craving for pickles! UGH!!! I hate pickles! At that moment I just knew I was pregnant but I was still in denial. I guess I really didn't want to get my hopes up just in case it was a false alarm. Also I had bled a few days in October and didn't realize I was already over a week late for my period. I called my mom late that afternoon and since John was at work my sister ran to Wal-Mart and bought me an EPT. I told her I'd call in the morning and let her know the results. I really didn't wanna take the test that night. She said no, mom wants you to take it right now and I'm not leaving until you do. So I go into the bathroom and pee on the dang stick. I tell her not to come in that I still have my pants down (lied) but she bursts in the bathroom and we start watching the test. One line shows up....then two. I am sitting there in shock and she's jumping up and down screaming YOU'RE PREGNANT JULIE!!!! At this point I totally lost control. I started crying and screaming. I didn't wanna be pregnant. I called my mom crying telling her I can't do this, I'm too old...my kids are half grown, I can't start over now. I like my freedom. She says too bad. I was so mad I was pounding my fists into the cabinets and crying like a baby. Finally I calm down and realize there's nothing I can do about it now and that I hafta accept it. I called John about an hour later and told him I was going to literally yank his nuts out of his head! He said why? I'm like guess why you idiot! He said I told ya so. He'd been teasing me all day telling me I was pregnant but I kept tellin him he was dreaming.

November 6, 2000---Went to Murfreesboro to the clinic and had a pregnancy test there. It was confirmed that I was definitely pregnant and due on July 4, 2001.

November 9, 2000---Went for my first visit with Dr. Greg Taylor in Murfreesboro, my new OB. I was weighed, gave tons of blood, pelvic exam (yippie skippie!) and had to have my Norplant removed today. I was so scared about being cut open but it wasn't as bad as I had imagined it would be. My arm wasn't sore at all afterwards either. It was confirmed that I am 5 weeks and 1 day pregnant. I am due on JULY 4, 2001. INDEPENDANCE DAY---THE DAY I WILL LOSE MY FREEDOM AGAIN. LOL~

November 25, 2000---Went for my first ultrasound today. The baby is so tiny. Everything looks great. The heartbeat is 173 bpm. I have gained 1 lb.