I used to have a whole section on here about my life's trials and tribulations, but now I realize that it sounds really negative and that's just not who I am anymore. I've changed a great deal over the last few years. I just don't see how me putting up all the negative things that have happened in my life are going to help you.

Suicide is one of the hardest things to overcome... but it's not the actual suicide. For me it was what was making me want to commit suicide... once I starting to get passed the depression and try to move away from the things that were causing the misery, it wasn't as bad. I won't say that it's all roses and cherries, but there are good things to life.. you just have to find ways of cherishing them instead of always looking at the bad things. That was my mistake... and now when I look back I don't remember a lot of the good things from my childhood... just the bad things. So now I'm trying to remember the good things. I can't say to totally forget the bad, because you learn from them and get stronger, but just try not to focus on them.

It's strange really, I wouldn't trade my life... not one bit of it, because it's what shaped me into the person I am today. I like to think of myself as a good listener, fairly smart, and kind. I have my faults as well, but so does everyone else... for instance I get depressed sometimes, and even though I'm pretty laid back most of the time, I do have a bad temper when someone really peeves me off.

For the most part I coped with my suicide on my own, but now because it was so hard the first time to face, i've been talking about it a little bit more to some of my new friends... it's helped a little bit.