Thursday 15/7/1999

uch a fierce storm this afternoon, lasted for nearly 2 hours. That kept me in bed until about 3 something.

Angelfire server was down for a good 12 hours today, no wonder my page recorded no visits....*LOL*.... I only realised this when I was about to update my journal entry. I thought I would lose everything, I have no back-up files and everything is on their server. Looks like I have to save all my files - on my C drive and on Zip now.

I bumped into Pat this evening, just before trading started. I was on my way to one Fish 'n Chip shop, on the first floor of Sungai Wang Plaza and passed one music centre that was playing No Matter What (Boyzone). So I stopped for a while for a breather...*LOL*... Ok, I know I'm too old to listen to this group but I have to admit I like their songs, especially the cover versions.

Oh, I nearly told you that I have their CD titled By Request.....

Suddenly I saw her coming from the other direction, with 2 bagfull of goodies. Pat is a friend of mine, we studied German at Goethe Institut, KL for 2 years, way back in 1995/6. She's working in Istanbul, now back home for a 2-week holidays. It was nice chatting in German over a plate of nice crispy ...oh, I love fish 'n chips.....Her German? Simply amazing....thick accent too, I kept saying words like," Mein Gott, dein Deutsch is sehr gut/ Langsam,bitte/Oh,was ist....?/Nein, ich kann verstehe nicht...etc

The office was so very quiet tonight, Kumar and Andrew were not there. Only 5 or 6 of us, En Fadhil turned up just after midnight. Went for tea with Dominic and he laughed at me for looking so gloom. (Me, gloom?..give me a break !...)

Tried calling Rohaya on her handphone minutes before that. Voice message. Then dialled the house number,her sister picked up the phone.

"She just got home and she's having a shower now"

"Ok, could you please ask her to call Zainal?"

"Your number please?"

"Well, she knows my number"

And she never did. Maybe she did not get the message.

Anyway, I'm counting....

Friday 16/7/1999

While printing some reports from binews.com, commodityexpert.com and hencorp.com this afternoon, I realized something - compared to say, a year or two ago, I don't spend nearly as much time socializing on the 'net anymore. My fun time back then was legendary. My nick, Toomany, was all over the 'net, newsgroups, message boards etc. Then came ICQ, AOL Instant Messenger, iChat Pager, Pagoo etc etc.

But these days I simply can't find the time. My online time is now being spent on doing research and learning new things.I will only be seen "online" when I'm free. I've even forgotten my AOL username.

I have to admit internet has changed my life, the way I look at myself, the way I look at people and the way I look at life in general.

I've been on the 'net for more than 3 years now, and when I look back at my experiences, I realise that everything was so new,in the beginning and I looked at everything with wonder and wow. Then, everything continued to be new, but changed constantly, giving me constant new things to explore.

I also "met" people, I made friends. I started to mature. I started to learn. In a big way. We live and we learn. But, sadly, at different rates.

Then I realised that every man has three characters - that which he exhibits, that which he has, and that which he thinks he has. And you can live a lifetime and, at the end of it, know more about other people than you know about yourself.

I won't say that the net, isn't fun for me anymore. No. It still is. But I think that so-called age of innocence is definitely over. Is this what they call it growing old/up on the internet? I think so. Yeah. And I'm really sad to say, I don't have a lot of time for fun times any longer.

I know they (Scott, Dotp, Lynno, Tivona, Alex of Waltons Site and a few others on my ICQ list ) must be wondering why I'm not online anymore.

It's been my own fault that I haven't kept up with those relationships.

Now is not time to think of what I do not have. Now is the time to think of what I can do with what there is. I have to, above all be true to myself, and if I can not put my heart in it, then I have to take myself out of it...*LOL*..

I will "try" to make the most of myself, for that is all there is of me. Life does not have to be perfect to be wonderful.

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.

Go,Zainal Go!....Ale.....Ale.....Ale...

Saturday 17/7/1999

As ever, I'm pleased to see the weekend again. It's been such a boring week at work. It seemed like such a lovely day this afternoon when I left for lunch.

That fried rice tasted like (beep).They put way too much salt in it. Bloody too much salt. And my iced lemon tea,the colour...macam air kencing kuda..*LOL*. I wanted to make a complaint to the manager but since he was busy aku senyap sajalah, takut jugak nanti dia kata, apalah balau sekor ni....

There was a car overtaking me from the left when I was about to go to Section 8. That really pissed me off, it was so close to the traffic lights. A few drivers on the right side of me kept honking at the guy and suddenly he got out from his car and showed his middle finger at us. I just smiled and nodded my head. And for no obvious reason I took a pic. of his car, yeah, that small car....



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Oh dear....I "lost" my entries for Saturday - Tuesday (17-20) and while I try to locate them,click here to go to the next page.

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