Life Of A Typical Malay - June 2000

Thursday 1/6

Someone left a message on my web pager just now. To see that they left a note makes me quite happy. I can't say how it makes me feel, but it touches my heart, making me smile. For it is the small things in this world that makes us happy.

It is the child that smiles, or the flower that blooms. It is the moon that shines down on us, or the God that looks over us. It is the fleeting thoughts of all the things we see and observe. This is why happiness is so fleeting, and contentment everlasting.

Most of what I write will be what I think at the time. You know, I cringe sometimes when I re-read past entries. These thoughts are spontaneous. I am quick to give away my heart, and slow to complete the process. I am highly analytical and emotional. One of the few I personally know that holds both extremes. So think carefully when you read my entries, for they are usually not what they appear to be...heh..

If you dislike an entry, please talk to me about it via email, or icq. I will be glad to explain what I mean. What I will not do is hide what I think and feel at the moment. My friends know me, strangers know me. I am the guy that has no secrets of his own that are not yours for the asking.

I do however hold secrets for others, and these are not available at any cost.

Friday 2/6

Things have not been good for me, but there really is nothing at all new about that as they haven't been good for quite a while. Simply put I'm in a state of depression...*LOL*...Why this is so I don't know and neither do I know how to escape the current situation. Time is the answer I suppose. It's not like I made a conscious decision to be the way the I am, it's just the way it turned out.

Saturday 3/6

I didn't sleep very well this morning. I went to bed tired but was still awake at 4 am. All I did was toss and turn, unable to fall asleep. When I go to bed I just think about the days events and happenings and how I could have handled them better. I never seem to be able to go to sleep straight away.

Went to PKNS Complex this afternoon for a bit of shopping. I came home with Whitney Houston's Greatest Hits which is playing in the background right now. I also looked for pair of jeans to buy but couldn't find the right pair so ended up buying nothing from that shop. I can never find what I'm after when I go clothes shopping, but than that can equally apply to my life in general. It might help if I new what I was looking for.

Note:

Could the visitor that emailed yesterday that works for maxis please email me again with a proper return address since you sound really nice, heh, and I spent 10 minutes ages writing back to you only to have it returned.

Sunday 4/6

Lan Fendi was suppossed to call me today but he didn't. He was the one who promised to ring me up, his wife is in California for a seminar or something and he said he needed someone to talk to. Let's go to KL this weekend, have a blast in the city, go watch a movie or perhaps go see Harith Iskandar performing at The Actor Studio, he said that to me last Friday. He doesn't know I hate Harith, but that's ok. Just that sometimes I hate being treated like a spare-part. Just because his wife is away and he has no-one to talk to.

I swear I read somewhere about a religious talk by one American convert (Haji Mokhtar Stork) at Shah Alam Stadium at 4-45 pm today. So I drove there but there was no signs of ceramah, the car parks were empty. I only saw a few workers putting some final touches to that Royal London Circus, at the other side of the stadium.

Then it poured so I drove home, made myself a cup of tea and took a quick nap until 6-30 pm.

Surfed some UK websites later on and went to Section 11 at 11-00 pm for dinner. Had nasi sotong masak pedas.
Monday 5/6
1. One Consulting Engineer firm in KL (Taman Setiawangsa) called me this afternoon offering me to be a Resident Engineer for their project somewhere near Pantai Dalam, KL. I've never done a condominium project before so I see this as a challenge. I did not say yes but I arranged for an appointment to discuss further, this Wednesday at 3-00 pm. I'll talk more about this soon.

2. Left for work a bit too early, wanted to have dinner first but changed my mind as soon as I got into the car. Hashim was at the office when I arrived, after setting up my laptop etc, I went to the mosque for Maghrib. Managed to finish one surah (Yaasin) but did not stay for daily kuliah. The Imam talked about sincerity, we have to be sincere in whatever we do...blah blah blah.. Thanks for reminding.

3. Coffee went south again tonight, in sympathy with London LIFEE, said one report. Three factors that contributed to the downside move: bearish Commitment of Traders report, warmer temperature in Brazilian coffee belt and increasing stock at various warehouses. Apparently, earthquake in Indonesia did not give any impact to coffee price (London).

4. Went to KL just after trading, it rained quite heavily. Kumar was not there at Estana so I left after a few minutes. Stopped at Caltex Petrol Station infront of Hard Rock Cafe, grabbed a packet of sardine sandwich and a can of coke. Then to Citibank to make my payment (subscription) to BridgeChannel.

5. By the way, is this really Brad Pitt's journal? I've just finished reading it. What a sad little life I lead...heh..



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