Fairview International School will only be represented by a few teachers, lucky I will be with Teh and 2 other teachers.
It rained at about 7-00 pm, feeling hungry I went Western tonight. Had a lovely chicken chop, that salad was out of this world. Too bad the restaurant doesn't open Sundays - all the 4 restaurants that I usually frequent do not open Sundays and I find it difficult to decide where to have lunch/dinner I usually end up having something light, burger for example.
I felt a bit dizzy (because of the rain), thought of going to see some cultural event at Shah Alam Square but the road leading to Holiday Inn was closed so I drove further up to the junction near the lake.
Then I saw streams of cars with PAS stickers/flags entering Section 4. I followed them and ended up listening to a ceramah (political talk) by Datuk Dr Hassan Ali, a respectable opposition MP. It lasted until about midnight.
Sunday 12/3
Teh and the 2 teachers arrived just after Subuh. After much debating, we decided to ride on Kancil, and off we went to Shah Alam Square for final briefing. There were about 150 cars alltogether, hmmm...some of the participants looked so pro - wonder if treasure hunting is their profession..LOL..Being our first ever experience, nothing much to be expected, we even made our first mistake less then 2 minutes after being flagged off! We turned to KL instead of to Klang, so we wasted about 5 km (10 mins) there. The first 2 clues were difficult, we spent far too much time figuring out the anagrams. We managed to get question 3 answered and that lifted our spirits a little bit so we drove off to the next "sector", Meru. I found some of the questions very funny. And stupid too.
We couldn't get the next 2 questions right but we managed to collect all 10 clues. The hunt took us all the way to Kapar, Tanjong Karang and Kuala Selangor. I was extremely hungry but they decided not to waste any more time so I just ate
a few pieces of biscuit.
We reached Shah Alam about 2-30 pm, not too bad, we were among the firsts. Although we didn't get all questions answered we managed to surprise other participants with our 10-point clue. Mengkuang. Pretty kewl!All participants were requested (?) to be presence at the dinner party tonight - the Chief Minsiter of Selangor to grace the event, but I was too tired I left early.
Monday 13/3
Spent the whole afternoon in Tanjung Malim, visiting Haji Ramli, Mah, Ashari, etc. Had a nice long conversation with Mah and her mum at their restaurant. Bumped into Kak Siti TM again, heck.Abang Ngah, I'm leaving Tanjung Malim soon and thinking of dropping by, you not going anywhere this evening?
No, infact we just got home from the hospital, your sister ....
What about Ngah? What happened?
No, nothing serious, just miscarriage. She's ok now.
Oh, I'll be arriving in 45 mins or so, anything I can do?
I have to go to the office at 5-30 pm and could you please take Wawai and Wazi Boy for dinner or something?
It rained cats and dogs and I did 70 km/hr all the way to Rawang. Then took them to one Thai restaurant for something to eat for dinner.
Pak Itam, I want that toy! Pak Itam, I want this, I want that!
Hmmmm.....
3-45 am:
If there were 1 bean left in Java (coffee), would ya go short, or long ?
That was the question I asked on the commodity forum today, and to my surprise that joke attracted so many posts and it became a runaway thread. Everybody was giving their views based on fundamental news and technical analysis. And some became so defensive, I had to email the moderator asking him to intervene.
Commodity trading is such a weird game, it always brings the monster out.
Ok, I understand some of their points of view. But in the realm of defensive nature, I can understand them getting defensive. I, myself, would not tell a person they are wrong necessarally about business plan. I will disagree on facts, ones I believe to be true, versus ones I don't. It's all how I approach someone. If they snapped at me, then I am justified snapping back. However if I point something out, I have to consider how I would feel, if it was pointed out to me in the same manner.
The manner I used with them was wrong at times, as well. At some point, respect has to kick in, and there is always a nicer way of puting things. With me, yes, I can be defensive by nature, but I feel no-more than the next. I am not in the best environment on earth, for manners. When I'm done for the day, it still is there. There is always tension. It may not take much sometimes to trigger that, I feel I do a great job harnessing it, but once I feel challenged, or tried, I automatically dawn a war face.
I think the same can be said for many of them. With others it may be a sly remark. Perhaps a constant barrage of cynical responses, different people show their feelings differently. Some loud, some soft. With me, generally people will know when I'm coming. This is not a boast, but an addmitance of fault at times. I feel, for the most part, I dont go out of my way just to argue. But I will say my piece. My skin is thick too, I can take any kind of remarks, because I know I'm going to be throwing them right back.
All of us, I feel are very defensive by nature. I seriously think it falls in the realm, of listening to something we think we allready know, or not putting the other on equal ground. I belive this to be a common mistake that a lot of people suffer from. Everyone wants to be important.
Sometimes it is important to listen, when we think we need to talk. Sometimes its important to talk, but only when, there really is someone lending an honest ear. No, it doesn't have to be as big as Mickey Mouse's, but just an honest ear.
Tuesday 14/3
And finally, there's a new beginning with myself. Of sorts, anyhow. Somehow today has had a strange revitalizing effect on me. I'm moderately upbeat and in a good mood.Other than that, I have nothing to say.
Sorry....
Wednesday 15/3
It's 4-30 am, here I am in my living room watching live telecast, European Championship League soccer match, Manchester United (England) vs AC Fiorentina (Italy) while waiting for market reports on bridge.com, icoffee.com, binews.com, hencorp.com, commodityexpert.com, ncausa.org etc.Coffee traded within range today, new low being recorded. Yesterday it nosedived to 102.25, really took us by surprise. With coffee, once it breaks support we can only expect a free fall. A few traders got caught again yesterday, only Abang Wan managed to get a few points profits. I stayed sideline, too scared to enter positions.
I feel a bit tired actually, been a long day. Was in Port Klang this afternoon, went to see Yati, she was extremely happy to receive her 10% profits. She promised to top up her investment, I told her not to get carried away.
I did some shopping there, bought myself a pair of Lee jeans, among other things. And since tomorrow's Hari Raya Haji (Aidil Adha) and everyone's in festive mood, I took the opportunity to stroll along the main road. Lots of people doing their last minute shopping.
Mah called this evening, we talked something personal, I was a bit surprised at first.
Nal, are you seeing someone right now?
No, I'm not. Why are you asking me this?
Well, I want to introduce you to someone...blah blah blah...
Mah, you are not the first to ask me that question. My friends have been asking me the same thing too, I thank them for being too concern but it's really none of their business.
*Yawn*
I think maybe sometimes I spend far too much time thinking about everyone else's feelings and forget that I have feelings of my own. And there comes a time now and again when all of a sudden all my feelings come out, all those feelings that have been ignored for months at a time and so they all come out at once.
I think that I have come to the end of my rope. I'm worn out and I am tired. You meet people and you think certain things only to find out that you need to rethink it all. And then once you rethink it, you rethink it again. And again. It's like being on the hamster wheel. You know you should get off but somehow that's just impossible. I'm finding that things become more impossible with each passing day. And I am just tired of it all.
Well, I can tell, though, that the loneliness is creeping up on me. I'm starting to even act desperate when I go anywhere. It's sad. All I can do is ask myself, 'I'm not that bad, am I?' To which I usually can't honestly tell myself no, so I end up kicking myself for even opening my mouth when I talk.
You know, the saying of 'It happens when you're not looking for it' (tough luck, RiRi..*LOL*) really isn't all that true, and shouldn't be counted on. I was perfectly content for the longest time to be single, not answer to anyone, and not get into the same bullshit I've been in for the last God knows how many years. Nothing happened to me then. No one seemed interested in me in the slightest.
What am I doing wrong? Is it my cologne? Does my breath stink, and no one's been forward enough to say anything? Am I that much of a retard in the world of the dating game? I have no idea what I'm doing wrong, and with that, yes, comes those lovely little insecurities we all love so much. What's wrong with me?
I bloody hate that phrase.
Thursday 16/3
5-30 pm:Did I write that? Hmmm...how embarassing! I sounded so bloody desperate, didn't I? Must be that Tongkat Ali Tea..*LOL*...
Oh, I've been going out with a loaded gun (from There's Something About Mary)
Hehe..
Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone, my second time in a row celebrating Hari Raya away from my family. Last Raya I was in Mecca, and tonight I will be working as usual. My Raya so far has not been that great, said my prayer at the State Mosque this morning, I could barely open my eyes. I drove home and went straight to bed, only to resurface at 2-00 pm feeling extremely hungry. Had lunch at Kentucky Fried Chicken after driving around Shah Alam looking for almost an hour.
We are close for business today. - posted on almost every restaurant in Shah Alam. So much of Hari Raya.
Went to Seven-Eleven and grabbed a packet of instant noodle (Maggi Mee) for tonight. Hope Kak Siti or some other traders bring some food to the office tonight, otherwise I'll just settle for that maggi mee.
Friday 17/3
Linda,The ability to humiliate myself is a sign of a great trader...*LOL*.. Well, I see it as humbleness rather than humility.
What you said about picking your battles is so right-- it is much more important than all the mumbo jumbo about this trading system or another. Anyone who even remotely believes that a system makes money should read Market Wizards. 20-30 multi-millionaires and each one of them is trading a different system. You give the same chart to 10 Ellioticians and they will come up with (at least) 10 different counts. You give the same system to two traders-- one will go to the poor house, the other will make thousands, if not millions. Give the same jet plane to two different pilots and put Tom Cruise in one of them. Tom will win I'm sure.
Focusing on your strengths is closely associated with self depracation . It implies that you recognize your weaknesses and you admit and accept them. First order requirement when you fight the forces that move the markets.
I hope I am not doing the unconscionable and raise you ego.
Trade well,
Zainarldo.
That was my reply to one of the posts on commodity market forum, hate it when other traders start throwing shit at me without fully understanding the whole issue. And I would much rather have 10 males mad at me than one female. ..*LOL*..
5-30 am:
Ok, I'm off to do some packing, I'm leaving for Raub (visiting parents) in a few minutes. I'll be back Monday, have a good weekend, whoever you are.
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