Heck, this coffee business really drains me - I talk coffee,
I think coffee, I don't drink coffee, I sleep coffee....and guess what?
Last night/this morning I had a dream, it was about coffee. Not a pleasant one I must say. I lost my money on coffee. Big time.
Lucky I woke up before that dream became a nightmare.
Rushed to HSBC Bank, Taipan to withdraw some money. Jamal Abdillah (the singer, used to be popular, very popular - popular for all the wrong reasons...) was at the next counter. He looked just like Michael Jackson (except that he did not wear face-mask), his long hair, his sunglasses etc but most importantly his "make-up", way too thick for a man.
Then to Standard Chartered, Klang but I was 10 minutes too late. Called Hashim and he asked me to bring the money tonight.
Locking my position was a good thing otherwise I would have fainted today, price nose-dived again. Heck, whatever happened to that "solar flare" everyone was talking about?
Saturday 23/10/1999
Todd called early in the morning, or was it him? I was fast
asleep and there were like 20 messages stored on my voicemail when
I checked them. Apparently, the appointment had to be
cancelled, that lady was busy or something. Some other times
perhaps.
Heck, I was all excited to meet her up to discuss about the
project. So, what was I to do on a Saturday then?
Nothing. Absolutely nothing.
Drove to Port Klang instead, took a boat to Pulau Ketam, beautiful place, simply amazing.
I really love the feeling of being so close to nature. The fresh air. The birds. The trees. The whole lot.
And I love myself for being there.
Sunday 24/10/1999
I'm dumb.
This dumb.
That dumb.
Too dumb.
* * * * * * *
Today I thought of how easy it is to forget the simple person.
We have gone through the
most trying times with one another, I standing close by your side,
lending my shoulder when
you needed to lean upon someone or something. And we fought together,
you always winning,
and I close behind you to carry your victory banner.
But how easy it is to forget those you deal with everyday. Do you
neglect what you hold dear? If something is so familiar that you
see
it every time every time you turn around, do you begin to forget
what it is and
what it has and will do for you? Can you so easily neglect?
I am your friend. You call upon me when you are in doubt, when you
are in pain.
I listen, I advise. When we speak, I
live and breath
the close bond of our friendship, but as soon as you turn away,
I gasp in the cold
at the real truth of what has happened.
..... I see that you are not. I watch you, fading in and out of my
vision,
moving from person to person, but never alone. I watch, my silence my
enemy, always waiting
for that moment when you are left alone to take my place at
your side and spare you to
agony of solitude....
* * * * * * *
I'm dumb.
This dumb.
That dumb.
Too dumb.
Monday 25/10/1999
I'm such a lazy bastard. I was suppose to go to the post office this
morning to get my p.o box number but woke up tired so rang up
and changed my appointment
and went back to bed. I eventually crawled out of bed at 1-30 pm and
then went for lunch at Delapan Cafe. Lan FND was there too, we chatted for a good 30 mins.
So basically I've done nothing all day. Nothing.
I did do some research on "satellite maps" when I got home this
morning which is why I was so tired I didn't get
to bed until 5-00 am. There's one satellite image taken by the
GOES (Geostationary Operational Environmental Satellite) weather
satellite located 22,300 miles above the Earth which I think is very good.
This map is especially useful in
tracking tropical activity since radar data is not available
over the open oceans.
Now I know how to read all those sattelite
jargons and I basically know how to keep tracks of weather
conditions in South America, Brazil especially. Gawd, when does
flowering season end? Late Dec? This coffee market drives me insane.
I've also been playing around with my laptop, doing a bit of tidying
and have freed up more than 100 megs of space. The "temporary internet file" was choked with gifs, so was the cache.
I also uninstalled a few progs which I never had the time to
play around with. I had heaps of junk
on my system and it was completely disorganized, which is a bit
like my life at times. How will I cope with
so few?
That's the problem with life, we all want more even
though we don't use what we have.
Tuesday 26/10/1999
I've had a couple of crap and stressful days at work and have been
in not-so-good mood.
All it's made me realize is that there are some things I can't
include
in my journal. I always thought I could include just about anything, but
I just can't explain why I'm in the mood I am.
Not wanting to stay at home all afternoon I went to KL this morning.
Well, I had an appointment with a few guys at AOT actually, some internet
business proposal and stuff. The meeting (at UOA Tower)
ended just before lunch. Called Ida and asked her to wait for me right infront of Planet Hollywood.
I was a bit late, about 10 mins, went to Lot 10 for a nice chicken chop. Ida had some kind of fried rice.
She followed me to Bukit Bintang Plaza and left just before 2-00 pm.
The rest of the day I just wondered around Bukit Bintang area,
not knowing what I wanted to do or where I wanted to go. Then I decided to go to Shangri-La Hotel to see Tomo, a coiffeur friend of mine.
Went up to Level 2 but he was not there.
So, whatever happened to La Touch? And where is Tomo?
Oh, La Touch is no longer operating here.
And I heard so much about Tomo but I have no idea where he is now.
Would you "still" like to have your hair cut, Sir?
Emmm....well, yea....
You look tired, Sir. By the way, I'm Kelvin.
No, I'm not that tired, a bit sleepy perhaps, I only had 3 hours of sleep last night.
Oh, don't worry.....I'll give you a good massage then...
Oh no....no...thanks...really...
With RM 265-00 bill, that was the 3rd most expensive haircut I ever had. So far.
* * * * * *
I was glad to help Abang Wan and Kak Anis planning for their market positions,
what to do next, with lots of "what ifs" being mentioned.
I like it when people ask me for help
as I am very willing to help. It went reasonably ok and
and she said thanks.
Little things make me feel good because I am so lacking in
confidence.
It's no use having all this
knowledge and not sharing, because I am not like that at all,
even though some people may think so. It probably stems from
me not asking others for help, but the thing is I don't ask
because I don't need to ask them anything. I'm not saying I
know everything, far from it, but I like to work things out
for myself as I will than know more about the problem.