Rantings of a dyke in therapy- May 98

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(This page is updated from the top first, so if you want to start at the beginning you'll have to scroll down to the end. Get it?)

Saturday 16th May, 1998

Had a really good night last night with Julie and Melissa. I am so happy for Julie, and Mel seems really together and cool.

Beany and I worked out our finances yesterday, which was good! It was good to finally get it done, I mean, not the actual doing part! We are going to do the whole joint account thing, too. Whatever we have we share. She is away tonight, visiting a friend in the Central coast. It's weird being here without her. I miss her heaps. I haven't slept by myself since we started sleeping together. It took me a while to get used to sleeping with her…. I'd been sleeping on my own for nearly two years, and had been used to having the whole queen sized bed to myself! But tonight it will seem strange.

Friday 15th May, 1998

Half-way through May already. I have been living with Beany now for about 6 weeks or so. I can't logically explain how this happened, but I'm very glad that it did. Not that it's all rosy and perfect (what relationship is?) but we are very committed to the whole thing. We want to get married…. even though it's not 'legal' as such. It's weird having to write this down, because feelings don't come across very well on a screen and anything I say (like: "it's fate" or "we were meant to be together") will sound cliched and lame. However, I still believe that's what happened. When we we're least expecting it.

Kate started at her new school this week. She seems to be really enjoying it, which is great. I feel that parental guilt over changing her school, but it had to happen.

Beany just read the first paragraph and said it sounded negative! But it wasn't meant like that. What I really meant was that I'm not in that surreal world of the 'honeymoon' phase of a relationship where everything is glowing and seen through those rose coloured glasses. Which is good! It's more real.

Tonight we are going out to dinner with my sister and her lesbian lover!!!

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