Hello,
my name is Thelma and this is my story.
I was born in
My Mom and Dad were not married – quite a thing in those days! I never knew my
Dad – me & my 3 sisters all had different dads. My Mom & uncle sexually
abused us all. The family told me I was no good - an outcast & I believed
them. When I was 18 I fell in love & got pregnant. My man told me that the
baby wasn't his because I wasn't a virgin when we met. Well, my Mom had taken
it, hadn't she? My man left me. The idea that I was no good went even more
deeply inside me. When I had the baby my granddad refused to have him in the
house and he had to go to Dr Barnardos. I didn't see
him again till he was 15. The only good thing in my life was my Gran .
When she died I fell apart and left home.
I began clubbing and got pregnant again, got bored & carried on clubbing.
Then I moved to
My partner was a gambler & he told me I had to earn money and took me to
see 2 women. They were prostitutes. He told me to watch them & learn the
ropes. I didn't want to but he began to emotionally blackmail me, saying ' If
you loved me, you would……….'
Many bad things happened to me during that time. If I didn't earn money he said
he would find me & beat me, even when I was pregnant.
One day while I was hustling for business, a policeman stopped me & said he
was taking me in. He told me to get into the car & drove me towards the
police station but then he said, 'If you give me what I want, I'll let you go'.
He drove far out – away from anywhere. When he'd finished he walked off saying,
'Find your own way back'.
I was virtually an alcoholic & smoked 40 fags a day. Then, I had a nervous
breakdown. I was full of guilt & self-hatred.
15 years or so later, after my children, 7 in all, had finally grown up, I was
alone. Next door there were some friendly people. They didn't seem to mind me
being rough & out of control. They invited me to go to church & I went
because I had nothing else to do. There I had an experience which changed my life.
An incredible sense of peace came on me and for the 1st time ever I knew I was
loved and valuable.
I thought about this afterwards but I still didn't understand. How could I, a
woman so degraded as I was and coming from my background, feel like this? The
answer is that Jesus loves me so much he died an agonising death for me so that
I could feel so deeply loved it makes me weep. Why did those things happen to
me? Well, there's evil in the world, but God saw my pitiful state and pulled me
out of it. Now I see people every day walking around with pain, fear, guilt,
depression and I want to tell them it doesn't have to be like this.
I'm not asking anyone to believe some airy-fairy idea about God but we all
believe in the idea of love, freedom and respect and Jesus is all these things.
Without him we only play blindly at these ideas. You don't have to take my word
for it, ask Him to reveal Himself to you. If He did it for me – he'll do it for
you too.
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