LAST UPDATED: Sunday, October 7, 2001

okiez here's teh stuff that i wrote m'self (yes lil ole me can actually string five words and piece together somethin randomly shitty and sentimental...). juss scroll... and keep on scrolling.. haha. whatever, as long as u guyz dont go all weirdo-psychiatric on me. :-D~ -sher

Find Me

Find me with your bleak blue eyes
Crimson specks adorn those lies
Glance my way, away to fly
Lie to me in the faltering skies
Sing the song of crying men
And fall back to your place again
And when you rise, Iíll watch you sway
To claw above your wretched ways

She Cries

She looks and she lies, and she listens for sounds
Of the weak and the angry to take her away;
She waits on her bed, counts the thorns on the ground,
And her broken reflection from the cold empty praise
She swallows the pity and buries the pride Ė
Claws at the fantasies eluding her grasp;
She falls at the mercy of those driven in line,
Who clamber amongst shadows to fight their own past
She follows the darkness till she breaks in the years
She fades in the silence, fights the grief in her eyes
She dies in the echoes of her own bitter tears
Drunk on the misery of the worldís thousand lies

Cry Here in the Morning Light

Cry here in the morning light, awaken from these tears
As nights of laughter fade away the bitterness in the years
Shooting stars streak through the sky from fallen angelsí wings
You paid your dues a step before to save me from those dreams
You never gave me half a chance to shield you from the storm
Building up your walls of strength, you chose to fall alone
Chose to search for answers, struggle in the midst of othersí lies Ė
But each soft touch became a silent battle lost inside your eyes
Time and time again, you heard the voices in your head
Screaming for the untold truths, the words you left unsaid
And down where darkness reigns, I trace the gravestones wondering why Ė
Cry here in the morning light, aching for the love inside

Shades of Grey

Cold bitter winds swirl the deepening grey
Fight for the miles you swept in a day
Been racing the clock to the Heavens long gone
Donít stop when you falter, donít fall when youíre wrong
Tears for the unspoken rules of the heart
Light for the angel who cries in the dark
Running in circles so lost in the sky
Tracing the amber gold specks in your eyes
Crystal blue shadows emerge from the dark
A tainted raw past haunts the thirst in both hearts
Visions of yesterday fade past the signs
And I watch your soft eyes, echoing mine


Piercing rays of pain entwine
Iíve lost you to the depths of time
They broke you down and made you fall
Blind to grief they watched you crawl
Crawl back to me, your eyes so bleak
Such forlorn tears awake the weak
In empty years Iíd watch you fade
Reduced to ashes, left to fray
Reflected in your angry eyes
So cold with hate, consumed in lies
They took your soul away from me
And drowned it in the bitter sea
And night to day I wake to find
The aching words you left behind
Away from grief, away to bliss
Iíll find you again with my hungry kiss

Cruel Grey Morning

Cruel grey morning donít let me rise
Cold blue Heaven flashed in your eyes
Get up fall down itís all the same
Unchanged faces, different names
Tumble now but pay the price
Hear the voices scream inside
Walls come crashing down again
Wonder when youíll see it end
Grey sky morning see me fall
Bleak as time slips by it all
And when it comes around once more
See me crumble to the floor

Lost Into You

Lost into you
Would you pull me back?
I could stand here and watch you forever
But you turn around
Catch my glance in the heat
Of the room, I can see no one else
I look away Ė
For a minute I dream
Of those eyes searching mine in the dark
Waves of emotions
I shiver and wait
Scan the room till our eyes lock again
And that moment, time stalls
The world ceases to spin
And I can feel your gaze piercing my heart
And all in that same moment
You came and you went
And I hit reality hard once again

You Smile

You smile
And I feel
Everything is flooding back
I canít hold on anymore
Outside feels too goddamn heavy
Inside tears are raining down
The worldís turned itself over
And I canít face you one more day
I just canít seem to find myself again
Lost a foothold in the ground
I slipped and fell, but can you blame me
If I donít find my way back home
But with just one smile
I would stand there, lost forever
With that one touch, I would give
Infinity just one last call
And then it all comes tumbling down
Again like a ton of bricks
Falling falling to the end of time
To where Iíll meet you in the dark
But then you smile
And did I ever tell you
Just how beautiful you are,
You smile
And I can feel the ground Ė
Everything melts away but you
You touch me and I know
The world will right itself again
You hold me and I get
A rush all warm and cold inside
So when itís all falling apart out there
And I canít face another day in the dark
You smile
Just for me
And I fall back in love again

Lost In A Moment

Lost in a moment
My whole world surrounds you
Your arms hold me close
Still I dream where you are
I listen for lost words
And watch as you move
Cold crystal reflection
Press my fingers on the glass
Iím holding your hand
But I canít reach your heart
My soul lies wide open
As my heart lies in wait
And every moment is torture Ė
You donít move an inch
Was that you by my side?
Was that me hanging on?
So tired of running
So hopelessly wrong
Iím wandering in circles
To never look back
Lies crash at my heels
I falter and fall
Feels like Iím burning a forest
To find my way home
Iím just lost in this moment
Forgotten the next
Clinging onto forever
Swept blind by your touch

To the Night..

How we laughed, that night,
Iíll never forget
How we danced,
Each to his own music,
Each to her own beat
And how we cried after it ended Ė
After the time was gone.
How glamorous it felt
To just stand
Out in the night
On top of the world,
With the wind blowing in our faces
And the water grinding beneath us
As the music played,
And the night wore on
But with each passing moment
We knew it was drawing
Closer Ė
To the end of the tunnel
Closer to goodbye
And as the seconds ticked by,
We all knew that soon
Itíd be time to leave
And forever would come,
Forever would end
So we danced faster
Or we danced slower Ė
It didnít really matter,
As long as we danced
Closer to each other, at least
While the music never stopped
And we talked louder
And we laughed harder
Knowing that soon Ė
Too soon
We wouldnít be laughing anymore
And as the clock struck the final hour
We all clung
Clung onto each other,
Onto past memories, never faded
And soon we werenít smiling anymore Ė
Sorrow free
As we hugged,
As we cried
As we said our goodbyes

And we made our promises,
Vows never to forget,
Promises leading to forever, and always
How Iíll never forget
As we stood there, silent

Tears rolling down our faces Ė
Eyes red from crying
And legs sore from dancing
Our hearts full of love,
But throbbing in heartbreak
And as we said our final goodbyes
Our last wishes, blown to the night Ė
Though it may have just been me,
I know Iíll never forget
When the music stopped playing
When forever ended Ė