Hey hey hey everyone! In case you didn't already know my name is Bonnie (most just call me C. Fly) and this is a brand new section of my site, devoted to my weight loss surgery and the other semi personal and slightly embarrassing aspects of my life. You wanna know a little more about me you say? Sure... I'm 27 years old, I'm obviously a web graphics designer, I've been married for 2 years (3 on May 24th 2002) and I gots no kids. I'm also 287 pounds (as of friday Feb. 22, 2002). I've been this way my whole life pretty much though it fluctuated for a time when I was younger between 220 and 260. I used to tell myself that I didn't care what I looked like or what other people thought of me, and I still don't, but now that I am getting close to "the age of no return" and my health has started to be effected by my weight, I decided that it was time to get off my fat ass and do something about it! I need all of you who are seeking this surgery for yourself to know that this is no walk in the park. This is not something that can be reversed and this is not something you go into lightly. You will forever have to change your life style and your eating habits along with your personal relationships with other human beings. It's not a cure all by any means! You will have to do tons of work to take the weight off and when it's gone you will for the rest of your life have to take vitamin supplements, protein and calcium pills, and b12 shots. There are also a hell of a lot of risks involved during and after the surgery that we will cover as time goes on.
  Back to me junk... As I was saying, I've been this way all my life. I've had to deal with the restrictions of being fat, like not being able to buy cool clothes and then when I do find sorta okay stuff it costs an arm and a leg (my bra's alone are 45 bucks!) then there's the health issues, like diabetes where I have to jab myself in the finger 3 times a day to make sure my blood sugar isn't too high and then spend 130 bucks on pills for it (shit like diabetes meds shouldn't cost so much). And then there's the personal aspect of fat... The part where small children look at you and yell out loud for all to hear "mommy why is that lady so fat?". Or (this is my favorite) total strangers yell things like "get back to the field you fucking cow" or the last time I was at the beach "Oh my gawd it's a beached manatee someone call the cost guard!"
I've learned to deal with that shit, sometimes I even go along with it like last week when a teen aged painted doll of a white trash chick said "ew You're fat why don't you go on a diet" to which my answer was "OH MY GAWD!!! I HAD NO IDEA I WAS FAT! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TELLING ME!!!!" People treat you like shit when you are fat. It no longer matters to them that you have a college education or that you are far smarter than their trashy ass, if you are fat you are automatically "fat and stupid or fat ugly and stupid". I have seen in my day some of the world's stupidest human beings say things like that to me and where are they now? They work at some shitty burger joint while I sit in front of my computer for a few hours and make 1,000 bucks... Human's astound me....
Anyway I'm sure you wanna read my journal and laugh at my horrid pics so I will leave you to it. Eventually I'll have a few more things on this section but for now since it's late and I have other things to do, you will just have to wait....
Bon
PS I don't feel like making more art right now so deal with the text links!!!

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