Chris, Lance and Lilly got back to Justin's and went in the door quietly so they wouldn't wake the other guys.
"Hey Chris, show Lilly where she'll be sleeping tonight, Im going to bed." Lance said yawning.
"All right, goodnight. And thanks again."
"No problem" Lance said, and turned to Lilly "Nice meeting you, Goodnight."
"Nice meeting you too, goodnight Lance." Lilly said. Lance headed upstairs and went into his room.
Chris turned to Lilly, who was looking around taking in how huge the place was. She was in shock ,she didnt know houses this big even exsisted.
"So, are you hungry? Or do you just want to go to sleep?"
"Im hungry." She answered, looking back at Chris.
"Good, me too. I haven't had the best appetite lately, and I guess it catching up to me now."
"Why not?" She asked.
Chris paused and looked at her, he wanted so badly to talk to her about this, she reminded him so much of Sarah. He could talk to Sarah about anything, when she died he was left with no one he could talk to so openly, not even the guys. Sarah was the only one who could understand Chris. They were inseperable.
"Oh sorry, it isn't my buisness, im sorry." Lilly said blushing and looking down at the floor.
"No, it's OK....it's just that you remind me so much of her...." Chris' voice cracked as he tried to hold back the tears. "You remind me so much of her, and I really want to talk to someone about this....." He paused.
She stood there, watching this man that was 10 years older then her, slowly break down.
"Can we talk?" He asked looking up, his eyes full of tears.
"Yes, of course we can."
He nodded, unable to speak, and motioned for her to follow him. They went into the kitchen and got something to eat, then they went into the small sitting room and Chris closed the door behind them.
They began eating while Chris began mentally preparing himself to talk about this.
Soon, Chris started, "Sarah, was my cousin. We were really close, I could talk to her about anything that was going on in my life. She has been the only one that hes ever been able to fully understand my every emotion. A month ago, she was on her way to work, to JIVE studios, when she stopped to get gas. She went in to pay for it and there was a guy in there robbing the store. As the guy ran past her to leave, he grabbed her around the waist and kidnapped her." He stopped again and began to cry.
Lilly got up from her chair and went over to sit next to Chris on the couch. She grabbed his hand and sqeezed it, trying to give him some strength. She wiped the tears off his face and looked into his brown eyes. He looked back into her deep green, careing eyes and instantly knew he could tell this girl anything. He took a deep breath and squeezed her hand back.
"He took her back to his house and....and.....he raped her. Then strangled her and left her on the side of the road." Chris was now crying uncontrolably.
Lilly was also now crying and she wrapped her arms around his neck. He wrapped his arms around her waist and cried on hjer shoulder. He kept crying for awhile, and then pulled back.
"Why did he have to take her? Why did she have to die? She never hurt anyone, she wouldn't ever hurt anyone. She was caring, loving, beautiful, fun.....he put his hands over his face and continued crying..She offered me a ride to the studio that day, if I would have taken it, instead of riding with Justin, she would still be here. I could have done something. I should have been there." He cried.
"Chris....c'mon. Chris...look at me." She pulled his face up and wipped his tears away. "You didnt know anything was going to happen, you couldn't have helped her. It's not your fault-"
"But it is..." He wispered.
"No it's not" She said making him look straight into her eyes.
"It's OK Chris, it's OK" She said, trying to calm him. Chris stopped crying, and lied down, putting his head in her lap. She lied on the pillow next to her and got comfortable. Soon they were both asleep. For the first time in weeks, Chris was able to sleep peacefully.
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