The quest for true love
Since the first time I fell in love with a girl, I've wanted to find that special
person in life. That special someone. Someone to trust. Someone to share my feelings
with. Someone I could believe in. Someone I could be with through the good times
and the bad times. Someone to give my all for. Someone to spend the rest of my life
with. Someone to love.
I've been through many trials of love. Some have ended fairly and remained close
to me. Others have made unfair assumptions or have had near fatal accidents causing
them to go insane. Love has always seemed to slip through my grasp somehow. As
if if I were Ahab and love was my white whale.
At some point in my life I lost control, then I had to look deep within my soul.
I reached out to others for support and care. They helped me very much even if they
weren't aware. I made up a friend, a second consciousness in myself to aid me in
all my decisions and times of need. I named him "self". It is because of self that I have
made it so far in life and kept the evil content inside me in check.
I've remained as I was the day I was born. Free of drugs, alcohol, harmful substances,
and I've obeyed the Ten Commandments. My virginity is still safe within. My first
time will be with the one I love and when we are married in "holy" not lawful matrimony, I will lose my virginity and take part in the celebration of life. My wife
and I shall bring a new life into this world. One that will bring change to the
world, like the sun brings daylight.
Most of us spend our entire lifetime searching for that special someone. I've figured
out the mistake in the search and why most of us fail or take so long. In the search
for the perfect mate, we look for someone that is 100% compatible with ourselves
or our beliefs. This is wrong. The odds of finding the person that is 100% perfect
are too low, and by the time you find that person, it may be too late or you may
not even live that long.
So we must settle for something less than perfect and mold it into what we wish it
to be, or adapt to it and learn to love it just as much as you would love the person
that you were searching for. I've found my love and I'm proud to say that she's
99.7% of what I've been searching for. She's intelligent, beautiful, caring, lovable, and
she even has grouchy days. In my long journey I've kept a ring at my side. I'd
hidden it from the world when I was 5 years old, and decided to give it to the perfect
girl when I had found her.
After thirteen years, I opened the case and placed it on her finger. It was so small
that I had to put it on her pinkie, but that's not the point. I could've given that
ring to anybody. Many girls have convinced me that they were worthy of it, but they all turned out to be untrue in their words and they're gone now.
Why did I choose her? Not because she fit my standards; not because she looks like
a goddess. She makes me feel like I can do anything, and all I want to do is love
her. I think that's what I've been looking for. Not for some hot babe to have sex
with and have a baby. I've been in search true love.
Now that I have it I can say that I am absolutely happy. I've replaced "self" with
the thought of her love. Any choice I make in life is because of her. I owe her
my love and my life. I'd die for her. I'd surrender all reason and meaning just
to hear her say "I love you".
It's certainly been a long journey for this hopeless romantic folks. Most of the
time nice guys do finish last, but if any of you need advice or help with love in
your life, let me know. I'm here for you all. My office is open. Jenn, I love
you.
Oh, that other 0.3%? Hmmm. . . . I'm workin on it! d;-)
Sincerely,
Clinton
