Deep Musings
****Warning****... This page is not for the light of heart... I am delving into a topic that is very close to my soul
Death
The end of life.... or at least life on this plane for the moment. It all depends on how you look at it.
Death comes in many forms. There is the so called natural death... ie heart attacks, long lingering illness etc. then you have accidents... gun shot, vehicular, too many to name. To me, these are not necessarily natural, but they are part of the cycle of life... The dieties have chosen to cut your life at this particular point. Everyone who is left behind can grieve naturally, not feeling guilt about the passing.
However, the one whch hits closest to home for me is the intentional taking of one's own life.
This to me, is the most selfish thing anyone can ever do. I will admit, I have grappled with this question myself, on numerous occasions. The thing that *always* stopped me, no matter how bad I thought my pain was, was the thought of those who loved me taking the blame for something I couldn't handle.
The overwhelming guilt which takes over the survivors. The never-ending thought they should have done *something*, *anything* to try to prevent the death. They should have *known* there was somethig worng.... This guilt eats away at them, til it becomes to much for the survivors. They blame each other as well...
In my eyes, the person committing, or planning to commit, suicide, doesn't care about those he supposedly loves or cares for... Think about it: who would willingly cause that kind of pain to someone they love? Death is never an escape for those left behind.
Upon reflection, why was the act of suicide considered so heinous a crime that the person was not allowed to be buried on hallowed ground? Because the person was not strong enough to ask for help, not willing to accept the help offered by anyone, not able to face what life has dealt them and learn from it and move on...
I believe we are put on this earth for a reason, to learn from everything we are dealt, no matter how hard. With each lesson we learn, we become stronger. How are we to gain wisdom if we cop out if a lesson is not to our liking?