All About ME!

Let's see, where should I begin. Im about to tell you the story of my life. It could be boring or interesting. It all depends on you. It's now time to go back in time, so sit back, relax and enjoy the ride.

Picture it, Baltimore Maryland, 1992

I Just graduated from 8th grade at a private school and on my way to an innercity public high school. Nervous, yes, but scared, no. My big brother was there. I've probally admired him my whole life. He's taught me so much in my life. It's early September and my first day of school. Normal first day, everyone getting to know each other, etc. I knew only a few people out of the whole entire school. I made some friends and before I knew it, the first year was over but not without humiliation. Most of the people knew me as "The Queer". I always had a girlfriend so I personally didn't know why they were all so inclined to make that judgement on me. I was constantly going home early or cutting classes. I really hated school. My entire life, I've loved school, and after 6 months of high school, I wanted to quit. About this time, my brother got jumpped after school one day on his way home. This was my escape! I could use this as an excuse to quit, or get homeschool or something. Guess what, the following September, there I was on the bus stop awaiting the #64 to Light & Cross Street. This year I met a few more friends, and lost a few as well. This is high school and this stuff does happen. I dated the "slut" of the school this year and still didn't gain popularity. Perhaps the fact I never slep with her had something to do with it, but who knows. When I started dating her, I didn't know who she was. A friend of a friend. We dated for a short time and she annoyed the hell out of me! Besides, she was't me. I still didn't know what me was but keep reading!

It's my junior year! A very important year in the history of Lee. Met alot of great people this year. In the beginning of the year, I met Chris. At frist, I didn't like Chris. I thought he was gay. I knew I wasn't but everyone else thought I was and this wasn't exactly the way to change their minds. I eventually got over my ego and became very good friends with him. Toward the middle of the year, I met Kelly and Dawn. They were both in my math class and were pretty neat people. Kelly and I have been best friends ever since! Kelly has introduced me to alot of great people in her family! Her mom's meatballs are the best! When she cooks, everyone in Glen Burnie knows where to eat tonite! LOL Well enuf about that, time for my senior year! Wow, I'm a senior. Class of 1996 here I come! I was one of 3 people picked to work on some plans for a remodel project of my school. What did this mean for me?? Less time in classes with people I hated, and more time with Kelly. Graduated on June 7, 1996 from Southern High School in Baltimore City.

After graduation, Kelly and I got alot closer. To close in fact. She fell in love with me. This was before i came out and right before I lost my virginity. No, I didn't loose it to her, but to that friend who set me up with her friend in my sophmore year. This was the worst experience in my entire life! Who needs that T-shirt anyways. All the doubts I previously had about being gay were gone!

I knew I had to be Gay but was taught that Homosexuality was a Choice. This was a ChoiceI wasn't going to make. I always knew I was gay but never knew exactly what gay was. Soon after loosing my virginity, I moved to Pennsylvania. My mother's family lived there and I needed an escape. Kelly and I had a fight, I really wasn't getting along with the folks, I was 18, and needed out! Little did I know how Out I would get! I didn't make it in PA. Moved back home only after 3 months. My friends Cathy and Danielle took a "ROAD TRIP" to rescue me!

After being home for a while, I decided to find my purpose. Kelly had the internet and I was always over there in Excite.com Chat, placing personal ads, reading personal ads, etc. One day while searching the ads, I read a subject line "Free Oral for Young". This guy had to be out of his mind. I replyed not for the service, but to explain that the world is cruel and HIV is out there! I got a reply a few days later with a phone number. Only a phone number. Knowing I write to many people, I had no idea who's phone number this was. I called it. IT WAS HIM! I didnt' know what to say. After talking to him on the phone for a few days, I actually decided to meet up with this guy. I had no intention of sex, I just wanted to see what it was like to have a conversation with a gay guy. The conversation was small and as I remember, so was HE! LOL On my way home, I seen my friend Chris. Picked him up and while driving home, he CAME OUT! There was no way in hell I was going to tell him what I just did! He didn't even know I was gay! After going to see him one more time, I asked him where this was going. I wanted a relationship. He told me that I was a toy! A toy?!? I don't remember a "Toys R Us" tag on my forehead! Never talked to him again. That wasn't the end of my journey! I told my best friend Kelly about it first. She hit me on my leg and I had a bruise there for about 1 week! I learned quick that I need to let her know before hand about booty calls! LOL After she knew, I answered a few more personal ads with no avail.

Eventually I met some guy on Excite.com chat from Tennessee. He was 32, in the Army, and in the closet like me! He seemed like a really great person. We talked for like 2 weeks and he decided to come to Maryland to meet me! I knew he was the one! We are still together to this day! We kept in touch by the telephone, email and excite.com chat. One nite while in there, I was talking in the room. My baby wasn't online so I was talking to everyone trying to stay awake until he got home. I ended up talking to this guy who was like 50 something and depressed. Me feeling all nice and helpful, I decided to try and help. I was working at the local 7-11 and he came to my work one day. He had to get directions because he told me he wasn't familuar with the area. Like hell he wasn't! We ended up in some parking lot in Linthicum and he tried to rape me! I couldn't get out of the car. He had some big Buick or something. I was never so scared in my life! I finally got out of the car and ran to the lightrail station. Caught the next train home, ran upstairs, got a shower, and called my baby! I didn't see that guy again until one day while I was at work, HE SHOWED UP THERE with HIS WIFE! I ran in the cooler and didn't come out until he was gone! Soon after this dilema, I decided it was time to come OUT to my parents.

One day, feeling brave, I went home from Kelly's, (where I was pretty much living since her whole family knew) and decided to tell them. Who to tell first. My sister, whom I was closer to or my mother, who would probally freak out. My father and I didn't have a great relationship anyways, so he was defently out of the question, and my brother and I didn't either. My grandmother also lived there, but that is so out of the question! It would be Heather! (my sister) But how. Well I went in her room and she asked me where I got the ankle bracelet I was wearing. (This was given to me by my baby. He lost 4 friends in a training accident in the army and found a piece of string and tied 5 knots in it. One for each friend he lost and 1 for a piece of himself he lost. Upon giving it to me, he told me that I filled the spot in his soul he had lost). How would I explain that to my sister. I needed to think. I decided to take a shower and think about how I'd tell her. I just figured it'd be easier to just blurt it out. It turned ugly from there and word flew faster than a fighter jet! I moved into Kelly's house for a long time.

After much coaxing, my baby told his parents. He's 13 years older than me so I didn't think it was going to be easy. It proved to be very successful. I moved to Florida to live with them! My parents came around and Mark (my baby) got out of the army. We recently bought 4 acres of land and a single wide trailer in Ft. White, Florida. Things are going extremely well and they lived happily ever after! LOL

I've left out alot of unimportant relationships/friendships but if you're still that intrigued, you can ICQ me at 28045141 to chat about more!

We both are in excelling careers and things are going well. My mother had a bout with Breast Cancer and is finally done her exhausting treatments. She is my role model! She has proved my favorite quote! "Nothing Beats a Failure But a Try! She tried and Succeeded!

Kelly, Chris, Dawn, and I still keep in touch. I try and go back home about every 6 months. Im still trying to get my family to come to visit in Florida. I've been living here for 2 years on August 14th 2001. Mark and I started our relationship on July 3, 1998. We will be celebrating 3 years in 2001! We hope to someday have a commitment ceremony. We have 1 Dog, a Chocolate Lab named Dusty and 3 Cats, Calvin, Hobbes, and Fablouliscious aka sunshine!

Think positive and positive things will come! Peace to all of you! To my baby love, TRULY MADLY DEEPLY! OUR SONG!!!!! May all of you be blessed with happiness and love in your life! Love Lee

I found this information on someone else's homepage and thought you might find it useful. It's only something to think about and doesn't reflect the views of all society!

As you well know, religion is something that homosexuals don't really have to fall back on if you are in the "out" community. Some places of worship do allow open homosexuals to worship there, if you aren't practicing. After reading someone's page, I realized there is a major problem there. Yes, homosexuality is rare, but so is blond hair blue eyed people, or left handed people, or dislexic people. Do we stop them from being married? I read somewhere that the Bible was put together 800 years AFTER Jesus died by a group of NUNS!! And to top that off, they didn't even include all the books that the Bible was originally supposed to include. I went to a Catholic school, and don't remember a commandment stating "THOU SHALL NOT BE HOMOSEXUAL" but I do remember a Commandment saying "Love thy neighbor" I also remember reading in the Bible that God created each of us in his OWN IMAGE! How can his image be wrong? God put us on this earth in his own way. It's a learning experience. If he put me on here as a gay man, then I'm a gay man. Who am I to judge God's decision. I may be biased but hey... think about it. I try to make sense. I am sure that not everyone is going to agree with me on all of this, but come on, everyone, everyone is entitled to an opinion. Yep thats right, I confessed to my mother and my God, IM QUEER AND IM HERE, SO DEAL WITH IT! I'd rather my flame burn bright, not like some little pilot light! If I don't have a problem with it, then why should you. I feel that if I'm not exposing myself to anyone else and my affections toward my love are kept behind closed doors, then it's nobody's business except my own! I may sound snotty, but trust me, ask Kelly, Mark, Mom, or anyone that knows me personally, I'm very opinionated and I'm not afraid to say what I feel. I've been that way all my life, and NOBODY can change that!!! When I first moved to Florida, I felt I needed to hide my sexuality all over again. It sucked for about a week, then I thought to myself, My uncle Barry always told me, DON'T CHANGE FOR ANYONE.. so guess what.. SCREW ALL THE HOMOPHOBICS!! Im not trying to sound like a prick, but in today's society, if you're not blunt, you're not heard!