Inner Soul

	A Place Far From Here
	How I would love to turn off the lights in my mind, and revel in the silence that surrounds me. To wake up in a place where serenity replaces fear, a word unknown to our hearts. If only I could cast this tired leather shell, and replace it with beauty and wings, so I could fly from here, and let the wind carry me, to a place full of peace and pureness. A place where being alone means appreciation of oneself. A place where we inhale the earths goodness, and keep in touch with our divinity. A place that brings me to my knees, as I spread my wings, and give thanks, to the beauty that surrounds me. To the beauty that is me.
©Illustration By Jeffrey K. Bedrick	By Gina

Internal Disgust
Emotions sit like lead sinkers at the bottom of otherwise empty bellies. That cling to the bony ribs, of those who possess the greatest hunger. Winds stir like barbed wire, through the core of so many hollow shells. That blow away the fragile souls, of those who know only coldness. Fear grips with violent anger, at the throats of those with the thinnest necks, and strangles all voices, of those who are willing to be silent. Silver tears strike the palms, of those who dare not reach any further.
By Gina

No Longer!
I've been a prisoner for too long! It has been years since I have been held captive in your realm. If you used silvery tape, I could slice through it with a razor! If you used rope, I would use a piece of broken glass to free myself! But instead you chained me down, and I am unable to break free, from your white knuckled grip. But I assure you, things will be different now! You are no longer the giant! and I no longer the shadow, that shivers at the very thought of you. You are nothing!! I am far greater than you could ever be! You will no longer dominate me! Your power is diminishing, even as we speak! How does it feel to be the weak one, for once? And I the strong! I say to you fear: Your Powers Mean Nothing Here... BE GONE!
By Gina

Free!
As I open the window, I feel the breeze, that moves upon me. As I draw deep breaths, I let go of the heavy thoughts of the day. Like wild birds, thrown into flight, I can soar freely now. The world an open plane, that teases my newfound curiosity, to discover all that I have not seen, and all that I have imagined. I now find beauty in smaller things! The things I've taken for granted: Sunshine, fresh air, children laughing, people singing,and familiar smiles. These are the things that bring me peace! The place I go to find my sanity, when I feel it has gone astray! The place I go, to reclaim my soul, and I think thats where I'll stay!
By Gina

	No One Knows!
	No one knows what the other goes through! No one knows what is behind our sad eyes, or broken smiles. No one knows the thoughts that plague our minds, and trample our fragile souls. No one knows me well enough to see beyond my flesh! They cant see my shattered mind, or my broken heart! They cant read my mental resume, or see how life has taken me so far from where I have been. How bewildering! to think that no one knows how to creep into your head long enough to hear your deepest thoughts, only long enough to corrupt them. But you don't know me, or the road I have been down! So if when we meet, all you see is my pale skin, and my dark eyes, or my bony frame, and my slouching shoulders Remember:...You dont know me! And when you see me on the street, or in my car, or sitting on a bench, and you see that I am less than beautiful, or perfect.... Don't stand before me in judgment! Just remember...You don't know me!
	By Gina

Denial
Now that I am gone, don't try to put 2+2 together! It's too late now! It wont do you any good! After all, how could you see through that heavy suit of armor? You know! The one you donned whenever I was near. The one that kept you safe, and left me awkward, and naked...with scars, and bruises. How could you see past that wall of protection? You know! The one you built when you saw me coming! The one that kept you deaf, and blind, and left me moaning, and wailing...and begging, and bleeding. How could you see through that dark cloud of denial? You know! The one that loomed overhead, whenever you spoke of me! The same one that hung over the cemetery that day, and left me breathless, and lifeless....and still, and silent!
By Gina

Misery
Long stringy hair, hangs over the dark circles, that surround my bloodshot eyes, as tears of hopelessness roll down my face. Pale white skin, from the Anemia in my blood, that weakens my tired bones, as numbness sets into my limbs. Shoulders that slouch, from the Depression, that wieghs down my scrawny body, as darkness cast's shadows upon my lips that don't smile. A spine that crumbles, from the Anxiety, that burns holes in my stomach, as my mind screams in agony. Body that trembles, from the scary thoughts, that plague my mind, and make me want to sleep forever!
By Gina