
The title says enough about the story...I hope you enjoy it...
As my girl and I walked around one night
She suddenly grabbed my arm out of fright
She said she thought she heard footsteps that were a little too close
I looked around and saw a shadow standing under a light post.
"J, how ya been?" The figure then asked.
Before I could reply I heard the blast.
I dropped to the ground in a bloody heap
All I ever wanted was that night to hold and keep.
My girl looks at me and then to the man
Who had a double barreled Remington held in his hand.
I looked up at her as she began to cry
And the first thought I had is I know I'm gonna die
I looked back up to the man but he had already broke
And the words I tried to speak got caught up in my throat
So instead of the words I reached in my pocket
And pulled out a small box and gently unlocked it
I handed it to her and she looked at me
"Look inside girl and tell me what you see."
She opened it up and began to weep
I had it engraved with the words, 'My Soul Is Yours To Keep'
It was the ring that she was looking at not too long ago
And I was going to give it to her along with my soul
I got it so that we could always be together
But now it seemed I’d be without her forever
As I lay on the pavement, with the whole in my side,
I try to take my feelings and tell them to hide.
But all my girl does is look in my eyes,
"I'll be with you way past this night. “She screams and cries.
I try to tell her that I will never leave her heart,
But still she cries as she knows that we'll part.
"The love that we have will never die,
So clear all your tears there is no need to cry.
At least with this I can watch over you,
Please keep this with you so know I'm true."
I wrapped my hand around hers as she softly cried
And I put it on her finger as the pain began to subside
I looked at her through the tears in my eye,
And she told me, “Please hold on, I wont let you die."
As I looked in her eyes and a saw the reflection of the skies,
Never wanting to leave the time because of cries.
Blood was pouring out of me as I lay on the floor
She put her hand under my head, god I want to stay more.
"Angel, our love is too strong to be broken with death, this I swear..."
And I reached up gently, ran my fingers through her hair.
With that one final shot that blew me apart,
It couldn’t compare with the pain deep in my heart.
I took her hand in mine as I gave in inside
And less than 5 minutes later...in that alley...I died...
As my soul rose out of my body it was all like a dream
"Someone call an ambulance!!" I heard my girl scream.
All of a sudden my soul floated to the sky,
And I stared at my girl as I began to cry.
She was getting further away and still I heard her screams,
And I couldn’t help but think of the loss of these things.
The ambulance arrived and took her away,
With my body on a stretcher, I lost that day.
I looked around me now and dried all my tears,
As all the clouds were below me now along with lost years.
I looked around at the sky and at all of the stars,
But it seemed as if my heart had been locked behind bars.
I was isolated alone, from all that I love,
Cursed to be alone in the heavens above.
So as I now approach the gates of gold,
I feel as though I'm weak and old.
I cry through the gates "GOD LET ME GO..
BACK TO THE GIRL THAT I MISS SO..."
There was no response except for a light
And the gates opened for me on that last night
I walked in slowly as I hung my head
'So I guess this is what its like to live amongst dead'
I thought to myself as I passed by the lights
And into a place unbelievable by sight.
I looked around at the happiness I saw
But I was without my love, and that hurt most of all.
As my eyes had focused I looked around slowly
At the stairs made of clouds that seemed to risen so boldly.
As they spiraled up to a single cloud
I heard a voice say to me, ever so loud.
"You made it here my friend, and I’m sorry to say,
That this night had to be, your final day.
I grant you permission to do as you wish amongst the sky
And you and you’re love, shall unite when she dies."
I hang my head and cry out in pain,
"It isn’t fair, I never lived in vain.
It isn't what I want, I didn’t want to die,
I never asked for pain, I never wished to cry.
I want to go back, just grant me that wish,
I DONT WANT TO BE HERE, I NEVER ASKED FOR THIS!"
I fell to the clouds that were under my feet,
And lied there for hours as I slowly wept.
I stood up and walked alone past millions of souls around,
And came to the center of heaven, what resembled a town.
I looked around but no one was here
And I heard a voice from all around in my ears...
"J, you don’t want to stay here, please believe,
It holds more hurt and pain then you could ever conceive.
This place is a reflection of memories and past,
A place where you can relive what didn't last."
But I didn't care, I wanted to be back on earth,
And if this was as close as I could get it's like a re-birth.
I walked to the bench that appeared in the clouds,
And sat all alone and looked at this town.
The sky and the clouds turned into a street,
I CAN HEAR HER VOICE!, so I run to go meet.
But as I turn the corner I see the man under the light,
The same man that felt the need to take my life that night.
And there I am with my girl smiling and laughing,
Not even considering this night was my passing.
Now I watch the man behind the light step forth and talk,
And my girl and I stopped down the walk.
"NO GOD PLEASE...DON'T DO THIS TO ME."
"I warned you J, it's not what you wanted to see..."
I fell to the floor once again and cried
As I watched my girls face as I slowly died.
Everything was clear and it was right in front of me,
And I guess god was right, it wasn’t what I should see...
The scene slowly faded back into clouds,
And I stood up slowly with pain in my sobs.
I walked to the well in the center of town,
And stood before the marble and looked straight down.
I saw my girl in the hospital and me in the bed,
But the u.v. in my arm gave me the thought, I'm not dead...
I cried out to God, "I'M NOT EVEN DEAD!
TELL ME WHAT I SEE ISN'T JUST IN MY HEAD..."
"You're right J, you see, that your body still lives,
But I did all I could, not that I can give,
Your life back to you, I'm sorry you're here,
And you can not go back to what you hold dear."
"BUT I WANT TO BE WITH HER AND IF I NEVER DIED,
THEN EVERYTHING I THOUGHT WAS NOTHING BUT LIES!
LET ME GO BACK AND I KNOW THAT YOU CAN,
I'LL PUT UP WITH WHATEVER PAIN IS THROWN AT ME AGAIN.
I'LL HOLD ON FOREVER, JUST LET ME GO BACK..."
And the clouds drifted apart and the heavens turned black.
I fell from the heavens, and entered my body,
And saw my girl, sitting there before me.
She was asleep as I watched from the bed,
Too weak to wipe the tears from my head.
Throughout the tears I watched her in peace,
As she finally woke up and looked quietly at me,
With a cry she fell onto me, and kissed my face gently,
And told me how, in a dream she met me.
She said I was a creature, some soul less thing,
But she didn't care, all she wanted was me.
And in the dream as I held her I had promised her this,
That I would come back, no matter the consequence.
And when she woke up, there I was, just like I said,
And she cried more as she told me that she thought I was dead,
But I had told her that night, with my final breath
That our love was much stronger, to be broken with death...
Love is much stronger than anyone can conceive,
Cause what I've felt in my heart words can't complete.
I can only pray that one day you will find,
The strength of the love, which I know is mine...