Remember the times of hope and despair
And the ways that the wishes I brought went with fear
It pains me to think of the times that I’ve brought
When all my own thoughts were something I'm not
I just want to be gone, to a place without pain
Without the torture inside, without the lies made in vain
Without the hope that brings hurt, without the cries that bring tears
Without the pleasures I've lost throughout all of these years
Without the things that you say, without the pain that I’ve caused
Without the way that you hoped that all time would be paused
To give you a second to take things and check it
To make sure all was well, before I had wrecked it
Like a man in a shootout or a girl without hope
A mind without love, an addict without dope
I just want to show that through all of these things
That I’ve still held through, to see what hope brings
I just wish to see what you all want me to see
And hope for me to be all you want me to be
But I am what I am and I cant change the past
And they say that the fool is the one that laughs last
But what about the one that cries for his life
I wish there were ways to go do things twice
Take back all the wrong and make them all right
I would change the world, at your very request
And hold you in my heart, past our final dying breaths...
-KrAzY J