My husband and I were not planning to have another child for a while
because
we were in school and trying to finish, yet I found out I was pregnant.
I was
overjoyed even if it was not planned. My pregnancy went great... no
morning
sickness or any problems. Toward the end of the pregnancy they would
have
trouble locating Roy's heart beart. Yet it was always found and it
would be
strong. He even looked healthy from the ultra sounds. They thought he
was a
girl though. My due date was March 27, 1998, and it came and went. Then
on
March 31, 1998 I went to the hospital at 5:00. They hooked me up to the
monitors and kept losing Roy's heart beat but still kept finding it. I
ended
up getting an epidoral finally because I could not take the pain any
more.
Around 1:00 I felt like I had to push but was not ready and was given
more
meds. At 1:15 he was born spontaneously and had the cord wrapped around
his
neck three times. The doctors revived him and had him on a ventilator.
Then
Roy wastransferred to Children's Hospital of Philadelphia. The next
day my
husband and I went to see him and was told he really had no chance of
living
even with life support and would soon die. We spent the next few days
by Roys
side taking pics and giving as many people a chance to hold and see him
including his brother Sebastian who was only 2 at the time. We chose to
take
him off life support on April 3 and he died an hour later.
Roy you came and went so fast. You mademe realize that life doesn't
always
last. Roy I miss you so much. In a Flash I would take you back. You now
have
a baby brother as you already know and another baby one the way. I will
make
sure that they know of you. I miss you and love you Roy. Love Mom
(Do Not Cry)
Do not stand at my
grave and weep. I am not there,
I do not sleep. I am a thousand
winds that blow. I am the diamond's
gift on snow. I am the sunlight
on ripened grain. I am the gentle
autumn's rain. When you awaken
in the morning's hush, I am the swift
uplifting rush of quiet birds
in circled flight. I am the soft stars
that shine at night. Do not stand at
my grave and cry;
I am not there,
I did not die.
(Author Unknown)
(COME WITH ME)
The Lord saw you getting tired,
And a cure was not to be
So He put his arms aroud you
And whispered"Come with me
With tearful eyes
we watched you suffer
And saw you fade away
Although we loved you dearly
We could not make you stay
A golden heart stopped beating
A beautiful smile at rest
God broke our hearts to prove
He only takes the best
It's lonesome here without you
We miss you so each day
Our lives aren't the same
Since you went away
When days are sad and lonely
And everything goes wrong
We seem to hear you whisper
"Cheer up and carry on
Each time we see your picture
You seem to smile and say
"Don't cry"I'm in God's keeping
We'll meet again someday
By:(Rhonda Braswell)
Roy you are in a better place now...
you are with our savior Jesus.
We will see you when it is our time.
Until then you are always in our hearts
and minds.
