or last night when I walked down to here to (but then Russ offered me a ride) see you, pretending --for your sake or mine?-- I was merely procrastinating though it was so much more. thanks to you I got work done last night and this, three hours without pause, both nights. both nights looking for you, or looking to get away from you. suggested I might never find you tonight and I I laughed. I can always find you because you're always in the same place. tonight you're not in the here to which I traveled for you. my sole is cramped and aching as though I had danced all night without notice, and I could not walk long under the golden autumn arches of berries and leaves today not with you, but thinking of tonight, how (I might) tonight be with you the truth. tonight I walked toward the moon and saw how it would be -- it, all of it -- and I am glad I have not lost you.
29 September 1999