2:09:00 i'm home

2:09:00 i'm home

hey, i'm home from the vacate. hip hip hooray!! ya know, i'm not really sure how to spell that. hooray, or is it horray. hmm. well, anyways, i had all new classes today, really crazy. and, hmm, yah that was fun. righto....anyways, i don't got much to say, but, i am really glad i'm back. i got back yesterday, and found out terrible news, and ever since, i've been depressed, i'm sure you all care.......but too bad, i'm going to talk and talk and talk anyways. hahaha lucky you!! har har har. anyways, well, i have nothing really to say, and i gotta do some homework. why? its not like i'm gonna graduate anyways, ya know? no point in making my life even more miserable than it already is. i've been just sitting in class listening to metallica. my new fave song is no leaf clover. and of wolf and man. yeah, they're pretty cool. me and my friens are gonna go see rammstein in concert and i'm pretty hyped about it. yeah, well, anyways, i'll see ya all later. or something. bye bye. oh and thanks for the welcome home party. psh losers. hahahhahha lol bye. love y'all. whoops, there goes my hick attitude. hahha bye

2:10:00 nasty lesbians

2:10:00 nasty lesbians

there are the nastiest chicks in my seventh period class. all they ever do in opp. block is pretty much suck face and make out. but yet, never really do. i don't know what they're waiting for. everyone in there is always complaining about it. one of these days, when they're so close that they're pretty much kissing, but not, i'm gonna walk by em, and smack one of em on the back of the head. then we'll really see a seen. that is sooo nasty. but yet, i'm sure they'd never admit to being lesbians. why is that? i would think that homosexuals would be proud of themselves i mean, thats what gay pride is, and be proud and all that stuff. if they're so proud, than why are they always, "still in the closet". if they can't handle the pressure of the outside, then oops, maybe they should stop fudge packing. my brother told me the nastiest joke about how do you make a gay guy fake orgasm. it was something like pour warm yogurt down they're back. aggg, that is soo incredibly discusting. i mean, why would i wanna do something like that. i do think that gay guys happen to be hotter than straight guys, but thats something i'm going to have to live with. haha. not necessarily. i guess i dont' really have much to say or talk about. but, i have mono, and i'm really tired. i stayed the night at my friends house last night. and NO! she's NOT my lover. :o) seriously, because first of all, i'm not like that.:o)uhhh ohhh, i don't have a second of all. oops. set my self up for that one......anyways....school was okay today. but we have a new seating arrangement in my history class, and thats the only class that i actually have friends in. all my other classes, i have maybe one friend if that. oh well, i'm a loner. :o) well, hey, one of my friends voted me the most origonal. psh, hahahah, i don't think so. i'm like, one of the most not origonal people. yeah, i wear weird clothes sometimes, cause i don't care what people think, but for the most part, i'm fairly normal. i go with the flow, i do the sane things. or something like that. well yeah, hey, time to go, bye everybody. nighters. love mel chan

2:12:00 hrm

2:12:00 hrm

hey hey sportsfans!! this is your superior mistress. what up????? word!! sorry, hey, today was boring. i'm tired and wanna go to bed. i had to work at twelve. i'm learning more and more html....whoo hoo i know. but hey, i'm trying to learn something at least. god, i was sooo stoked. i passed like every class last semeseter cept one. that is a record for me. first time i've passed more than like three classes in the same semester. i'm sooo proud of myself. hey guess what everybody. i am doin myself a world of good. i'm going to be taking a stress and anger management class. god knows i need it. well, i struggggg. ich komf!!! hey, i saw two german chicks today that spoke it and barely any english. they looked cool too. one chick had that little piece of skin in front of her top two teeth pierced. lol. it was soo cool!!! well, hey, i got nothin else to say, but peace!! and i'm rather disappointed, i'm going to have a lam-o valentines day. i need a guy!@!! well, see y'all laterzzz, bye llove mel chan

2:13:00 Boredom

2:13:00 Boredom

hey hey, brb don't leave. okay, i'm back! sorry bout that. i'm just tryin to fix this stuff up. i've learnt some mores of HTML. pretty good for mees aye? yep, i know. i skipped like a whole week of rampages because of the alabamy trip. well, not like anybody reads this. oh well.....nobody loves me. lol, j/k seriously, though, i'm gonna spend another lonely valentines day. oh well, whats new? the past like 2 or three times have been sooo lame. pathetic and boring. yes, thats also my life for ya. i have like absolutely no social life anymore. i don't know whats wrong with me. well, i'm not too concerned. i feel really bad, i need to go talk to my teacher. stupid i know, but he passed me and i dont' even know why. its geometry. and i've been it since my frosh year. i'm a jr. now, and i have done nothing every single year and i passed with a C. thats impossible. i understand it all, but i haven't done any homework, and i mean none, and i didn't do any projects. maybe he just messed up or something on my grade. i'm taking algebra 2 in my alternative class. i dont' know why. i haven't even completely geometry and that comes before it. i'm still doing frosh english. pathetic huh? i think so too. i am never going to graduate. hmmm, my friend just informed me that i can get free internet. righto. i think i might just give that a looksee. mmhmm? right.. this look okay i guess. wait, whats this? agggg no!!!! CRIKEY!!! well, lets see here, banner, for internet. what'll it be? i think banner. i'm not understanding this. here, go toaddress.com
i think it'll work. or something. i'm struggling. sorry. well, i guess theres not really much for me too say. so, farewell to you all. whoever reads this. parting is such sweet sorrow. well, i'll catchya's all laters. bye bye. love ya's: melchan

2:14:00 Valentimes

2:14:00 Valentimes

okay......hi everybody hi hi. i went to school today..yeah...whoo hoo..and stuff. actually, i got new books and stuff. i haven't even spent a whole day with my real teachers yet at school. crazaaay. i went to my anger/stress management class today. and i came out and i told them that i've never been to a counsilor because they're pathetic and they don't work. soo, at least they know what i'm thinking. my mom and my friend gave me valentines stuff. and thats it. nobody said anything. so,,, nobody knows its valentines day.whoo hoo. i think my sis is out with her other half and my parents are out and my bro and his other half are out. and i'm here with my other half. my comp. feels great. well. hmm, i guess i have nothing to say. oh, i went to the denist today. had two cavity's filled. i have never had that done. so guess what, the gas is new to me. baby!! that stuff is the best. when they were done i asked for more. i went home and went to bed. and came off my high whilst being asleep. i think i'm going to go eat pizza by myself and watch powder. and then, i'm going back to bed. maybe if i'm lucky i'll die in my sleep. well, wait, then that would be a waste of a perfectly good filling. :o) oh well. guess i'll just have to wait. well, have a good one. bye.

2:15:00 Hey Hey

2:15:00 Hey Hey

whaddup whaddup? girls you know you betta watch out. whoo hoo, cause i might come and getcha. riiightt....that didn't sound too good. anywho. i had a fairly good day. it started off pretty bad, but i had chocolate and got a sugar high. and then i had dumb classes. and then i talked to a friend i haven't talked to in like forever. but thats besides the point. ya know, i'm sure all of you are like completely depending on what i write every day. right? yes yes i know. everybody worship me!!!! not really. i'm not that conceited. well, not that i know of. :o) if i ever come off as conceited, just tell me, and i'll try to change. :) hmmm, i ate a lot of chocolate today. not very good. and i'm still wanting to go back to the dentist for the special gas. :) hrm. i guess i have nothing else to say. have you all notice these messages are becoming less and less i mean more and more pointless? its like what am i doing? i'm wasting my life away on my precious compster. it deserves all the TLC it can possibly get. see i had to spend last night alone well, i would have if it weren't for my sweetheart, my comp. well, i guess i'm getting to obsessive but hey, you would to if you went through as much as i've gone through with my significant other(my comp). hey, thats like mein komf. i think thats spelled right. maybe it needs the two dots over the o. my struggle. i'm sure you've all heard of that. i was gonna read it. but never got around to it. whoa!!! i just got like 30 messages on icq. i had people update my info but wasnt' expecting that big of a response!!! my name is now ANGEL OF DEATH. back to my original name. :o) well, i'll catch ya all later. have a great day. :) bye love melchan

2:16:00 Ackley!

2:16:00 Ackley!

my my my....this is beginning to be quite a long page. ha aha ha. i'm a boring little person with no life. hahaha. right....i'm so tired. time for me to go to bed. hmm, what do you all think? should i make another page? like for more little messages of me freaking out on everybody? hahahha. i'm really really tired. and hey, guess what i turned in all my homework and all the other stuff that i didn't. i still did it. whoo hoo. i'm on a role. i may pass some classes again this semester. whoo hoooo!!! yeah well, i got a new e-mail address but its for like the main computer address and i set it as a default but its not working. oh well. ya know. each day that goes by, part of my self esteem goes up and part goes down, so i guess i'm equal at all times. i am finally standing up for myself against the stupid people and yet want to die. so, hmm, i guess i just struggle all together. owww, my filling hurts!!! yeah well. thanks for caring, all. hey i bet none of anybody can guess when my birthday is. i bet my friend who is the closest i can find to a best friend doesn't even know when my birthday is. well, i'm stoked cause its during spring break for me. it always is. yeah......cool, i know. right....yeah well, ummm, last year i rented a condo. mhmmm. yeah. well, hey, i guess thats all i have to say today. i'm going to bed and its only......10:30pm. i think that gas messed my brain up completely. or my mono is kicking in..hmm whichever it is..i'm still tired. hey, just for all of yours info's,,,, my mom got me some piggy slippers.yeah....cool.....shut up mel. ya know what really urks me. i hate talking to people over random on icq when they don't know english. i dont' know why. it just gets on my nerves and i wanna hit someone or something...hey, i'm still trying to learn German, but i'm not going very fast. i have like 4 books that i'm learning from. yeah....hey, we're learning like all about WW2 in two classes and i've learned it like every year for the past like 5 years. yeah...great...anyways...back to me back to me. yah....well....guys are baaadd. my friend jess is always saying sheya...i'm reading a book in English called "Night"...its talking about the holocost. and it really made me mad hearing about it. and i mean really mad. why are people so stupid and racist against a whole race? well, okay, i'm doing nothing but pissing myself off, so, i'll letcha all go. bye bye. love melchan all the way

2:18:00 sHtupid

2:18:00 sHtupid

helluu helluu my faithful servants, and followers. ya know, i didn't think anybody reads my good form of anger management(these rants)until i saw a reader who signed my guestbook. it really confused me. but i became unconfuzzled very quickly. hrm..yeah. anywho, thank you for reading even though i now feel like more of a fool, but hey, its all good. God, i saw the nastiest thing today. a stupid girl in my class with her shirt up and her friend fondling her. do you know how bad i wanted to through up? i mean, doing it behind closed doors is one thing. but in the middle of the class? Good God!! nasty dykes!!! anyways, she's the nasty lessy of em all. they all are on her or another on of the dykes. but yeah, i'm sure this isn't making any sense, but have i ever wrote anything that has? hmm? i didn't think so. well, hmmm, i finished a very good book today. it was one hundred and nine pages. whoo hoo. i read a lot....or whatever. it was "Night" by Elie Wiesel i think. hmm, i'll check later. but it was a good, but sad book. it was about a boy who went to a consentration camp in 1942 w/his father, mother, and sister and they all got killed but him. I won't go into any details, but it was really sad. I'm soo glad that not many people have been to my site or i'm sure i'd get sooo many hate letters or something. Well, i guess i have nothing else to say. I'm actually thinking about Disconnecting from the internet for good because i'll be forced to get a social life. i'm not sure if i've mentioned that before. ya know what really aggrivates me. i hate it when people come to my site just to see my pic and to know what i look like, if i'm a freak or not, but they don't sign the freaking guestbook. HOW GAY IS THAT? i know i'm getting mad over nothing. but ohhhhh wellll!!!!! thats just a peave of mine. i felt like my appendix was going to blow up last night. i was joggin along listening to my favorite band, and i just about curled up and died. I've had problems in the past with my appendix, but have never gone to the doc about it. so...i'm not a healed person.... yeah anyways. in a sense....well, anyways, i'll letcha all get on with your wonderful lives. bye love melchan

2:19:00 work work work

2:19:00 work work work

i had to pack fudge for 9 hours straight today. well, that is except my half hour break. ya know, i've been working at the same place for almost 3 years now, and i'm only making 6.75. minimum wage is 6.50. what is up with that? i'm soooo tired. i didn't get to sit down once except on my break. yeah, okay, enough of my complaining. i'm sure you aren't having lovely days yourselves. i went to portland tonight. i left at 10:30 and got back at 1:30. hmm, like half hour ago. by the way its 2:10 a.m. now. cool aye? yes yes, i know. you can all get up off the ground from worshiping me. haha. just so you all know, i'm not as conceited as you all may think i am. hahha, it was sooo funny. i was out walking aroudn with my brother before we left and two stupid girls from my school who i hate and hate me were like staring at my brother. hahahahaha. how gay!!! yeah...well. anywho. some guy was asking my brother for paper at the bus station tonight. hmmm, i wonder what he meant. ;) hahha. hm yeah anyways..i should get some shut up i mean eye. God i'm always messing up my words. i need to get in kick boxing. ya know what movies always inspire me all the time. ROCKY. i love rocky. ya know who is really hot? dolph lungren. or however you spell his name. i love the movie universal soldier. that is sooo cool. i love van dam. well, used to. my taste in guys has matured since then. ;) actually not. but anyways. yeah well anyways. i'm tired so i'm going to nod off now. Zzzzzzzzzzzz. righto i'm zippyyy. or something. zipper lipper. yeah.......okay. bye byeeeeee

2:20:00 ackleys! why me

2:20:00 ackleys! why me

i worked today. yay yeah!....sure sure. i'm bored. i haven't actually went and hung out with my friends for about 6 months. i'm bored out of my mind and have to get out of the house! over the years many different artists have performed their tributes to Depeche modes greatest love songs. and though you think you've heard them all theres one band thats yet to cover the sound of depeche modes touching songs of love. Thats right its rammstein. sorry, i love that. und enough is enough. ha ha....yeah well hey, everybody. i'm gonna try and con somebody to hang out with me. whoo hoo, i might be lucky enough to get a life. yesssssss. yeah right. i don't think i could ever get that lucky. das modell baby yeah. okay. well hey, binky's gotta go, bye bye. luv y'all. melchan

2:21:00 whoo hoo. good day finally

2:21:00 whoo hoo. good day finally

whoo hoo!!! i had a fairly decent day today. i had to work at twelve. and i worked till five. and i got very good news that i can't share as of now, because it hasn't gone through yet. but, all i have to say is my world is looking up like .01 degrees. eyah.. if that. two friends from portland came down, or up actually, but yeah, and they came over at umm, 11:15 last night, ended up staying the night and i had two other friends over. so, i didn't get to sleep till 4 i think. and woke up at 8:30 this morning. i'm tired!!! time for me to go to beddy by. i'm soo stoked though, i finaly got the pics to work. whoo hoo!!!! i'll put some more pics of hot guys on kay? cool. bye bye oh and the guy below is oliver. from rammstein. he's really hottttt. yeah. thats my opinion. he's just kinda exotic and unique looking. but i've always liked German guys.

2:22:00 sleep

2:22:00 sleep

its about time. i slept today for like umm, 4 hours. my mom was gonna go get me some food and i fell asleep. so i never got food. and now i'm hungry and now its after eight and i shouldn't eat anything cause than i won't lose any weight. soo...my weekend was pretty cool. yeah..it was the most fun i've had in a while. ;) yeah. anyways....meesa tired. i just woke up not too long ago. i was thinking about skipping school and going up to portland for the day. yeah...well, hmm, i can't think of anything to say. and i'm kinda tired. if i haven't mentioned that before. i'm gonna add more links. i think i'll add all of the rammstein ones i can find. bye bye. have a great day.

2:23:00 rammstein

2:23:00 rammstein

hey yous guys. i had a great day. i skipped two class periods, my last two and went shopping. i got two cd's and a pair of shoes. guess what cd's i got. Herzeleid, and Live in Berlin!!! yay!!! now i had them all. i think. well, if theres more, i'll buy them too. okay, have you ever had a song that you hear that it just makes you want to kill people? well, i hear a song like every day and it makes me want to go on hag mode. its i knew i loved you by savage garden. see, you dumb peeps out there, its not rammstein or any other heavy metal band thats making me want to kill people, its that damn song by the two fags, even though they're hot, but it still sucks. i found the coolest site yesterday and i watched du hast finally. i've seen it before, but only once. it was the first and last time i've ever seen any video of rammstein. thats what made me love them. well, i didn't know it before but Christoph is the one who goes into the warehouse. i didn't know it. he's really hot, by the way. i can't wait to get my cd player and all my cd's back so i can listen to them at school. whoo hooooo. hope he didn't break them. okay, i'll give you the 411:) i leant all my cd's and my cd to my friend russ that me and my bro dropped off at the bus station saturday night. so, now i have nothing. but i kept my rammstein and forgot to keep metallica. i was gonna by load, reload, justice for all, and master of puppets today, but i decided not to. i wanted rammstein more. i got the last one of herzeleid. and there was only one sehnsucht left, but i already have that. and there was 2 of live in berlin, but now theres only one left. i'm sure you all are very interested. of course, cause its me we're talkinga bout. right? right, yes yes, i know. well, see ya all l8a. i have nothing else to tell you. but i am deprived and paranoid. bye. love mel

and it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel is just a freight train coming your way.

2:24:00 helluu

2:24:00 helluu

i keep getting this chick writing me letters. i don't even know who she is. and she just sent me the last one in spanish. i hate thissss. God, i should have went to portland today. aggggg. my friend turned the nasty girls in for sexual harrassment today. whoooo hoooo. it was so funny one of them cussed soo loud in front of the teacher and didn't know he was behind her. and she was groveling to him. hahhaha for him to forgive her or whatever and not write her up. ha ha. i had to go talk to my boss today, so thats why i couldn't go to portland, and she ended up not even being there. sooo,,, grrrr. well, back to my poor little reality. i saw a cool bumper sticker today that said reality is just for stupid people who can't handle drugs or something. it was soo cool though. yeah, my sis has one that says don't annoy the crazy person. God, i'm boring. i'm gonna go. bye

2:25:00 what?

2:25:00 what?

all i have to say is, today was a pathetic day, and i'm tired, so i'm going to go to bed, or finish watching silence of the lambs. nighters. :)

2:26:00 hooraa

2:26:00 hooraa

ackly m'boy. Crikey!!! i gotta go, my friend is here. have a safe trip and happy birthday. by the way i just got off work. bye bye. love yas hey peeps. i'm back!! just went out and chilled. i was gonna say i was chillin like a villain, but i hate that. besides i don't know how to spell villain. but yeah. cool cool, i know. well, i had a lot of fun tonight. i met some hot guys. but yeah...they're stupid. i'm tired. and should go to bed. i had some friends stay the night again. that was fun fun fun. whoooo whoooo!! well, peeps are making me mad, so i'll catcha's all lata. bye, love melchan

2:27:00 no

2:27:00 no

well, hey peeps, i had another interesting day at work today. yeah, cool......i'm not going to elaberate. or however you spell it. ya know, i really hate it when peeps steal things from me. grrrrr. i hate peeps. yeah well, i think i'll go watch a movie...hmm, or stay at my friends house for the night. whoo whooo!! everything message is like soo incredibly short now. maybe i'll just stop writing all together. i lost my herzeleid cd but i found it. and it is all scratched up and i just bought it. grrrrrrr. well....i'll letcha all go. bye, love taco

2:28:00 hi hi

2:28:00 hi hi

God, i'm even more obsessed with ramms+ein than ever. Me and Asche are goin on fanatic!! whoo whooo. i've had a weird day. me and asche walked around town listening to herzeleid and Live aus Berlin. We've heard Sehnsucht enough to know word for word. But yeah, we're gonna go on a world tour when we graduate and go to Germany and meet rammstein and marry Germans. I've had a pretty lame day though, other than that, but my teacher made the stupid chicks quit dyking out!! yay!!! ...next time, they'll get suspended whoo hoooo!!! Well, hrm..... i'm so mad, i lost my homework that i worked really hard on. now i'm prolly failing. oh well. whats new. i'm used to it. so, i need to quit complaining so much. i need to get up off my arse and do something...but what? hmmmm. i don't know. I can't wait to go to Germany. my aunt is going to take me there. whoo hoo!!! i'm learning German still. well...i have nothing else to say. so, bye. yeah...bye

2:29:00 just another day

2:29:00 just another day

i have done a lot of thinking today. i wish i could just step outside of my body just for a day. and just drift and float in the air. whoa, i just saw a cool music video of 98 du reichst so gut. its cool. Christoph is hot, but conceited. why is that? "why is it that the men are forgiven, and the women arent?" sorry, that was from Toni Braxton a long time ago. "unbreak my heart, say you love me again..." or something i haven't heard that in a long time. that used to be my favorite song. I've been listening to herzeleid so much lately. Komm in mein boot. or something.i don't know. mein liebe gesagt mich und kuss mich, or yeah....its amazing how insane the male species can be. its like, any chick that looks have way decent or do-able, they'll jump right on. yet, its like they have the nerve to say they love you or something. what is love anyways. i still don't know. i hate when people lie. its like, if you want somebody to like you for who you are, don't freaking lie!!!the expression don't lie to make friends is sooo true. i knew a guy once, who said he cared about me a lot. he wanted to make all my pain go away. if he didn't say it, he sure made it seem like he loved me. so, i dont' know. anyways. i kept writing me back and forth over e-mail, because we didn't get to talk every day. well, i found out, that while he was saying a bunch of crap that he was saying, he had gotten a g/f. how incredibly gay is that? i would have totally respected him more, if he would have just told me he had a g/f. Why are guys like that? i know not all of them are, but like ninety nine percent of them are. He's not the only guy who's ever done this to me. He was just an example. I have had from how many i can count from at least seven. why is that? i know its not that many, but it is actually my own fault. so,i have no right i guess to be going on and on about this. i set myself up for it. so i guess i'm done. i need to lose some weight. i feel so fat. another thing dammit!!! when somebody says they feel fat, dont' say "you're not" because they're saying they feel this way. they may not be it, but they sure as hell feel it. okay? thanks. thats all i have to say. nighty night. love taco

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