yes!!! a new background!!!!!
by the way stupid peeps. j/k don't leave nooooo don't gooooooo. fine. be that way then. okay, well anywho, umm, theres a pic of christoph after this first paragraph. okay? coolness. now GUYS, IF YOU DON'T LOOK LIKE HIM, THAN LEAVE ME ALONE. HAHAHHAHA j/k
1:29:00 Christoph Schneider
1:29:00 Christoph Schneider
Ok, Christoph Schneider, is hot. and when i say hot, i really mean hot!!! I like Rammstein a lot, but they're some really nasty people. But, Christoph is really really hot. kay? yeah, hey, i like gay guys. sorry, that just slipped out. wait, if i like gay guys, than paul is cool. i saw a pic with like, doktor, till, and Paul and they had like two chicks with em, and i swear, they were trying to be the spice girls. Dear God!!! i hate the spice girls. They will burn burn burn in hell!!! Sorry, i'm venting. anyways, i saw the biggest jerk today. he had the nerve to come into my work today. grrrr. i hate men. actually, he's more of a little boy. I can't hate men, cause i have never met one. sorry if i have just offended any of my friends, but its the truth. hrm...i'm really bored. and i need a b/f. ya know? i don't know. maybe i'm just getting desperate. Anywho, back to christoph. he's hot. I've seen some really weird pics of him though. he has really really nice eyes. don't ya think? i'd put a pic up, but lately it hasn't been workin right. the page anyways. or pics, i don't know. anwyays, this is getting really boring, too boring for me to even stay up and type. i hate how stupid i am sometimes. i struggle. okay, well, g'night peeps. i have a migraine, and i feel like taking a knife and stabbing it in my head and into my brain to ease the pain. Nothing will ever heal me. i will die a miserable old hag. i will never be anything else. can't wait to die....die....die...die.......night all
1:30:00 Superbowl
1:30:00 Superbowl
Today was the superbowl, but i didn't watch it. i don't like foot ball. its just for shovanistic men to gather and watch it. very lame if you ask me. and i know you didn't. I'm supposed to be leaving here
shortly to go hang out with my friend james. anyways, sorry about those last few little sentences, in my last briefing. I'm hopefully going to find Herzeleid and Live in Berlin at the store. doubt i'll find it though. By the way, its by Rammstein. duh. of course, my fave. other than lauryn hill. anyways, hrm, i don't have much else to say, but i love all my friends, and i'm going to Alabama. Yay, time to get out of this little hole i live in. We're driving so it means three days in the car with four other people. God help me!! If we don't find a place to take a shower every morning, i will shoot somebody. i can't live without my shower!!! anyways, do you ever think about love and what it really means? I think about it all the time. I have been in love before, but, i have learned my lesson. which would be, you only fall in love once, and all the others are you think you are in love with are just you settling for less than what you deserve. I think everyone has a soul mate, but not everybody finds him/her. ya know? I think i have been in lust, more times than i have been in love. i am sure thats how it is for everybody.
that is, except for those very few that find the person they were meant to be with for the rest of their lives. It's weird how that happens. i was in love with a guy once, at least i think i was. actually, i loved him, but he didn't love me back. i still to this day love him. and its been over 2 years. so, maybe i do still love him. i don't know. do you think it could ever happen, that your soul mate, actually has a different soul mate. i don't know. thats really weird. God, i'm such a freak. I told a guy friend the biggest secret that i have been holding for the last i don't know how long. i was finally aware, what i was all about. to me it makes perfect sense, but, i don't know. its weird. i'm completely rambling on, i know. this guy was completely shocked, and he quit being his friendly self. who needs those kind of people anyways? i don't know. anyways, see ya all later. bye!!!
1:31:00 CRIKEY!!!
1:31:00 CRIKEY!!!
Hey hey everybody. how are y'all? meesa not so good. tomorrow is the big day!!! i'm driving to alabama with the fam wich consists of 5 people. we'll be in the same car, for like 6 days. this is going to be really really pathetic. my whole life my fam took a FAMILY vacate and most of them were for like a month or more. i've gone just about everywhere in the U.S. and have been once to Canada. we also drove there, except for the ferry ride. ohhh, what fun!!! psh, yeah... anyways, today was a very odd day. i went to the Column(a big tower) and ran up the stairs. very stupid on my part i swear. like i have mentioned before, i'm not very bright!! righto, anywho! i actually can't think of anything atm. bye the way, i have learned a very important lesson in the past few days. always go with first instinct. if your insides are telling you to not do something, DON'T DO IT!!! trust me. my insides told me not to tell somebody a very important thing, and what did i do? i went and told. I'm am soo stupid!!!! but, thats obvious. anyways, now i'm paying for it, i won't say how, just, believe me, i am. i think i have mono. i drank after both my bro and sis, and my sis definately has it, and my bro just got over it. whoops. my bad. if i really want to die, i just have to over work myself, until i'm DEAD. but hmmm, thats not a very good way to go out. hrm, i think i would want to be shot. perhaps, a gillotine. or however you spell it. ya know, i met a chick a long time ago, and she recently died. we hung out when ever we saw eachother, but i hadn't seen her for a couple months. when i heard she died, i didn't realize it was her. then when i did realize it, i felt soo bad. everyone around me is dying. if anybody killed any of my closest friends, i swear to god, i would not rest until the killer had suffered. and i mean intense torture. well, i guess thats all i have to say today. see ya later kiddies. i won't be writin for a while, not like anybody would notice. of course not. bye bye. :o)