i hate being sick!
Mood:  d'oh
Now Playing: phantom of the opera
bla. I'm here sitting at home sick. i don't like missing school and now that i have such a light work load school is not so bad even though i spend like 10 hours there almost every day because of the band. all weekend Ive had this bad cough and hurts. if it was just that i would be at school right now but when i got up this morning every time i moved my eyes i got dizzy and my head would hurt. so my mom sent me back to bed. i think i wasn't convinced that i should stay home i thought i was faking it because it didn't plague me totally but it was real because i went to pick up my cat and i was all like wo the room just did a flip flop. so i went back to bed. even when i went back to bed if i moved to suddenly i got dizzy. meh. oh and i got so cold usually my fan keeps me cool but today it was like someone was putting ice on my skin. burrrr. it was 10 when i could not sleep anymore so i got up the dizziness is not as bad as before but meh it still happens every once and a wile. ::dazes out for a second:: wha... oh sorry. sigh i hate being sick.

we need another first bassoon.
Mood:  lyrical
Now Playing: phantom of the opera
"no dought she'll do her best its true her voice is good she knows thought should she wish to exel she has much still to learn. if brighter let her return to me her teacher her teacher.your obediant friend and angel."

::shiffty shiffty::

"or could it be that you're on his side!?"

"hell take me i know"

"if he finds me it wont ever end"

"she's mad!"

"yet while he lives he will haunt us till we are dead"

"he kills without a thought he murders all thats good"

oh god will it all end ::hears maniacal laughter:: eep! ::looks around:: oh silly me it was the music. sigh ^_^

my first day of school
Mood:  accident prone
Now Playing: Josh Groban and that opra chick - the prayer
well. today was the first day of school. meh. well yesterday i couldnt fall asleep so i stayed up till 1:30 am and so i got very little sleep but other than that the day started out ok because i got this energy from some where. well when i got to school everyone was "cheerfull" but it was ok. then the time to get our program rolles around and guess what they mess my program once again. i would forgive them if they did it once or twice but 4 years in a row that is not right. it sucks my ass. so i got a little mad ::shiffty eyes:: i think it was the lack of sleep. well and ways i let slip saying fuck twice. well there is this rule saying that if i say bad words in band i have to pay a fee. this pisses me off even more because it is illegal to do something like that the school can only make you pay for lost school items that you were responsible for. what did i loose those bad words so that i have to pay for them? stupid stupid man our band director is. ::shakes head:: well i calm down and i go to first period which is not band because they fucked up my program. and i calm down. then it is home room Brian asks me to help him with the music so i do because it is my job to do so and then people start to bother me about me saying fuck. and im all like " leave me i am doing my job do you want music or not?" but then mr. williams ( the band director) calles me over so i go and i go talk to him and he talks about its the rules for me to pay a fee for saying the bad words. he compares it to a uniform for a bisness. i just smile at him and think to myself that what he is doing illegal and what little respect i had for that man is gone. well the bell rings for second period so i leave and go to history and that was ok. there was this hot guy in there and that is a plus. then off to english and that was ok too because nancy and mellisa are in the class. lunch was fun because the goup didnt get as small as i thought. then it was cooking and the teacher was talking about the places where utencils go and he was like well what do you think is in the drawer that is labled spoons and i couldnt hold it in and burst out with saying "Forks!" and he was all like at least you guys have a scence a humor. then it was sculpture and that was ok and i finnaly will be able to take that. then it was sales and i didnt even ask for this class. and so i sat there listening to this lady talk and she was pritty nice but i dont want to be in that class. after school i went with Brian and the avocado to the theater to play ddr and then i went home and relized that i had to go to orcestra. i went and then 2 hours later i left and drove home. well on the way i had to take a detore because of and accident or something. when i was in the left turn lane to get onto victory i saw this little kid looking back at me and i waved and then he smiled and i was all like awwwwww how cute and then he disapeared and the a little girl poped up with the boy and they both waved back and forth for the 10 minutes i was in the turn lane. then the car sped up and i didnt see them any more. when i got to winnetka i turned right but i missjudged the turn and hit the curb. ack that was emabressing. at least there was no marks on the car. sigh that was my very long day that was over shadowed by that event in the morning. geesh what is wrong with people these days?

freaky dream and i dont have freaky dreams
Mood:  loud
oh my god a dream that i had. i know it was a really long one but what i am here to talk about is the end of the dream. well i live in an insaine asylum but it is sort of like a mix of my dads old house and his condo and dad and joanne live there with me but they are not considered crazy. i am the craxy one. well i talk to this other person who lives int he crazy house. ive never seen him only heard his voice and i can look out my window to see his but i never look out my window. well the guy is really crazy scarry crazy. at one point dad and joanne are fighting over money and dad had always given me $20 but joanne didnt wand me to have that much because i was crazy. well as i talk to my crazy guy he starts to get scary and starts to obsses about me. the one time i look out the window i see his window and written in big letters i " we cant get out" i could hear his tanting voice as i read it. i told myd ad this and janne dissnisses it and dad gives me $5 and leaves with joanne. (dad and joanne can leave because they are not crazy) i go to get my poptart and as it drops in the machine i hear from a vent or behind the mirror in the bathroom " you can't get out." thats where the dream ends because i forced myself to wake up. i was so scared.
well that was my dream. it sounds stupid now but trust me it was scarry. ::shudder::

quizzes
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: white zombie

You are orange


(better defintion and pics!)What color are you ?
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You are the fire goddess you like the sun and the
heat you are popular and smart and you like to
have fun with your friends and hang out and you
have good friends and you like attention but
sometimes you can be real sour and sometimes
really sweet and you are bright and you truly
care for your family. rate my quiz please


(A better) what Element goddess are you?(Please please rate)
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ArchAngel! The born leader.


What kind of Angel are you? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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Bubbles!


Which 'Finding Nemo' Character are you most like?
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Classical Beauty! A true beauty. You're the perfect
example for that what every young girl wants to
be or what a boy wants to marry, a princess. Of
course you're pretty but you also have many
qualitys which are as important for you as you
looks.


What kind of beauty are you? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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Dao! The chinese Kung-Fu Sword! This attack weapon
is wild and powerful. Used by the soldiers in
the old chinese Army. the Dao is often compared
with a furious tiger.


What's your Weapon? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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hehehheheehhe i just liike to torcher you all with alot of quiz results. well what else do i have to do other than sitting on my ass and watching teen titans and other cartoon network shows. hehehehehehheheheh. ^_^

i am so fucking pissed
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: nothing i havent turned on my itunes yet
grrrrrrrrrr. today my dog had to be taken to the groomers. and sue said that she would put money on the counter so i could pay and then they would clean her. well guess what. there is no money on the counter. and i was at my dads house all like I'm going to be late I'm going to be late and i get home and my sister has left 2 messages on the message machine saying i have to take the dog to the groomers and i can because i have no fucking money. ::twitch twitch::

im trying to change the color of my blog i just dont know if it worked
Mood:  flirty
Now Playing: marron 5 what else?
today is sarah's going away party. it seems as if the summer whent really fast as if the gods dont want us to have a summer break. damn them heehehheheehhehe. ^_^ lalalaallaaalalalllalaal. i dont know what to write. party party party party party at 55555555555555555555555555555555555555555555555555555555555555555 ok im done i just put the pic in. i have no idea why. ::shiffty eyes::

an interesting dream
Mood:  mischievious
Now Playing: nothing i havent reastarted my itunes! ack no music!
here is a dream i had this morning. its a little fragmented because i don't remember it all but there is alot of it of what i do remember.

lets see. well my sister and i we had to be somewhere or do something and we find this room that is dark and all we can see is this bed.
so we to sleep and when we wake up the room is changed and its like we are in a room that was decorated to look like a jungle. and the bed starts to move to the side and i can see all the animals and the vines and it looks really cool.
and i don't know what really happens to my sister but she is not there anymore and i don't think about her. then i think i meet this old man and i think he was my grandfather on my dads side. and that grandfather is dead and i know this even in my dream. but i end up in this room that is filled with gold and gems and all sorts of things. and its really big. and long and i follow it down and there is a small hole in the wall. and i go though it and there is a room made of . hehehhehe
and i eat some and i have a good time and i think someone is with me.

then there is another part of the dream that i don't really remember i think i am in a market place and im with my family? or something like that but i don't really remember.

then im with a friend i met in summer school. and we are in a room like the band room but on the side where the instrument thingy is a hall way and it leads to the treasure room. but i only know about it. but i show my friend and we do drugs there. and i tell her about it and stuff and she is all like cool.

but then the dream shifts and im with these people i don't know except for my cousin bobby. and we are in this huge hall like place. with several levels and and is hollow in the middle like the mall but bigger much much bigger and one room and it is all metallic like. and on the bottom is water about waist deep we have no idea how we got there and the only way we think we can get out is this huge grate on one of the walls that i guess lets the watter out. my cousin goes to explore it because we don't know what is down there and he doesn't come back.
*let me note that when he goes in he is the bobby that i remember when we were younger and he still had his baby fat*
and so the people i am with and i decide that we are going to rescue him. so we go around this huge place looking for weapons and other things. like something to make a raft out of because we don't want to be wet i end up finding a spear and other people find water crafts and things of that nature and im still looking for stuff in the water. and this huge fish like creature comes out from the grate and attacks us. and so we try to fight it and it ends up coming strait for me and i though my spear and i hit it dead on and it should be dead but it still comes after me and i scream on the top of my lungs. at the last second when i should be dead my cousin kills the thing and we are all like "yay you're back we thought you were dead!"
*note now he looks like he does now. he doesn't have his baby fat anymore because of this navy thing he took for p.e. and he is tan (i have no idea how you get tan from being inside a water main)
and so he tells us on how the creature took him and what is down the water main and that he escaped from the creature and it chased after him. and he guessed that it herd us and went after us instead.

and then all i know is that i get out of the place because im at this woman's house with these two men. and it turns out that the secret entrance to my room is there and im looking for it. and for some reason i don't want the two men to know where it is. and the lady is like you have to show me where it is. so i do and we go though the little opening into the room. and i tell her how only i am able to get in unless i want another person to come in like herself. and i show her the chocolate room and i tell her the the chocolate is good to eat. and then we go back into the treasure room and i tell her how ive never taken anything out of her because i want to preserve it and how there was a third room but was lost along time ago and how it was magic
*i think the magic room was the one that looked like the jungle that room appearers in other parts of the dream but in the parts that are fragmented and wouldn't make sense to anyone not even me*
and that is the end of my dream. shrug. heehaw i know it was looooonnnngggg ehehheheheheh.

intested at the new format of the blog
Mood:  silly
i decided to post. and look there is new stuff i can do. ehehehehehhehe ^_^ well i post because i decided to ::shiffty eyes:: well acctually it was because Sarah made me. ehhhehehehe. but shrug thats ok i should have anyways. hey it even has spell check yay!!!

Insanity
insanity is only a given when friends are involved. Pulling you from one high to another. and then they can leave you in the dust. Sitting dirty on the ground you wonder why you follow these people. you know if they just asked you, you would jump of a cliff. but then hate them at the same time because of what they put you though. you wonder why you still care, and why you try to gain their approval. You want to yell at them and then at the same time hug them and want them to feel better so you can too. They tell you i tried to kill myself today. 57 times in fact you just stare in disbelief. what is wrong with the people we know? i ask my self in the end. Sadly i shall never find out.