x0 babygurl x02: i know this is ranodm and i dont wanna scare u or
anything but i wanna know straight up....if it's more than just friends or
not, cuz i dont wanna get hurt like i usually do....i always get fucked
around with...guys love to fuck with my head
SturTanis: lol
SturTanis: what guys fuck with your head?
x0 babygurl x02: ummm...danny,aaron
x0 babygurl x02: guys always do
x0 babygurl x02: i dont wanna get hurt again
SturTanis: So don't
x0 babygurl x02: thats kinda hard...
SturTanis: with me all you're gonna do is get hurt
x0 babygurl x02: y do u say that?
x0 babygurl x02: well with me...you're not gonna get hurt
SturTanis: I'm leaving for the marines next year
SturTanis: and this is hopefully my last year of highschool
x0 babygurl x02: thats then...this is now
SturTanis: I just dont want some nagging gf
x0 babygurl x02: see...i'm not like that
x0 babygurl x02: i know u think every girl is the same, but....
x0 babygurl x02: i'm going to college too...
SturTanis: so you want a relationship for a year?
SturTanis: thats retarded
SturTanis: thats asking to be hurt
x0 babygurl x02: i dunno
x0 babygurl x02: i just wanted to see what would happen between
us...but i guess its not gonna happen
SturTanis: what would happen?
SturTanis: sure we'd have fun
SturTanis: but then
SturTanis: I'd go to the marines
SturTanis: and you'd go to college
SturTanis: I wanna die in the marines
SturTanis: I dont want to survive thre marines
SturTanis: I'm hoping to die
SturTanis: so once again
SturTanis: you get hurt
x0 babygurl x02: i dunno...i just like hanging out and stuff with u, i'm
just curious to see what would happen...i mean if thats what u want...i'm
not gonna stop you, or even try to
SturTanis: what could happen?
x0 babygurl x02: us being together...
x0 babygurl x02: i'm not asking for marriage....who knows if we'd even
last a year
SturTanis: You wanna see if we'll last a year
SturTanis: and you think that's gonna hurt less then just
not hooking up?
SturTanis: You're not thinking at all.
x0 babygurl x02: idk...i guess not
x0 babygurl x02: its worth a try to me i guess
SturTanis: theres nothing to try
SturTanis: Unless you wanna try to get hurt
x0 babygurl x02: u think someone else isnt gonna hurt me?
x0 babygurl x02: u get hurt....life goes on
SturTanis: but if someone else hurts you
SturTanis: i dont have to see it
SturTanis: i'm not responsible
SturTanis: my shoulders cant hold anymore
x0 babygurl x02: they dont have to hold anything
x0 babygurl x02: i get hurt...life goes on
x0 babygurl x02: ya know...u never know whats gonna happen
SturTanis: but i fucking do know whats gonna happen
x0 babygurl x02: i mean if we make it a year....then awesome, when u
go the marine's and i go to college we'll be friends
SturTanis: You're so niave.
x0 babygurl x02: i guess
x0 babygurl x02: i dunno jay...i like hanging out with you and stuff, and
i'd love to be with you...just sucks that u dont feel the same way
SturTanis: It just sucks you can read the caution signs
x0 babygurl x02: what do u mean?
SturTanis: You're gonna get hurt
x0 babygurl x02: i dunno...i guess i'm stupid...its worth it to me
SturTanis: It's worth going out with me
SturTanis: so you can get hurt
SturTanis: that doesnt even make sense
x0 babygurl x02: yeah i guess so
x0 babygurl x02: idk...u only live once, u gotta take chances and get
hurt
SturTanis: I've taken my chances
SturTanis: I've taken my hurts
x0 babygurl x02: i know u have
x0 babygurl x02: and u didnt deserve to be hurt like that
x0 babygurl x02: as corny as this may sound...i guess to me being
with u for a year is better than nothing at all....even if we last that long
SturTanis: thats cause you're niave
SturTanis: its ok
SturTanis: you'll lose that niaveness
SturTanis: i just wont be the one to take it
x0 babygurl x02: i dunno what to say
x0 babygurl x02: i always want what i cant have
x0 babygurl x02: idk...i'm willing to take the chance of getting hurt
x0 babygurl x02: maybe niave...but
SturTanis: its not a chance
SturTanis: its not a maybe
SturTanis: its a guarentee
x0 babygurl x02: but u dont even know if we're gonna last a year.....
SturTanis: Whats it matter?
SturTanis: if we last 2 dayts
SturTanis: it'll still hurt
x0 babygurl x02: ya...and i'll get over it,
x0 babygurl x02: i've been hurt
x0 babygurl x02: life goes on
SturTanis: mine doesnt
x0 babygurl x02: what do u mean?
SturTanis: i'm still not over shit people said to me in 7th
grade
SturTanis: I dont just get over shit
SturTanis: Every wrong thats been done to me
SturTanis: I still remember
x0 babygurl x02: idk jay...i'd do anything to change ur mind
SturTanis: I remember mandi ripping apart a gift i made
mom in kindagarden
SturTanis: I dont get over stuff
SturTanis: I can still see my dad holding a gun yelling he'll
shoot us
SturTanis: IT's all there
SturTanis: every waking fucking minute
SturTanis: its all there like a movie
SturTanis: playing over and over
SturTanis: The most depressing thing I do all day is wake
up
x0 babygurl x02: well i wish that i could change that...
SturTanis: but you cant
SturTanis: no one can
SturTanis: thats why i need to die
SturTanis: i deserve that
x0 babygurl x02: no ;u dont
x0 babygurl x02: u deserve to be happy
x0 babygurl x02: i just wish ud' give me the chance
SturTanis: there is no chance
SturTanis: No one can make me happy
SturTanis: Cause i've never been happy
x0 babygurl x02: u werent happy with larissa?
SturTanis: No
x0 babygurl x02: i dunno...i just wish that u would give me the chance
SturTanis: How about i give you the chance to lift a house
SturTanis: or drink the ocean
SturTanis: or fly
SturTanis: its impossible
SturTanis: just like making me happy
x0 babygurl x02: i'd love to be with you....its worth a try
SturTanis: Just be my friend
SturTanis: you'll be happier that way
x0 babygurl x02: no....cuz i like u more than that now
x0 babygurl x02: but whatever makes u happy...i'll do it
SturTanis: notihng makes me happy
SturTanis: you're not listening
x0 babygurl x02: i'm trying to
x0 babygurl x02: but i g2g home....
SturTanis: k
x0 babygurl x02: well i'll ttyl
SturTanis: later
