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this is where i put mai poems...poems tat i, myself, wrote...dont take, please :)
A New Feeling
*for so many years of my life
i had been captured by the dark
enraptured by death
and the bliss that i knew would come
forgetting the pain in my heart
ignoring the harshness of life
retreating into my shell,
never letting anyone inside
love had become a strange feeling
a rare flutter in the stomach
and the quick beat of my heart...
the feelings that u invoked
whenever u were near
it caused my heart to leap
and my mouth to go dry
until i can't even sleep
and i cant even speak
*u pulled me out of the dark
brought me back into the light
u covered my eyes when it hurt too much,
held me close to ur heart,
never letting me go
u warmed my cold soul with ur heat
and u loved me...
*u taught me how to let go
of the pain i felt inside
u showed me that life was worth living
when life had lost all meaning
u kept me from losing hope
when hope was so far away
but most of all u showed me how to love
when love was new to me
Tell All My Friends I'm Dead
Tell all my friends I'm dead.
Do they care at all?
Tell all my friends what I said.
That I'm sorry I didn't call.
Would they mourn for me?
For this, I'm not so sure.
Would they call out for me?
For this, I have no cure.
Would the uncaring faces
Of everyday cry for me?
Will this be a typical case
Where they wish they'd known me?
Or would it be genuine?
A grief brought out by something deep?
Would they moan and whine
And cry until they can't sleep?
Tell them death is inevitable
That my time has run out
And one day, fate will turn the tables
On them, without a doubt.
Would they fear death?
Like I once did?
It leaves you short of breath,
But it's alright, kid.
Death isn't so bad,
Not as scary as one thought.
It may seem very sad,
But it's not only you death caught.
Tell all my friends I'm dead
And life after death is possible.
Tell all my friends I bled
For things thought impossible.
Simply Me
What do you see?
When you look at me?
How could it be?
Are you in love with me?
Sometimes I wonder
If what you feel is ture.
I sit and I ponder
If i really love you.
Everyday, you're on my mind.
Every night, you're in my dreams.
I think about us, intertwined,
Of the pleasure and the screams.
Tell me, is it me that you love?
Or is it the illusion that I made?
Would you cherish me as if I came from high above?
Or would you leave me in the dark, leave me to fade?
Show me, will this love last forever and a day?
Or would our love crumble and fall?
And I hope that your love won't go astray
To leave me here with these lonely walls.
You haunt me when I sleep.
You haunt me when I wake.
I know my feelings are truly deep
And I wonder if yours are fake.
Simply me, that's all that I am.
I love you for all that I can.
And My Love for you is not a sham,
I remember when all this began.
It started with a simple "hello."
It took us years to become one.
Our feelings were never mellow.
A roller coaster ride that had just begun.
My feelings for you are jumbled.
There's so much I need to say.
And if our love crumbled,
Would you still be there for me, everday?
I love you
With each and every breath.
I know it's true
Until my death.
Would you still love me?
For the rest of your life?
Would you want to be with me?
If I were to be your wife?
Pain Inside
I'm sitting here in my class,
Surrounded by people of my age,
I don't wanna be here, but I must to pass.
So, I sit, locked up in a cage.
With all these people around me,
Lonliness wraps itself around my heart.
Feeling as if no one wants me,
And it clings, unwilling to part.
Surrounded externally,
Warmth from the sun.
Isolated internally,
Coldness from being shunned.
Will this emptiness
ever be filled?
With love and happiness
Or will the hatred overspill?
Blood flows in my veins,
The life in my heart.
Is there anything to stop my pain?
Or should I rip myself apart?
No medication from a physician
Can stop the lonliness inside,
And I'm stuck in an awkward position,
So I wait, for this pain to subside.
So I wait
As long as I can.
How long will it take?
My entire life span?
So I wait
For love to come.
I'm stuck in this state
Unwilling to succumb.
And I'll wait
For me; For you.
Until I'm eighthy-eight...
Until I know it's true...
Final Goodbye
My family's falling apart
Right in front of me
And all I can do is sit and cry.
The words you're saying tears at my heart
And you're gazing at me
And I know...this is the end, this is goodbye.
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