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Title: Watching... Wondering
Author: Simon Erif
Pairing: The Twins
Rating: PG
Summary: One of the twins is watching and wondering life...
Series/sequel: Next part/sequel is How to Tell?
Genre: Slash, Angst
Warnings: Might be depressing like Angst usually is... so be careful...
Feedback: YES PLEASE!!! I want to hear your comments so I can write more and improve my style and to know if anyone even reads them.
Author's Notes: I was a little bored and depressed and wanted to write something... this was the result.


Watching... Wondering
By: Simon Erif (c)

I watch him from the corner of my eye. He never notices even though he probably should. I don't know why he never knows that I look at him the way I do. Maybe he does but doesn't feel the same way. Or maybe he is just more of a program than I. Maybe... There's always a maybe but it doesn't change anything. Maybe this, maybe that... Everything still stays the same.

I look and he doesn't see me looking.

I watch him falling for others and then later on killing them like cattle or pets that need to be put down. It doesn't matter to him. Or me... They are just Humans after all. Or so I used to think... I don't know exactly what is wrong with me but it seems that I'm adopting human traits, feelings to be more exact. I do not know how this is possible but it is happening.

I can't even explain it to myself but as I look at him from the corner of my eye he looks so... beautiful. The silver like hair flowing down his shoulders and the ivory skin almost glowing in the light coming from the windows. The suite is clinging just right and loos all the same. He looks magnificent. I wonder what he thinks of me... Do I look good or do I look just usual to him?

It doesn't matter. We are programs. We are not supposed to feel. We do our purpose and nothing more. But we have been here for so long. Worked for so long. I wonder when our time to return will come. I wonder if our work here is ever to be complete. And I also wonder if he will ever feel this way for me too.

I always wonder....


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