i am such a fuck up. i ruined my friendship with steve. i'm a fucking moron. why do i do the damn things that i do? i'm just stupid. i cant keep friends and no one likes me. and i'm going to fake sick on stauray and not have to go to homecoming. fuck me and my life. steve is one of my best friends and i cant believe i would do soemthing like that. god i'm an idiot.