Abstract Chaos

Where is my bridge that crosses over? The bridge that will carry me from the Hell I have to call my life to that place of solitude and contentment I long for... Fear has caused me to doubt the strength of my bridge and the outcome of my journey, and what's waiting on the other side. If I try to cross it (if I ever do find it), will I fall into something dark and evil and scary? Will I be able to get out if I do fall? Do I even care?