Some people take things for granted in life and they only realize their loss when it is too late and gone... By then some who really want things to go back to the way things were, will go to any lengths to make that happen... Others will just sit back and wait for things to happen in fear of rejection, the possibility of getting hurt, or being disappointed because pass experience had led them to not want to try.... Sometimes seeing is believing but you can also believe in things without actually seeing it.... It is called FAITH.... Seeing is just proof of what you believe!... To friends I may seem to be the most strongest person…but at the same time..I’m very FRAIL. I try to hide the fact that I’m weak but it does shows especially when it comes to relationship wise. So I've built a imaginary wall around my heart, so strong that I was SO SURE no one would be able to break it down... but these last few months, it began to chip, stone by stone it started to fall down... and for a moment there someone was able to grab what was behind that wall...I swore I felt it...I know I did... it was this indescribable feeling in my chest, a feeling of being able to ____ again, a tingle.... I honestly don't know how this person was able to do this... I don't know how he was able to break down that wall... I felt things that I never felt before... I actually saw something long term... crazy huh?... I don't know what happened to me... it still amazes me how one person can have such an impact on you, your actions, your feelings, the way you see life, basically almost everything...I thought my heart had learned its lesson...it always feel so good when it starts out.. I dislike the situation I'm in right now... I got myself into it and only I can get myself out of it... I know " if you don't like how things are..do something about it"...By doing something about this I know it could be the best decision I have ever made in my life, but then again it could also be a foolish decision... I am opening a door to something special, so much happiness, pleasure, but with that will come disappointment, sadness, and pain...one step forward can cause two steps backwards... things don't turn out the way I hope/want/plan it to...I will only be farther back then when I started out...I know it is a big RISK/uncertainty..but I can't live my life like this....
* * *I can't/won't/refuse to let a good thing pass me by....
and to me you're a good thing.....
its the other way around...
* * Thuy Trang Mai
hug me