So in my opinion true friends are hard to find! They stick with you no matter what you do, or who you, or they are with, No matter the distance between you and them, they make the effort to talk to you at some point! And no matter what the don't talk about you behind your back!
So if your lucky enough to find your True Best Friend, Don't do anything to loose them, because in the end you'll regret it, and when you turn around to say sorry, it'll be too lat eand they'll be gone. So don't take them for granted. I know i don't take Tash for granted and as far as I can tell She's My Best Friend and i ain't going to loose her.
You know the best things in life are things you least expect. Like surprises! I mean. I love surprises and stuff. And that fact that i'm helping someone surprise some of her friends is the best. I mean the looks on their faces when they see her is going to be the best cuz i got them convinced that she's not comin at all! They don't know that she's going to be here tonight! Let alone that she;s comin at all. Jared is making sure they are where we want them to be so hopefully everything goes as planned. Anyways i have to go buh bye!
Well i have some more stuff to bitch about. I hate it when guys don't trust you when you are going out with them. I mean They just ASSUME everything! it's the worse.. It doesn't show that you trust a person very much. It kinda makes the relationship real stressful. And makes people unhappy. And you can't make people feel guilty to stay with you. I mean it's pretty pathetic if you ask me. That's all i have to say about it
Another thing is when a person thinks they know everything and says that everyone in the town hates you or uses you. I mean as tash says Stop talking about your own life. I mean i am not hated by everyone. Or USED by everyone cuz i mean not everyone uses ppl like a un identifiable person. No names going to be mentioned. But i mean that's all she knows how to do is use ppl. ANd i pity them. The people she uses! I was used for 7 years by this perspn. But i set my self free!
I just want to say a few things tonight. Tash i read your thoughts and well just to let you know I AM VERY PROUD OF YOU!! I know what you've been through the past year, and i know how much you've changed! Your mother should be Proud of you too! As i think she is.. And you are on the right track with your life! There will alway be pressure there. If you ever need someone to talk to, you know you can tell me no matter what i'm alway here for you! BEST FRIENDS FORVER
First of i want to say to Tash, i'm sorry. you know what i'm talking about. And i understand where you come from.. and i shouldn't have done that.. SORRY
Man why do people drink to much, so much that they can't handle. I mean some people know how to drink and some people just don;t And then they lash out and get angry with no reason at all. and they say things that hurt people. Then there excuse is.. i was drunk. i mean i think drinking brings out what you truley think about someone. Cuz you have no control over what you say.. it doesn't mean it's not the truth. i believe your more truthful when you are drunk cuz the booze relaxes you and you don't really care about what you say.. Wel it hurts so think before you speak whther your drunk or not.. what you say can change the way someone thinks about you forever.
Being secure and trusting someone is something you need in a relationship. Not just a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship. But in any relationship. If your not secure with yourself then no one will be secure with you. They'll always feel as tho something is wrong. And if you can't trust the person then what's the point of being friends with the person or bf/gf cuz you'll never beable to do things without them with out constantly questioning them. I mean if they can't go out of town of vacation without you assuming things are happening then you'll ruin the realtionship. with no one to blame but yourself. And when it's too late Sorry doesn't make up for what you've done.
The other night me and tash went up town and met up with a bunch of her other friends. i felt so out of place. not that i don't like any of them I get along with them fine. They are all nice people. i just feel out of place. i mean tash gets along with them fine and all. but i get the feeling that i'm not wanted around. It might be just me but i get the feeling when were with them. I know i'm not part of their little click that doesn't bother me too much. It has nothing to do with tash cuz she makes sure i'm included in some ways. But hey maybe its in my mind. but you never know.
maybe i feel insecure about what people think of me and who i trust.. But i don't blame that on me. I blame that on friends turning around and backstabbing me. i mean it wasn't me that did wrong it was them that hurt me. I know that it takes a long time for me to really trust anyone i talk to. So you know if i talk to you about stuff that is serious i really trust them. I mean i've been hurt by two people in the past year and i have become weary on who i trust. Trust has become really big with me. If i feel as tho i can't trust you i don' want nothing to do with you! I want to be able to trust my friends. and right now there are only a few i do. Tash especailly and Sylvia as well i mean i can talk to the two of them about everything. And i appreaciate that so much. It takes a lot to be a true friend and they have the quailities.
Early last week i recieved a letter from a friend that i hadn't heard from in 5 years! I was so surprised cuz wasn't 2 weeks before i was talking to my mom about her! And I was talking to her tonight on the phone! Hey Vanessa!!! It was great talking to her about old times and old friends. I mean we started school together in Greenwood Nova scotia spent 4 years together there and then 2 and a half here. It's great!!! Great memories!
now i am going to bitch. i got one question for everyone.. IS THERE SUCH THING AS TOO MUCH FAMILY?? i mean i love my family and all but they are driving me nuts. i mean my brother and sister are moved out. But I see them ALL THE TIME. My sister and he fiance is living with us now and so is there little girl. I mean it's only for a week until they move out to st john'. But still i mean we have company constently and well it doesn't help when my brother and them are always here too. No matter what. I mean i wake up and he's here until 8 sometimes 10 at night. it's driving me nuts. I have no space to myself. cuz i'm always kicked out of my room cuz of company> i mean i don't have anywhere i can go and be by myself. Cuz my little nieces are alway following i mean it's alright sometimes. But i need time to myself. My parents and them are saying
that i am being bitchy all the time. If the company keeps up and i have no space to myself. I'm going to more then bitchy. I'm going to kill someone. My room is my haven from the world, ANd i don't feel like it's my room any more. Cuz someone else is always in it. IT'S MY ROOM!! Not theirs. there is a spare room with a bed big enought for 2 in it. BUT I GET STUCK IN IT. Not the compay ME! AND I AM FUCKING SICK OF IT! I WANT MY BED!! ahh.. I'm going to go Crazy! I'm serious. I mean i don't mind company but we've had company for almost a month straight. That means I HAVE BEEN IN ANOTHER BED FOR A MONTH! okay.. I know i'm losing it. But there is only so far you can push a person before they start to get annoyed with it. I mean i love my brother but he has his family in which he should spend time with. Not always being here with us. ON MY COMPUTER
It's gotten so bad i have to give him a time limit on him when he is on the computer. I mean it's horrible. I think i see more of him then his wife do. Or actually i should say my computer see's more of him then anyone. He's need to get his own computer so i can get rid of him. He's driving me crazy too!! EVERYONE IN THIS FAMILY IS DRIVING ME NUTS! Even my parents.. they nag me too much and i need to get away, But the problem with that is I DO NOT HAVE ANYWHERE I CAN GO CUZ I HAVE NO MONEY! LIFE JUST SUCKS!!!!!!
My family know how to throw weddings! I went to my Cousin Trevor and his now wife Melinda's Wedding. I had a real good time. One of the best times i've had in a long time! THANKS FOR INVITING ME! ANd CONGRATS to them!
This weekend really got me thinking. I got an offer that i am really considering. My cousin Trevor mentioned that i could probably get a job working at a Call center in Fredricton and that i could go stay with him and his wife. I mean i am really considering it cuz i hate it here in gander so much. It would be a change of scenery and i know i need it. I mean even if i only go out there for a few years. How can you pass up a job paying $9 a hour plus bonus! I mean It is a good opertunity! It'll be a big change for me! But that's what i need.
My sister has finally totally moved away. she has moved out to st. john's. It's going to be so hard to adjust to not having her around here. I mean i may bitch sometimes cuz i get sick of family. But not only was she my sister but my best friend. Someone for me to talk to. And today i feel as though i lost that somewhat. I know she's always just a phone call away and a 3 and a half hours drive away. But it's going to be different not being able to go over htere when i need to talk to her. I know i still have Tash, Sylvia and Robbie to talk to. But it's not my sister. I mean i could go over there whenever me and my parents got into a fight. It's kinda hard to go over to there house when they all live far away. I wish i had a friend that was close enough to go see at times. It really hasn't hit me yet that she's left! I know she needs to get away from here just as much as I do! But still i know when it does finally hit me, i am going to cry. I miss her so much already! And she hasn't been gone a night yet! I probably sound silly! BUT I MISS MY SIS!! and well i miss my niece too!!
It's been a long time since i wrote anything on this page. I really haven't had anything to say. I still don't really. (Anyone who knows me, is probably in shock with that) Me with nothing to say is a rare thing. I do have one thing to bitch about. Why do parents love using a guilt trip to make you do stuff around the house. Saying stuff like We pay the bills and put the food on the table and if it wasn't for us you wouldn't have the internet cuz we pay the bill for it. My mother did that the other day. Just because i wasn't feeling well and didn't want to put out the laundry for her. I mean i had already tidy the house up, clean the bathrooms, and vacumed and stuff and all she could do it bitch at me. She even pretended to be crying. Trust me she wasn't cuz i went up stairs and she was on the phone 2 minutes later. I couldn't believe it. As of thursday this week she wont have to worry about paying for my internet cuz when i get my check i am giving her money for it. she wont be making me feel guilty again. The countdown is on untill my parents go away! ahh i can't wait. I get time to myself and spend time with some of my family without them around.
Man life is going great. Well mostly. I am always on the go now. that's why i never have time to update as much as i use to.. i got some new pictures i got to scan but i wontbe doing that until later this week cuz i am reformating my computer again. I hate this damn thing.. LOL it so weird when i reformatt it.. ahh.. LOL i should just get plain old windows 98 for it... LOL I got the new icq. 2000b.. it's cool. i like it.. no problems with it here.. not yet anyways.. my parents are gone a fair bit so i get some time to breathe it's so nice. robbie and trav have been comin in to see me once a week.. lately anyways.. it's good.. i love them both to death!! I've been spending time with crystal crane. she's my cousin. we use to hang together all the time it's just nice now.. i mean it's been a while and we've been catching up!! i had a party last week.. didn't get drunk tho.. i dunno.. i enjoy myself more when i am sober.. Oh no i'm not turning into a goody goody!! LOL I miss tash incrediable even tho we dissagree on somethings.. but that's normal.. she's just looking out for me. and i totally under.. and love her for it. anywasy ithink i have made up a bit. so talk to u guys soon.. bye bye
Well I am on a good luck streak. Somewhat anyways. I went to bingo with my mom tonight she wanted to do the whole "GIRLS NIGHT OUT" thingy just the two of us. so we went to bingo. She paid! And i won! $37.50 HEe hee hee. But on top of that i meet a bunch of new ppl. We've been going to the clubs as well. Lee, Kev, Geoff, Andrew, Ian and them are all great guys! They keep me laughing! and dancing down at the bar!
well my parents are leaving me again this weekend. They are going to my sisters for thanksgiving weekend. and leaving me the house to myself. It's okay hopefully the by's will come and visit again this weekend. Robbie and Trav have come in twice. I don't know if i will be having a party or not. DOn't know much anymore. I might be working still not sure on that either. I got a job at REITMANS i have no clue when i start. and tomorrow i have a job interview for Bently's tomorrow. I don't know if i want 2 part time jobs. but ahh well we'll see. I'll let ya all know how it goes. Doubt anyone cares! Peace!
Well i am finally putting stuff up on this page again! I am sorry for neglecting everything. I am going to make time for thsi now! actually. i did have time late at night when i was on here to add stuff.. i guess that's what i'll be doing from now.. so tash don't murder me!! LOL And i'm sorry tash if it seems like i've neglected our friendship. But our timing has been totally off.. I'm always out with someone.. on the go staying away from home as much as possible. Hanging out with a bunch of new ppl.. Well i spend mondays with steve.. wrestling is our thing to watch!! Then other than that.i hangs out with Crystal, Jade, Lee, Geoff, Kevin, Ian, Theresa, will and Vaden all at different times.. but hey! PARTY! oh and Amanda and Christine are there too! can't forget them! I loves them all to pieceshee hee hee. I love dancing. i go every thursday night.. so tash no good to even try to get a hold of me on thursday's cuz i am not going to be home! unless i am sick! ha ha.. right! Things have been pretty good for the most part. Well except for at home.. they tend to get a bit stressful! ha ha oh well that's why i stays away!! LOL anyways i have to go talk to you all later! I will try to update more regularly!! bye bye!!
Hey all! Well it's been a while since i put anything on here. Well i guess it hasn't been that long. Not like before. I am still working at Reitmans. But one thing has changed I'm extremely happy! Due to one person! His Name is Justin! He has become and addition to my life that i am glad happened. Even tho he is in Halifax until the 15th. I can't wait for him to get home. I miss Him like crazy. Other then that there ain't much new. I've added stuff to the page.. well to the pictures.. i'll be adding more as the time goes on! Miss u JD and talk to you all later!
Hello everyone. I am sorry i don't update the page all the time. But i can't.. I don't have the time to not like i use to. It was a lot easier for me when i was going to school. But now i have to make a living to survive. I have to decide whether or not i am going ot school in the fall.. i now have a boyfriend. I love him to death! I am going to be looking for work again now.. and well my sister is getting married in may so i have to help her with the plans for that and i am the maid of honour so i have to plan the bridal shower and stagette. So i am a little busy with things.
And tash don't worry i am not changing the page at all.. I haven't got time to.. Anyways i have to go talk to you all later! Love you Justin!!