april 26th 2001
Whoa baby.. heh wani added this fer me, i'm seeing joey now,, hehe yea,, suga bear.. i'm a little confused about boys these days,, lol.. to think everyone came to me fer advice but i can never give it to myself.
i'm not going to college this year, i got accepted ,, but a year off would be fun,, i guess, i can werk my ass off to move to NF lol..umm i gtgto my tanning session.. tash
it;s may 13th wholey shit thi syear is fast man, ok, whats new with me??? umm it was 6 weeks with me and joey yesterday.. hehe i was talking to Meag andWani today which make sme even happier,,YAY i am loved, umm what else,, ... i miss wani,, hehe and yes u neglect me, but hey, i'm not doing so great either,, so it;s both our bad, but we got alot of shit going on here, so y akno.. we'll be fine soon,, yay.. um what else...Graduation yay,, um band show at GBHS the 30th,,,,,,my hair is going pink soon, hehe yay.. u ganderettes will love it,, i always bring some umph back into that boring old blah town don't i,, lol.. ok i better go talk to wani again on icq,,
oh my god i am a slut, i am so sad, how could someone think i am a slut, i have no idea,, well think of it this way... I NEVER FUCKED U!!!!!!! hashahahahaha nor did i touch u... Ewwwwwwwww
TaSh
May 16th 2oo1
Whoaaaaa baby.. whats new.. hum i'm happy,, very very happy.. got a bruized hand but hey i am happy,, i get rid of an asshole... ack oh my god not asshole,, but i got a great bf (joey) and a great friend(mike) and a great bestfriend (my bug innis) hehe and i got the bestest friends in the world in Nf yes that means u wani and every one else.. hehe.. so what do i have to bitch about? hummm assholes? naw,,, altho it would be amusing..
tell me.. if i walked into school and held a gun up to my head and said " isn't this amusing" then i held it up to yers," no this is more amusing.. but lets see do i kill myself to make u happy or kill u to make me happy?" what a tuff question or maybe i'll make us both happy.. but like i am i come first.... so i'll kill u to make me happy, then kill myself.. what a way to go out eh, tell me will u be laughing when u hear the clicks of the triger.. when i pull back on it,, when u realize this isn't all fun and games.. maybe i am crazy ,, maybe i just need to laugh.. maybe i need some amusement in my life and i get it thru u... are u going to laugh when your life is in my hands are u going to be amused when i laugh.. what are u going to think when u hear the bang,, smell the gun powder and feel nothing, yet seeing yerslef fall slowing to the ground..from above,, maybe thats scary to think about maybe it's funny to read tho,, maybe it'll be a little different when it happens.. dont think i got the guts, don't think i have the nerve.. think again,, i need some amusement too
may 17th 2oo1
as the nights get colder and yer lying in yer bed tell me what do u think about, is it your love is it yer dreams is it yer family, do u ever concider what other people are feeling when u walk past them in the hall ways the mall or down the street, do u ever stop to think that in this entire world u have it a bit better then everyone else, altho u may not have the money or the clothes or the big house, u may have someone that just loves u. or a friend who is always there or food on the table, do u ever concider giving it all up, what ever u have to just be someone else fer one day, just to have the experience of their life to be in their mind to walk in their shoes to kno how they feel... sometimes i think i may not be werth much,, but then i sit back and thin kabout all that i have, i have so much, it may not be material things or possessions, but i hav efeelings and i have a warm heart, altho many tend to think that i don't. i have so many friends all over the world, so many of them that would die for me an dthat i'd die for, i have family, some that i kno some that i don't some that i don't wanna kno,, but when it comes down it it, i have them. I have people i can talk to, i am some that ppl can talk to, i am who i am, i am a woman of many faces yet under neath each one lies the same heart and teh same skin and the same creature that a higher power created. From birth i was born innocent i was innocent to the worlds faults, but lik eeveryone else i learn them, i learn from them an di grow to understand them, not all but some, i grow to realize that every human being and creature has faults such as this creation of earth does. i may not have earthquakes but i do have times when my life gets shaken up, i may not have volcanoes but sometimes my life will erupt and i release what is bottled up inside. i May not notice when i harm someone else, maybe that makes me ignorant to society, mayb eit makes me human, when u lay in yer bed at night are u happy with what u did during your time,do u feel happy and satisfied that u made a difference in some ones life? do u understand that if u are lucky enuf to wak eup the next moring and be alive that it is a blessing,, do u kno that u are a blessing?
Aug 7th 2001.
i'm here in gander hehe been here fer a month and a few days,, lol, been with wani a bit but she has been werking and spending time with her bf. alopt of shit has been going on.. and alot of things need to be werked out i suppose, but in time it will all happen to werk out just fine.
Not too much has changed here in gander,, and i dunno if things ever will, well, only people seem to, They tend to lose their morals and their respect for themselves and for other.. they get so caught up in themselves that other ppls feeling never seem to matter. well news flash, i can't stand that BS.
maybe some ppl expect too much from ppl ,, well i'll tell u what u will get from me, the best friend u could ever have, a person who will love u, a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen and a person who will be there for u and help u out when ever u need it most.. and all i ask in return is the same. Hell maybe i ask too much
aug 25 2001
Sept 20 2001
Heyyyy i'm here at sarah's,, how is everyone,, my way is grrreat :) I'm goin out with Rob, hanging with Sarah every day pretty much and Patty too,, lol. i got a great new set of friends. they are the best.. Meghan is still suppose to come down in Oct. i want her to meet rob anf all of them and see the band jam.. hehe. i'm happy with how my life is going now.. i realized what really is important and what isn't and who is worth my time, it's sad to think that maybe i waisted someof my years on ppl, but then i think about that at that time i loved those ppl with all my heart, may be we grew apart or maybe some of us grew up and others didn't,, nothing is anyones fault, unless they never tried,, and i always make it a point t o try.
well ladies and gental men.. how the hell are ya.. me okey dokey i guess,,, things are pretty much the same,, teh same ppl are fucke dup, teh same ppl think they are all that and the same ppl that i love are well.. somehow in my life,, wether i want them to or not!!
i've also came to the conclusion: ppl who try to change themselves for others get hurt, those who try to change the past with the future hurt others. it's funny but it's true. this is life and it has a plan,, u can change the path or u can let things slide, go fer what u want but accept the conciquences and kno when enuf is enuf.. in time things will werk out,, each problem just makes u stronger for the next. it's all a great plan, it's all about finding who u are.. it's all about loveing yourself.. an dletting other love u too.
things my way are well, okey i guess.. innis' birthday was thursday and matts was friday.. happy 18 guys lol.. just turning 18!!! ACK. i dunno what else.. i'll see later on,, ttyl,, i'm gonna get wani to do some shit soon!!!! grrr
I'm still planning on moving to halifax with sarah and Meg. it'll be fun. Rob will be living with us on weekends which means pat will be too. lol.. cuz they are gonna be in shelbourn fer music school thingy. lol.. well i'll be close to him. I honestly believe this one will last. i mean we are both trying, got great freinds who want it to werk and help us out. ecpecially sarah. when i am mad at rob i look to her to bitch. lol.. she sets my head straight, altho i wanna scream at him lol.. hahaha.. i still do mind u.. haha He's my creep, I love him to death.
I'm not in school this year. i'm trying to find a job with the new call center, so far so good. i'm hoping sarah gets on with me too.. lol.. so that i kno soemone to go on coffee breaks with,, lol.. they just can't sit us next to each other cuz we'll talk too much.
congrats to Chelsea fer getting her drivers licience.. and Rob i wish u luck this weekend on yer GED i kno u'll get it,, ur a smart cookie and i love u
later peeps
~*~TaSh LoVeS RoB~*~
sept 29 2001
well yesterday me and rob had our 1 month :) and i was in the hospital,, sick as a dog ,, icky. Every one is watching movies here ar sarah's.. everyone being patty, sarahm bill and rob,, lol.. and my self of course,, saving private ryan is on, i didn't wanna see it so i am on here,, we watched snatch,, i recomend it to anyone,, it;s a great movie,, i loved it, the guys picked it out, i was impressed.
what else.. meg can't come down fer thanksgiving,, thats sad,, i wanted her to come to gobblegobble fest with me and sarah and innis to see the guys play. but she;ll have to wait till she cancome down i guess,, i realy miss her,, :( I MISS U LIL SIS!!!
i'm waiting fer a call from stream to start my job,,lol.. but they are so slow on hiring ppl that i applied to EDS. hopefully jeff is gonna get me the job lol.. i need the cash haha, it;s 5 days a week, all night shifts tho,, but hopefully i'll get days after ive been there a while.. untill then money and surviving is more important.
Me and innis ahve plans fer sunday,, last week we had fun :) i miss hanging wif her,, but she doesn't get along well with rob and she's with my ex joey all the time,, so i made new friends with sarah and them and she got my ex, his little woman.. hahaha gag me,, and linzy - who seems alright,, so i guess it;s god we find time fer each other,, it's great, it was a great friendship, i'mnot gonna lose it! i've been talking to ANge too., she dumped the rest of the loser crowd which is good, i'm glad me and her are talking again,, me and her were good friends,, well i was good to her and she was to me,, until she listened to the wrong ppl.. now loook at them,, they have no one,, so ya kno, it's all a lesson.. well i better jet now,, wrote enuf,, Wani yer letter is on it's way :)
Tash Loves Rob
OcT 9 2001
I LOVE ROBERT JUSTIN KELLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just thought i would share how much i love this guy with everyone who reads this page.. hes become the greatest thing in my life to happen to me. he's every wish and every dream and everything i ever wanted in one great guy.. one great smile.. many beautiful kisses,, and one mighty fine ass lol :), i want u to kno that you are my world and as much as we fight i couldn't live with out u. u are a part of me and u will always be and will forever be. xoxox
xoxoTashxoxo
Oct 12 2001
sit back and think really hard about all the people who hurt u and who u hurt,, was it worth losing them over nothing that means shit all now? can u even remember why u hate them, not talking to them or why u aren't friends anymore.. think if it was possiable u'd do things soo differently so that these ppl would still be part of yer life to this very day and longer?? Actully let the tears fall when u concider what u have lost and tell me if it was worth what u had supposeably have gained. I think i lost one of the ppl who i cared most about over a stupis figh that happened during ruff times.. and everything reminds me of that person and what we used to have. how we used to be part of each others lives and how we ment so much to each other that we shared the same dreams. those dreams are shattared, the life i had created in my mind evolved around these dreams with these ppl. now i am lost in a world that seems to have no reason for it's creation and i wonder what i am to do. I have been sent a great gift and he knows that he is a gift to me. and i wish that someone else knew how much of a gift they were to me,, a gift i treasured with my life and some how i lost it and let in get caught in a fire that seemed to have burned it... but not beyond repair if only it was felt back,, so much simpler it would be.. remember thoese specail times.. i do.. it's friendship week and i miss my bestfriends.. no matter what had happened u were and always will be.. the people who made my heart beat, my smile shine and my love for ppl we able to be shown in ways i have never known of a friend,, i love u and i miss u,, maybe u;l read this and understand maybe u;ll read it and not care, perhaps u will never see this at all.. and i am left remembering those pll i have lost.
job searhing sleepin and being with the gang is my life now.. lol. me and sarah plan on havin a double date with rob and david soon.. that will be fun haha.. sunday night sarah and lori go to NS and i;m gonna spend some time with rob.. we never have time with just us.. maybe thats why we have out stupid little fights so much. I honstly believe this one is finially the one, the one guy who makes me so complete and who i love so much that words coulding express what he truly is in my eyes,, maybe someday he'll understand. Wani and Justin are doing great and i am so hapy for them,. she desurves a great guy and he is one from what i knofrom meeting him over the summer. good luck guys and see u soon,,:)
Natasha Adell Gilley
Truley Loves
Robert Justin Kelly
ps yes wani I AM IN LOVE lol...
Dec 8th 2001
I went and got a new peircing.. which is my nipple and i got a new tattoo.. it's satan's dragon.. it's part 1 of 3.. it's gonna be awesome.. rob and the gang love it.. he was scared at first when i told him what it was and everything,, lol.. but he likes it alot.. my nipple kills.. i wanna take it out in a way.. but rob won't let me,, he said i bitched at him and wined too much when i got it done to just take it out and be ok,, lol... what a frea :)..
I got most of my xmas shoppin done.. i got pretty much all of rob's done. i'm happy about that i still ahve to finish getting Sarah her gift and get Innis' gift. lol. it's all coming together so well.. YAY.. i hate xmas but at least i get to spend it with ppl i love.
Rob has been spending teh nite at my place once a week.. just thrusday he had a job interview at my work,, and teh 22nd the band is playing at stoked for the holidays.. go to www.cblocals.com for more info about the show.. Rob's spending xmas day with me and my mum and grandparents and spending the nite,, perhaps boxing day nite also.. that would be really great.. I don't think i could explain how happy this guy makes me..
so if you ever wonder if u will find theone.. or if u could ever be so happy.. think in teh back of your mind that u have to let yourself be at ease and that one will be found so quickly.. within days of returning from NF i met rob.. and my life has changed so much for the better,, good things come when u don't expect it.. and it's teh greatest feeling in the world.. i couldn't think of anything better... it's as great as knowing u have the bestest friends in the world who would do anything for u and that u would do anything in the world for...My life is waking up... i smell the love
Natasha Loves Robert
Dec 9th
Here i am at werk.. lol... i dunno how i am likeing teh job its self.. but i love the people.. teh ppl i am around are great.. there;s derek, SPink, tammy, Rachelle,connor and so many other.. not to mention Ma - aka shirly and Trish and Sherry -- AKA the PING sisters haha with myself included :)
The pay is really great.. I am goin Xmas shoppin again on the 21st with Connor..we are gonna go get the last of our stuff b4 werk,, so thats another early morning hahaha.. ohhhhhhh boy... But it'll be fun... I keep changing my mind on the last thing to get rob.. lol.. he won't tell me what he got me.. and it makes me angry.. lol.. but he's so proud of himself that he got this gift that he's so sure i am gonna love,., so on Xmas day.. me and him will exchange gifts... this is gonna be a great xmas.. i kno it, i just got this great feeling...:) and I love this feeling :) hehe
well my break is in 5 minutes.. and i'll probably get a call.. but oh well... i'm going to AnW fer supper... i get an hour lunch .. lol.. i hope connor gets to take his a half hour late so that well have company.. OK, i Must go.,.. lol.. gonna take my break now instead.. b4 i get a call.. lol.. Later Taters
it's christmas day.... DEC 24TH 2001
so guys guess what.. rob got me a ring lol.. white gold with diamons around a heart.. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww... i didn't kno what to say,. i didn't wanna stop givin him kisses.. my mum thinks he is so sweet and my nan said that if she was 55 years younger then i'd have compotition hahah how cute is that.. Rob's familly got me new PJ's... and My mum got me a cam corder, my dad and joanie got me a new cordless fone.. other things i got.. a cd from BUG... the new matthew good cd.. i got toe sox and gel pens and a venus and tapes and makeup and a toe ring and a candel and nail polishes and sweaters and money and stuff i can't remember.. rob also got me pink power puff girls scarff and mittens hehehe.... i was gonna by them one day me and bug were in the mall,, but i was like,, pay day,, then i spent all my money on a new jacket and pants and everything.. i am at werk right now.. getting 20 some dollars an hour haha.. and i werk 8 hours a day haha.. ohh yea baby.. i only get one dayy off this week.. so that means i get to fix up the day that i didn't go to werk.. and i went home sick,, so thats awesome,,
right now rob is at my house.. hehe.. i dunno what he;s doin,, probably snoopin in my messy room or sleepin or watching a movie that i got him for his bday hahah i got him snatch and fight club.. heheh... me and bug tried to watch fight club,, but i dunno i think we were to tired to get into it haha,,, so we got bored and went to bed,, snatch rob got me to watch and that was awesome.. hehe.. well i better get goin,, i hope everyone had a good christmas.. Rob made mine the best ever.. hopefully christopher will be home next xmas and him and mum will be good.. and maybe me and rob can go to my dads. hehe well i better go.. connor is here to visit me on my break,, caio
Tash Loves Rob
Jan 11th 2002
Hey everybody... (hey dr nick) hehe, it just pops into my head, i am at work right now.. not too busy which is nice, me and rob are still together,, i kno yer all happy to hear that, hehe. it's as if we are married,, so new years is over.. and we are still strong.. even tho i busted Goats lip open hehe.,. but thats all over now.. haha. he's ok lol..Innis is now with chad,, which is awesome.. she's happy so i am happy for her, me and her are gonna hang out on my lunch today hehe. yay..
Yea, rob is now werking here at stream,, not with me but on another contract. hehe.. so we still getto see each other.. not often cuz he's in training in the mornings and i werk in the evenings.. so thats sad :( i got to see him today for about 15 mins.. lol.. and he was grumpy lol.. whtas new.. he was up at 5 am,, i don't blame him haha.. derek and tammy aren't at werk today, innis is now working at MACS video,, which is awesome for her,. not alot of cash but enuf to pay teh car bill and gas money.
umm me and mum are getting our belly button's peirced on the 18th lol.. i was gonna get my other dragon tatto. but i decided to wait a month.. cuz mum says i'll regret it cuz they are so big, but i got one now.. whats the diff of 2 or 3 and 4,, lol.. i wanna get it. so just a month more to wait and i'll have part of my back done yay!!!! it's costing me a fortune.. lol.. oh well.. lol.. what can ya do.. if ya wanna be a walking peice of art ur gonna have to have sacrafices hehe..
it's Debbie's birthday todya,, and we just sang happy birthday to her,, hehe they got her a cake and a little gift hehe.. how sweet is that, i have awesome ppl on my team, hehe.. som eof us got split up after the shift bid, but i got most of em back and some new ones.. Rach is still beside me and Connor and i are room mates hehe.. Gilbert is behind me,, in whipping distance.. lol
well.. i am planing on going to ST John;s soon as possiable as a surprise to meag and sue and the girls there.. Sandie wants me to go visit her in Halifax,, she's goin to school there now,, so thats another road trip i'm gonna take up.. i'll get the bus down and stuff.. hehe.. i'll fix that all up soon,, hopefully i'll go see her in a month or 2,, hehe.. well thats all for now that i can think of, i'll write more soon,, i also got a new email addy if anyone wants it.. its my msn messanger buddies email too it's punkrck_pronqueen@hotmail.com..
i'm outtie.. later taters..
Tash Loves Rob
Feb 8th 2002
Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy everyone.. guess what... i'm almost at the 6 month mark heheh in 20 days it will be.. heheh. congrats to me and rob... i finially found DA ONE! hehehe.. after all this time.. after all the heart ache after all the mistakes and after all the trying.. it just came so easliy this time and feels so right.... ahhhhhhhhhh the sweet taste of victory , that feeling of success that makes your heart race... but in fact its the sweet taste of your loved one;s lip and the way they make your heart race that makes your life whole... My gawd i'm now a mush ball.. hahah
i have 2 hours and 20 mins left to werk.. oh joy,, lol.. Party at innis;s house sat,, hah i'm off at 1am so thats not really a party fer me.. hahah get there get pj's on go to bed hahaha.. oh boy.. me and mum and bug are getting tattoo's on monday the 18th.. lol.. not the first fer me and mum,, this will be mine and mum's 3rd tattoo together and mine and bug's first.. the 3 of us went and got out navels peirced about a month ago heheh.. that was funny.. us all sore., unable to move hahaha ohh it was gold..
V day is comin up.. i already gave rob his gift, i suck at keepin secreats or anything of the sort hahah so i gave it to him early, i think he's getting me a ring,,, again.. lol.. altho all i want is a stuffed animal. heheh i'm very simple to please.. i don't ask fer much... hahahaha.. some would disagree to that one eh,,
i actully don't think many ppl even read this page anymore.. lol.. but i keep writing on it.. i dunno,, become a habit.. lol.. wani seems to have forgotten about it,, so i think everyone else has too,, ohh well, maybe we;ll do somthing new to it to spicen it up a little.. i hav etonnes of pix to scann i just have to find time when i am not werking to scann them.. maybe if i'm not toolazy i'll do it tomorrow.. hahah maybe.. all depends..
well gilbert wants me to write him love notes hahaha.. and i'm waiting fer calvin's email.. rowr he's in trouble.. lol.. The security guards downstairs love me hahaha... one picks on me about my pink powerpuff girls mitten.. hahah AJ bugs me cuz i keep walking into doors haha.. we have a new red button that opens up the doors.. i keep forgetting it.. hahaha
well i am off now,, haha ,,, ttfn,,,, if ya do read this page.. email us or leave a message in the guest book on some new idea's fer the page and we;ll make it a bit more lively!!
Peace love and happiness
march 12 2002
i think this page is filling up also.. well some news that i don't think anyone exprected to hear.. Me and joey are back tobeing friends again, After all thats been said and all thats happened, everything back to normal.. lol
Me and Rob are together, still kickin it, altho we hit our many bumps and pot holes,, we get the grader and fill em in,, only to cause another pot hole when it rains,, lol.. ohh well.. we're both happy.. i hope so anyways,, hehe,, still lovin him.. Nothing else is new this way ,., at least i don't think so,, I got an email from Meg my li l sis. heh how i do miss her.. she's out in Ont doing art work for a few months, i am so proud of her,, so so artistic,, i wish i was in gander so i coulda applied to do it also.. it woulda been so much fun!!
i am still at werk,, i got a new job within my deparment,, wich is good,, more money. yay!! more shopping!! hehehe well i nee dto get stuff for the house when i move out,, yay!
me and sarah are getting our nails done on friday and then going out fer supper and to a fantisia party held by a friend at werk, me tammy sherry sarah are gona go to that together,, it's gonna be a rush,, hehe.. i think me and CA are gonna go fer coffee on sat nite,hopefully innis will be off to join us and sat morning me and mum have plans.. hehe. yay! mother daughter bonding hehe.. i need to make a new tattoo appointment too, lol.. i now have fri and sat off and i have a new hour shift too which is 11 am till 8 pm,, which is really good,, day time,, i can now hav ea life!! Whoopie!!
well i better go,, i gotta think of some stuff to add on here.. i will soon, hehe it needs to be changed around so bad,, lol..
Tash Loves Rob