Toughts

this is tash, an dthis is where i rant and rave about things that tend to piss me off or that are just on my mind. right now,, males,, they are soooo insensitive to a females feelings. I mean why do they say things to hurt u,, on purpose, i mean why?? why tell us u love us , then say it ment nothing the next day in a nast e-mail or phone conversation?? How stupid is that?.

What else is pissing me off or on my mind,, lets see,,,PPl who just bug me!! and PPL who judge me! Ahh there is a piss off. I mean so what i have a few pericings, and i like them, Who care smy friends might act a little weird or dress differently?? i mean individualty is the way to be, it should be praised rather than shun apon. if it wasn't for ppl doing something different than the world would be boring. So next time some one walks by and looks different or acts different or has a different view on life than u an dhow to live it, just smile and say hi, because with out them,, u'd be as boring as hell, like u probably already are!

Why do things have to hurt u soo bad, next time my heart hurts i'm gonn afreak,, and like,, well,, be alone for like ever. I don't think i can take it any more, jeff don't wanna hear about him,, i dunno why, i don't care about her,, so y aknow,, last nite he was at her place.. it upset me,, but if nothing happened that what can i say?? Daniel says i have trust issues,, i guess after what i have been through i hav e areason to hav ethem, i mean come on,, I trust too much and get burned,, so now u gotta earn my trust,, no 2 chances any more,, fuck that shit! Trust is such a major factor,, it's biggie,, well at least for me, i want pll to trust me so i think i should be able to trust them. I dunno what els eto bitch about, but i'm tired of fucking hurting so much!!! i'm tired as hell... But hey what can i do about it??

Daniel is now my theripist, heehee and he' sfree and helps me mor ein a half hour of talking than all my sessions with my real theripist!! heehee man i never new how much i put other s b4 me,,, and i now get this whole friend love thing, man daniel ur good,, heehee,, well u know what u should do 4 a living,, man u scare me sometimes.. heehee umm ya,, leaving my mum for NF is bugging me, she doesn't wanna be left alone, but i wanan see my dad and my friends,, god,, what am i to do?? well,, i guess i have a messed up life,,, it's kinda like a soap opra, hweehee,, well ya all know i'm interesting,, love triangle heehe god,, and maybe i am boy crazy,, so what, who cares, if i was crazy over girls you'd be freaking, other things about ppl ar epissing m eoff sooooo bad,, lol,, i shouldn't be laughing but why not?? oh well,,, i guess that sit, bye,, newfoundland here i come,, PARTY

ok, so what i write on here every one takes it to heart, i can't joke or write what i'm thinking eh,, so look,, love triangle was an inside joke,, don't jump down my throat about it, GOD!! i mean hello,, this is my life,, my e-mails are my business, no one elses' unless i say it's ok,, now, i'm pissed off, i mean always thinking there's someone else, some one is paranoid and shouldn't be,, i'm not keeping any ex's close are being friends or nothing like that, i hate her still u know that ,, but u don't care,, so don't freak on me when me and ryan still talk and that! or any other guy thats my friend...man,,,,, somethings that piss me off.

well i'm in newfounland , at wanda's house, we're such best friends,, one week and 2 days and we're not sick of each other yet, i love her to death, i dunno what i'd do with out her,,, BEST FRIENDS ALWAYS.. , man,, the fire works were great too,,, gander day has a new meaning now,, ya know,, it's more about friends and injoying the moment while it lasts. i never new how many friends i had here,,, tonnes,, mor ethan i thought, i mean,, i come home and my first night half of town was giving me hugs!!

it's raining out and thats a piss off,, man,, alot of things are piss offs! Males are the major problem, everything has to concern them or have something to do with them!! ahhhhhhh

Ahhhhhh, life is soo confusing, i mean i have alot on my mind and going on in my life, i constantly worry about my mother and every one else,, i guess i tend to put my needs last, and altho some ppl think i shouldn't, i don't mind it, sometimes it gets hard a fustrating, but thats the person i am, i want ppl to come to me when they need some one, i want my friends not to feel like a burden, because they are not.. I like being the helper, sometimes i can't handel it all, but i try, and if i can't,, well, i have a bad habit of letting it out,, so i can't deal with my problems,, thast ok, i can deal with others,, and i'm sorry for those who i hurt while helping others,, i really am, my mum is my main focus now,, and i don't want anything to happen to her,, she's losing her son, she won't lose me, i am all she has,, and in a way, i'm all i have,, i have me,, and i gotta learn to enjoy my self,, not in dirty ways,, i need to be free in my mind and see if i can deal with my problems for once,, and sometimes i realise that i do take on too much,, and i know i can't add to it. i'm sorry for the one thing that seemed to be the cut back or the part to be left out,, but too much is too much,, and too hard. so,, for hurting u.. sorry,, for hurting any one else,, sorry,, for my mum,, all that i did to u,, i'm sorry and i'm making it up now.. i'll be the daughter that u want me to be,, and the grand daughter that every one wants me to be, i'll be who u all want,,,, but also be me,,, so,, sorry to all,, sorry about everything, sorry about messing up, sorry for hurting ppl who didn't desurve to get hurt,, sorry for it all, all of it,, all my messed up, weird life. bye, Tash

i have one week left here,,, aw,, but hopefully i wil be back for christmas,,, i hope so,, there are ppl i wanna see,,, meag sue and meghan are coming down next summer, maybe Bobbie too, i dunno,,they said they are gonna bring jared, but mum said he wasn't getting in the house,, lol,, funny mum..... so, they are gonna come down in the van, camp out at my place then i'm gonna join them for a road trip to halifax and where ever,, then camp out at my place again then pack me up and take me here. kewl eh,,, so,, i might go to MUN now,, if i don't get into Pratt,,,,,, sue's phone is ringing,,,,,, oh oh,,,, me and steph are the only ones home,, lol,,, gtg,,,,,, put on my face.....

some one didn't come back to see me like they promised,, eh wani!!!!! lol, oh well,,,,,, what can i do?! meag and sue said shannon wante dto meet me,, so i met him last night,,,, and well,,,,,, i'm gonna miss some very special ppl here,,,,,,,,,,,and i think u all know who u are,, and who i'm talking about,,, lataz,, love u all,,,,,,,
Tash,,,,,, (TATTOO in one week and 1 day,,,,,,,, yeahHHHHHHHH)

hey peeps,, it's the 26th now of aug,, kewl e o, eh,, lol,,,, well, party at sue's,, fun.,, we played thumbs,, i'm mad at a certian person.. we all knwo who,, or u think u know who, and that means ur wrong,, don't assume,,,,,, well,, my life is confusing,,,,,, ahhhhhh i hates it..

ok, whats going on?? umm i got a tattoo,, yeah,, my mum took me to get it,, i love it,, the pain will go away eventually! so i'm back in NS,, home i guess,, miss everyone tho,, miss u wani!!

umm well two guys ar enow fighting,, i don't think they remember what it was about any more. it's now all ego and talk,, what am i gonna do? what am i supposed to do? sit back and watch teh two ppl i ever care dabout beat each other? i don't think so, so i'm not gonna take sides,, i can't it's not right in this situation. and i can't sit back and watch,, so i either jump in or talk them outta it. and talking to these moron's is useless. so what am i to do? i'm confused,, ppl say ignore them and don't talk to them again b/c the both hurt me,.. well one deny's hurting me and teh other says they would never hurt me. ahhh this soo f**king hurts! and sux!ahhhhh

ok whats the point of avoiding this page?? it's where i speak my mind. So the whole NF thing if i did see some one it's no ones business, and if i never then it' s still none of ur business. what i do with my life i smy decesion. Am i not right there. The only person telling me somewhat what i can and can not do should be my mother! and alot of ppl who think they can tell me ARE NOT MY MOTHER!! so F**k off and but out.

doubting what i say and what i do,, fine see if i care, i'm not back with him, i don't want to be,, so be surprised, be a prick like u have been lately,, u don't seem to mind using joann when no one else is around, but when u think i'm doing it to u it's all wrong!! well i'm not like u at all,, i don't use u b/c u will always be there, sorry i actully care about ppl's feelings, i don't use them. As for my friends,, some of them change words around some of them exzagerate,, big deal,,, If any one wants th etruth just ask me,, i'm sure i'll tell u bluntly,, if i don't like u , if i hate u or want to kill u, i'll be sure to tell u,, don't rely on what other ppl say whether they are my friends or not,,, get it from my mouth not theirs!!so F**ck u to u know who,, maybe it won't be worth it or may be it is,, but fighting gets no one any where. Ange said one good thing tho,, she said that some one was made b/c i dumped him,, well news flash,, i dumped ya both. so there.. may be even thinking about getting back with u was a mistake,, ur not who u used to be, hell neither am i,, but at least i'm not a user, a jealous freak, or and idiot like u can be,, so one month since ya seen me,, well,, make it more,,, till friday when u have no choice to see me b/c of school.. and trust me if i talk to u it's cuz i wanna be nice,, cuz u hav eme so pissed right now that i don't want to say anything cuz it won't be nice. some time slove is blind i tell u, and some times it hurts,

like they say,, love comes uninvited and leaves un expected.

well,, prom is june 22nd,, yeahhh year 2001. it's gonna be so cool. i can't wait, and graduation,, all this shit is here, it had me so scared, now it's here,, and i don't have time to think about it! I LOVE BATMAN!! heehee.. it's true it's true i hate that!!!!! so i'm making up my mind, i'm thinking about what i want now,, not listening to any one else,, i'm putting my shit first, no one elses ,, unless ur my best friend, so, yeah,, well., not much to say, add more lataz!!!!

it's the 17th today, me and jeff are together, but kinda fighting, it is about trust we all know it! i mean why else flip out. sure this guy was alot to me, not like you weren't, time heals all things all wombs.nothing happened or is happening, there is a diffrence between my ex and urs. a BIG diffrence!

well, lets see what else is going on, school fucking sux, i took courses i need to get into the college of my choice an di can't drop them no matter how hard they are, man look what happens when u shot big, i have a feeling i might get let down, but i guess if i start small and work on it slowly it will all come together. I have about one year until i grow up, well actully this is the year that matters! I mean my main focus should be school school mum and me,, but no, it can never be that, so much is expected of me and it's hard to keep up to standards that ar eso high, som etime si feel like i am a let down, but i dunno, i am who i am, and if u don't like me for that then i don't care.but the day that i close my eyes an dthey don't open, don't u dare say u were a friend of mine, or the day that my name is on billboards and your buying my clothes, don't say we were buddies,, cuz the chances are we weren't. i guess at thi sage u find out who is really worth your time and friend ship.i know i have. I mean this year i found out who's a bull shitter, one is a person who never talked to me all summer, said shit about me, then when we get to school it seems everything is kewl between us,, just because u have a BF that has a name u can live off of an d afew friends with name sto liv eoff of such as mine too doesn't mean ur that great, ppl still think ur weird and don't like u. nothing can change that unless u start acting like a real friend!

my brother is stil in Nf, he hasn't called in a bit, my mum is wondering why, it's as if they don't inform us on whats going on, and we have a right to know, expecially mum. It's killing her not having him here let alone them not calling and letting her know how he is and so she can talk to him. Maybe thi swill all go to court and mess up my life a hell of a lot more,, but hey isn't that what my partents always do, rip me away from what i love.

One year an di'm outt athis hell hole, i really am, mum dragge dme here against my will, but oon eyear and i won't be coming back, i'm gonna live me life to the fullest and to a high extent, so i might not be a doctor that u want m eto be or anything else, but i'm gonna be who i want to become and what i enjoy doing. whether it means i live in a small studio or with a bunch of ppl. and artist or a fashiondesigner don't start of rich and famous, these are goals to be acheived and i will achieve them, and u won't stand in my way or knock me down. I'll be what i love. i might be it alone i might be it with another, but when i am it, ur not! so laught at me now when i say what i wanna do or say goo dluck i hope u make it, either way i will. your gonna make me want to harder by putting me down or give me confidence by praising me! either way thanx!

You learn so much from ppl when u actully get to know them, not everyone gets a second chance with first impressions and maybe ppl should, expecially if u meet under the wrong sircumstances.it's not really fair, but i got to know a few ppl better, and they aren't who they want u to think they are they are nice ppl, and even trust worthy. but then again i'm unable to trust them, mainly b/c i trust first hand, until u give me a reason not to trust u, then u gotta earn it, in this case trust needs to be earned both ways, and that might take time, or it might not happen or it will suddenly, but how ever it happens.. thats all fo rnow, think i wrot enuf to catch up on my days that i never wrote in here,Tash

ok, so there is a roumer in the dorms about me and 2 other ppl stripping next friday.. NO WAY!! lol, i don't think so..so don't show up expecting a show! Ya what else is going on,, umm, ya the guys are cool,, matt, shawn,cory and some other dude.. lol" hey man it' s ur mom" lol..haha.Ya so.. They are pretty cool, and will be dead if they said that shit!

tonight was a weird night,, really,, me and ryan haven't gotten along taht well, since we started dating back in febuary,, pillow fights,, and water fights in the house.. lol.. it was funny.. i hate to be tickled to AND HE KNOWS IT what else,, ya,, someone aske dme out for saturday,, i dunno why i sai dyes,, he's nice and all,, but i don't think my type, but hey,, nothing wring with a bit of change eh?? lol.. after 1-1/2 years it wouldn't kill me,, ahaha So idunno if anything will ever become of me and ryan,, and ok,, thats kewl i guess,, well no not really but i gotta deal with it don't i, and move in,, in a way.

i'm with simulation 2000 this year,, it' s pretty cool.. lol, hanging with different ppl..heehee,, so ya know,I'm in love with teh saprano's.. which mean i shoul ddo some cleaning so i can watch it,, lol,, my room is a mess!!

Prom is ohh so close,, hehe.. what to do what to do. i'm talking to my daddy now,, so in other words my life is total caos,, but hey,, thats lif efor ya,,lataz,Tash

Ok today , on the spir of th emoment i went and got all my hair chopped off,lol,, hey,, this change thing is good,, hehe... Jeff is calling me tyne's woman, which isn't true,, one date.. like there willl be another.. i dunno why he's even going out with me,, but oh well, it's a change from jeff and ryan i guess.. i miss them both,, just certian things about them,, i dunno, after so long you get soo used to someone that u care about. I picked out my christmas ball Dress,, very pretty and sliming,, just gotta get a date ,, hehe.. sorry jeff not u.. remember last year,, not gonna happen again,, hehe, Um what else.. I can no long use my Design for prom, which pisses me off some bad,, GRRR,, my aunt in NF is making it,and it'll be hard for her to make my design with me not there!

tonight was a rainy ugly night tonnite.. i think ryan knows about tyne bc he looked at me once and looked away.. i'm sorry.. but hey,, we ain't dating or going out, i can do as i please. i mean he has no right to get pissed, whether or not he wants to get back together,, well, my toes ar ecold, i gott aget up early tomorrow, i gotta sell my BUNS!! hehe. Gobble fest,, Thursday night rocked,, Nothing to Say was great, Scratching post sunday,, teh all day show,, going to that,.,, hehe se ya there Neil.. remember drugs are bad,, hehe.. Well i'm off to bed i think,, lol.. Lataz

ohh how confusing life can be,,, the life of a teenager sux,,,lol,.. ya it really does,, so we got teh cops called after us last night in sydney.. ahaha oh well, we'll be back to finish what they or we started, and that little indian one,, i pay for everything u got, and unless u wanna be lik ethe beothics,, shut yer mouth,, i;'m a newfie, and we wiped them out!! hahahaha,, not like i'd kill ya,, but i'm sick of yer smart ass attitued,, and YER NOT BLACK get over it!!!!!!! stop acting like it!!

ok, better tune,, hehe,, i got my dress for keeps.. it's some pretty,, lol...just can't gain weight... lol.. i never went on my two dates.. kinda stood em both up.. neil's a nice guy,, but i didn't go to gobble fest,, and tyne,, well.. he's not my type or what i'm looking for,, i'm used to who i used to have,, so, things are like messed up i guess with everything,, one minute i think i know what i want and who i want back, then,, when i think about my decesion,, i'm thinking it's the wrong one!ohhh what do i do,, i thought not being with either one and someone new would help me,, but nooooooo it didn't!

umm ok, i hav eto get in teh shower and get ready for the gurlz coming over at 4....so,, yeah... i'll write more again,,as for me being hurt but the two of u wanting to kill each other. y ai am,, and it's hurt,, for some one that i cared about deeply not saying which one,, i care about u both,, but .. whats the real point,,

ok thats it, i think i had enuf, i can be treated a hell of alot better,, why the fuck try talking me outta getting rid of u for good when yer off with her today.. stop fucking with my head, i think i have cried enuf for your sorry ass,, and well, i took the knif eu put in my heart and shoved it in yours where it belongs, Say i am cold hearted but hey,, with u i gott abe,, so fuck your morlas and what ever the fuck u say, cuz i think about it now,, it's all your fault. i don't want you to call me again, i don't want to you to talk to me i don't want anything to do with you,,u robbed her of her virginity and her heart,, u robbed me of my heart and my will to trust and love someone, So now i'm not taking it any more,, i don't gonna, i am worth a hell of alot more.. and i heard teh sweetest words lasty night from my friend,, she was telling me what a guy sai dto her.. he said it wasn't fair that you hurt me so much an dthat he could treat me alot better.. and val said a few thing stoo, guys aren't supposed to mak eyou cry an dif they don't they arn't worth your tears. any way si hav ea life but i will keep bitching and stop crying eventually. i guess it's outt amy hands,, i jsut don't wanna hear about it, or be there, and if i can stop it some how i will....

well on friday was the over night grad party, which was really cool, but boring, i fell asleep on ever one,, lol.. over night slut sleeping with every one,, hahaha my mum was suppose to go, but she didn't make it,, lol... And i got asked out by someone other than Tyne lol.. and i went. And i had fun, so.. Jeff is back with Joann, i don't know why he lies about so much crap. I don't at all, he will tell me one thing and tell her another,, well...i don't care. haven't since last summer. i tried but can't.not my bad.So...ya. i was woken up to day and i am not that cheer ful....lol..oh well....i gotta go now.... sooo i'll be back to tell u more.

it's novemeber 31, wait ther is no nov 31st, it's dec 1st, we got snow,, oh freaking joy,, lol.. and guess what else i got, a JOB yes , me werking, ho wscarry is that i tell ya,, well i get to werk with bobby! lol thats a good thing i guess.. haha.. my life is a little screwed up, i got ppl saying i changed and i don't really see how i did, maybe i just grew up! and others should try it too. ok what else.. oh yeah,, we lost simulation,, but hey i got a shirt, so i can say, been there done that got the t-shirt.. hahahaha Lame i know!. Yea i am suppos eto have friday off, BUT NOOOOOOO i'm werking, i hate this, but hey i need the $$$$$ but man,, this sux, thats 2 weekends in a row, school nites i don't get home until 12... it really bites bad, but it's all fer the $$$ lol Ok what else,.. me and jeff are going to teh christmas ball... that sgood, i wanna go with him,,, I haven't treated him the best and i regret that. it's just he's afraid that i'll screw him over and i'm afraid he'll screw me over,, and i'd rather him hate me, than me hate him. It's hard to hate someone u love. But when u love someone ya let them go, and he has the right tobe happy... So maybe i have cahnged, but fer the better.. I let go of what doenst mean much,, lol, Even tho they used to mean alot, and sorry to those that i hurt. i guess growing up is more scary than being alone! u can grow up with all these ppl around u, but u still don't kno yer self, but if yer alone in life, at least ya kno yer slef!!!! great way to look at things.. I'm glad to hear wani is happy, thats great, we all need to be happy,, when' smy turn again?

the 16th, the christmas ball is tonite... well i'm excited,, i asked a friend to tak eme,, so i kno i will have fun,, so thats a good thing, i'm doing my own hair,, nothing much ya CAn do with it,, lol.. i'm just waiting fer my inni bug to come get me,, so we can finish getting ready,,, All my peeps in NF,, i will send u pix.. it's beeen since grade 9 that ya's seen me dressedup eh, lol.. there's my inni,, lataz Tash LOVES SOVS

GUESS WHAT, ok i just got home from the moffatt concert and i got my 3 rolls of film and autographs,, hehe.. and they loved my hair,, thats all they talke dabout with me,, hehe yeah baby. and GOD scott was looking H-O-T hehe like always,, there was over 3 000 ppl there, and my head hurts,, Wide Mouth Mason opened fer them, and they put on a GREAT show,,, I love awesome canadian bands,, ehhehe so yea, it was like, WOW the moffatts... not not WW OOOWWW the moffatts.. maybe it's teh whole maturity thing where ya realize they are just ppl,, just like me meag and sue ,, ehehe.. yeah baby.. but we're wayyyyy cuter

well isn't life just funny.. well,, i dyed it pink,, yes my hair, i said i would do it and i did,,, hehe,, well i liek it,, it looks cool, ppl are like ,, WOW, hehe.. I'm dating some one rite now,, he's a great guy, i mean it,, totally nice,, hahah i umm mean ASSHOLE haha.. long story.. well what else to say,, joann ,, GROW UP,, i mean get a life,, man,, yer a sour gurl,, haha.. yea and i lied... i am a bitch i am not nice,, and well.. frankly i don't care.. soo bite me.. hahaha well new years was great.. nicole's party was a blast so was arlene's.. now i can't wait fer teh next one,, hehe.. yea~.. and well Sat is our girls day out,, me and linzy and inni bug and nicole it'll be great fer us,, get away from da guys that annoy us,, and make fun of ones that pass by,, going out fer supper.. and just enjoying being our selfs,, hehe.. thats whats so great about beinga gurl.. So i was said to be smart philosophally,, well i guess i am, i can be very deep at times, and i kno what teh hell i am talking about too.. sometimes it's just hard tyo put it into werds.. but we all had tiems liek that eh??! i'm In my class rite now,, hehe.. yea,, back to me being smart,, heheh.. it's funny eh.. well christmas was great,, lol.. i miss my little brother tho,, but hey.. an di miss my friends alot,, buti guess thats life,, and i miss alot of my past,, i miss someone iw as able to talk to all teh time,, someone i was able to turn to no matter what and hey wouod always be there.. i kno he'll be there to an extent,, but not liek forever liek i wanted,, he said i desurve some one nice,, sure everyone does,, but i miss u.. i do,, well i think i have written enuf,, tho i am quite bored and dunno what else to do,, heheh Well we're gonna be dancing again on friday,, hehehe..... u'll see me glowing,, hahahaha.. well.. thats all fer now,, Wanii hope u add more soon

Hey there, i'm in my DAP class ,, and they got SHaggy playing,, heheit wasn't me,, lol.. Linzy if ya are reading this ,, heheh.. OUR SONG AHAHAHAH So,, this weekend is gonna be fun, i'm going shopping with mike today after school. then going to sydney with innis and linzy,, hehe ,, the dance wasn't cancelled,,, i thought it was.. oh well. The teacher said we can keep teh music on,, hehe how cool,, but he's a geeky teacher,, doesn't kno too much,,ANy ways .. yea, then Sat we're having a Girls day. hehee that'll be fun,, Going to eat and shit. hehe then sunday i gota project to do, eek!!! i hate school.. Well tehn i told Brennan we'll go shopping next week end... or hang out or something.. hehe.. chillin with the boys,, lol... HUMMM what else to say,, Not too much.. Still dating mike.. wow eh.. lol.. Ummm Yea me and Kristen and inni bug went fer coffee last week b4 new years.. He's a riot,, When he was in Halifx some one stole his gift i got him.. Bummer eh,, that wasn't very nice eh! noppers not at all..

I can't wait till this summer, gonna move in with Meag and Sue.. Just like we planned.. i can't waitto be with u guys again, i HATE IT HERE.. lol.. but my friends are cool, well, my real friends are., So, i can't wait fer that.. Give's a reason to be happy..lol,, thinking about being happy soon.. My teacher is a crack head,, lol,, he likes cheech and chong.. lol.. WEIRDO.. well i better get going now,, i'll write more later!

Ok.. so yeah the moffatt concert was great,,got to meet em,, umm exams are now,, ick, i hat ethem,, soo stupid, i'm here waiting fer jeff so me him nicole and cory can go to the mall.. and he ain't here yet,, GRR yer in trouble.. hehe.. So what else is new,, umm.. i Dunno,, hehe.. i'm Gonan stay here fer another year with mum.. b/c Christopher isn't gonna be home here.. so i might aswell be,, one year thats it tho,, then my life is gonna begine,, heheh well.. it has already but i mena, it's gonna start with meag and sue,, hehe and all those bitches that doubted us are gonna get a scare b/c i mean.. you'll regret it so much

well i'm out with the truth,, and well if ppl don't wanna believe me then fine,, it's u that sgonna get hurt in the end,, haha,, i never got with jeff over the summmer to get back at any one, i wanted to be with who i love.. is that so wrong?? i don't think so, Love.. it''s used so lightly and it's losing it's meaning.. and thats not right. b/c now it's more like a question rather than a saying and thats very sad.. love is now an excuse or used as an excuse,,, i don't see where in the name of god it ever said love wasn't anything other than a strong feeling towards a person, a feeling that you'd die fer them,, but not let them hurt u. If a person hurts u ,, does it mean that they love u,, it's a question.. a stange one,, but think about it.. if they truley love u,, would they delibertaly try and hurt u.. i dunno,, it's not adding up like it should. Well jeff yer still not here.. lol.. GRRRRrrrrr DOGHOUSE hahaha.. j/k,,, well what else can i bitch about.. hummm i dunno... haha.. thats a first eh,, well then,, umm i'm out i guess

WANDA I'M PISSED AT U,, SO IF YER EVER READING THIS... U KNO,, I'M NOT E-MAILING U STUFF TO PUT ON THE PAGE.. I'M COMING IN LIKE ALWAYS AND DOING WHAT I WANNA DO! AND U BETTER NOT SAY NO TO ME! ALSO.. UPDATE YER FREAKING PART!!!!!! YER FRIEND THAT IS VERY PISSED AT U - TASH

Ok me and wani are cool. lol.. we just missed each other, hehe friends are like that.. ok, so i fucked someone over, i doubt it... thats not me who does that..And i told angela how i felt ,, so thats all out. And Another thing,, if u don't like me,, i don't fucking care, i never have and i never will. So what raise u get outta it, i dunno.. yer just repeating what ppl said to u when u were younger.

beating baby seals,, thats sick,, and if i hav eto eat another cinnamin heart i'm gonna be sick,, ughhh. lol.. so no more,, hahaha ,, sunday,, cory's birthday,, was a blast,, eh nicoel and innis.. hehe we almost gave cory a heart attack, lol.. SURPRISE>> lol well i better jet,, lataz.... hehehe <3<3 v-day soon. PS jeff-- i don't call him mike-e-poo either..

THIS FUCKING SUCKS...................EVERY ONE CAN BITE MY BIG TOE! HOANN BRING IT ON! FUCK YAS ALL... THE SHIT IS NOW ON.. I'M TIRED OF ALL THIS BULL SHIT!! SO COME AND GET IT!

Ok whats going on with me,,, umm, still with mike,, i unno why everyone is sooo surprised,, lol.. My v-day was unbelievable.. liek outta a fairy tale,, hehe,, so sweet,, Mike is going to Prom with me,.. it's gonna be ablast... nicole and cory are coming with us... so thats great,, hehe.. what else.. umm, lalala.. ryan come shome on may 16, joy eh.. lol.. wonder what life he'll screw up next,, haha.. i guess he'll never learn eh..

Everyone in Nf I MISS U ALL.. hehe... isn't it strange how u can become soo attached to some one/ or ppl,,, expecially ppl that u only knew fer 3 years,, well me and meag and sue we're best friends all in Nf only grade 9,, now i miss them so much,, it's scary to think that a person like them can step into yer life and make such a big difference and impact in it, with out them i dunno where i would be... Same goes with Bobby , with out her.. i dunno, she kept me sane, a di was able to have such great convo's with her,, b/c we could be so serious together yet have alot of fun,, i miss u gurl,, and Sandi.. i don't here much of ya,, but i miss u eh,, Angela K,, it was nic eto get an e-mail from ya.. hehe miss u so much hun.. <- blame teh hun shit on mike's sister arlene,, lol. Jared ,, hehe.. THONGS lol.. thats all i have to say to u,, hehe.. and tell mark to stop sooking.. lol.. I haven't heard much from Matt.. andy one kno if he's still alive or in jail or dead... i would liek to kno... WANI -- love u woman, an di am glad that u got a guy who can mak eu happy... and u warn him,, no i will,, I WILL KILL U IF U HURT HER... and mark my werd on that eh. well i better go finish getting ready... love u all.. Tash,, Think Of Me Cuz I Think Of U..

My hair is a brown copper color now,, not pink.. but it will be fer prom,, oh yeah,, i gt my prom dress too,, gtg ,, Lataz Gataz

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