I'll Always Care looking in my face so sincere you make it seem it was all me it's alittle too late for sorry his smile now warms my heart he loves me so truthfully love me tender hold me tight I hate it.
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you tell me u will never hurt me tash gilley, sept 7 2000 Untitled
how could you think tash gilley, sept 6th 2000
Trust
some times trust is taken for granted Tash gilley, sept 7th 2000
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how could it be tash Giley
The Past
remanising about the past Tash Gilley
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i'm standing there trying not to cry Tash Gilley
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when tears fall tash gilley Blue
open the door tash gilley
Untitled remebering the day that u called for me natasha gilley
smiling and thinking about how much i loved you tash gilley Lonely nights and awkward dreams
Why does it hurt
All I do is care?
Why can't he believe
That I'd always be there?
And that I'll always care.
He can push,
even shove me away.
But that doesn't make
the feelings go away.
I'll always care.
Written By Wanda Pollard, July 19, 2000
Friendship
A silly smile
A small joke
lots of laughter
happiness is on its way
A growing friendship
laughter between two friends
carried in the wind
lost into oblivion
A memory gained
But never lossed
Friends we remain
Wanda Pollard, July 19, 2000
In the Begining
A grand affair,
the time of your life.
An experience,
never forgotten.
A memory lingering,
Distance and vibrant.
A smile, even a chuckle
as we remember.
An enthusastic look.
upon our future.
A future bound together
By a lasting friendship
Wanda Pollard, July 19. 2000
The Mend
An ache,
only I feel.
An emptiness,
only one can fill.
A loneliness
undescribable.
Almost too much
to bear.
How will I survive?
How can I Cope?
The sadness tearing
at the center of my heart.
The repair will be long
It will be painfull
But slowly
the heartache will fade
Only the memory will remain
Wanda Pollard, July 19, 2000
MISTAKE
bottled up inside
a secreat ment to keep
One little mistake
cuts far too deep
Thought i could change
it would all be ok
But that stupid little thing
happened today
So careless and dumb
thought i was through
But that one little thought
Knowing what it could do
Natasha Gilley
july 23 2000
RESCUE ME
clouds block out the sun
i'm hoping that u will come
to rescue me
rain begiines to down pour
i'm feeling pretty sure
you'll rescue me
the darks now getting cold
i'm standing all alone
please rescue me
Natasha Gilley
july 23 2000
LOVE WHO U ARE
i'm not always perfect
i know i will never be
i'll never be the prettiest
as u can see
i make mistakes
like every one else
i'll never be on the tv screen
but i love myself
Natasha Gilley
july 23 2000
FOR ONCE
you lied and hurt me before
some how i let it all pass
now you've done it once more
said i love you so much
sometimes i wish i couldn't hear
putting things into my head
they were all right now i see
i'm tired of being this way
move on in all your glory
and i lov ehim so much
where i belonged from the start
so right for one another
he's where i want to be
this love for once
is finally feeling right
Natasha Gilley
july 23 2000
I Hate what it does to you
I hate what it does to you,
it changes you
Your not the one i love,
your completely different.
I hate what it does to you,
it makes you angry.
You can't control what you say or do.
And you hurt me.
You will not remember it tomorrow
everything will go on
as if nothing happened
But what you said hurt
and will never be forgotten
I hate what it does to you.
Written by Wanda Pollard, August 17,2000
It went by so fast.
I thought it would last
How come i grew up so fast
Every moment passes
Each second missed
How could i let it go by so quick
Wanda Pollard, August 29, 2000
but what do u do?
u hurt me thru, and thru
you tell me how much u love me
then it just goes away
in one day, one day
that you could get to me
by bringing her around
so that i could see
i'm teh one over it
i'm the one who moved on
your the one who's jealous
over why you're gone
it can't bother me
if i no longer care
and you can't hurt me
no feelings are there
so next time you pass
just keep walking by
i no longer want you
i found a much better guy
sometimes it's not even there
alot of times it's missused
other times it doesn't even matter
so perfect
so true
So far away from me
how'd this become
so loving
so warming
So unable to be undone
how did u walk into my life
to make me smile each day
and to say such sweet words
making me speachless with nothing to say
to make me cry so dear
wanting you here
thinking that if you were near
how everything would be so clear
thinking it would always last
thinking of words you said
replaying them in your head
all the tears that fell
all the times you wanted to yell
when things done hurt you
and you know you did them too
when no words are spoken
two hearts get broken
but it's all in the past
how you wished it had last
i wish i could say i didn't know why
it's like everytime that i see you
it hits me that we're thru
so u got her now by your side
but what ur telling her is all lies
it's funny how i know whats real
and she gets half, not teh full deal
if u lie to her do u lie to me
is what we have truley ment to be
when ever i'm talking to you
i wonder if your being true
when u tell me you love me still
and whats keeping us apart is my will
if i walk away this time
because i need to clear my mind
will you be here when i'm done
or will u go find another one
so what i'm trying to say
no matter what, i'm here in every way
and it feels as if all
is lost and can't be found
when memories fade
and you lost your way
trust me i'll be around
walk on out
like you always do
let me cry
you never care
how could i ove you
scream and shout
walk on by
things said never true
push me away
leave me alone
and u wonder why i'm blue
all th etimes u held me close to u
when ever u'd whisper you loved me
i questioned never if it was true
then u turn around and lie to me
hurt me deeper than anyone else
i don't understand how that could be
i need to get rid of what i felt
time will go on like any other day
i don't expect you to come back to me
i don't have anything to say
what in u did i ever see
and knowing that some how i still feel it too
and to hav eyou love me lik eu used to do
love comes uninvited and comes for only few
lov eme or not
i still do
if u hate me or not
it's up to u
i'll wait around
as sad as it may seem
i'll stick around
you cna trust me
untitled
Leave a feeling of insecurity
As the moments pass by
With beads of sweat on your face
Tossing and turning
A feeling out of place
Running from unknowing faces
Searching for a hiding place
Lost with no where to turn
The heat turns up like the volume
With out mercy you scream
In the darkness of the venue
The beating of your heart
The movement of your skin
The way you tend to jump
The coldness you have within
Running for what you believe
Missing all that you lost
Remembering how you got here
Thinking of the cost
Hurting like no other
Beating your thoughts into your head
Shaking the memories away
Realizing she’s dead
Natasha Gilley
Dec 24 2001