From Your Heart
So I think you are a fool
Hanging on my every word
It's getting ugly
So I'm ugly
Tear me from your heart
Tearing me apart
So I thought you disappeared
Being alone is what you fear
Are you lonely?
Yes lonely
Tear me from your heart
Tearing me apart
Rolling, and throwing, consoling
Everything that goes this far
Joking and hoping, revolting
All that shit that's who you are
Peel it back, reveal the scar
Loathing, exploding, controlling
This is what you really are
The time is coming
God is saying
You're really happy
What a game
The time is coming
A bed of flames
Your life is over and you're to blame
The time is coming
You've gone insane
You're feeling happy
You've won the game
The time is coming
A bed of flames
Your life is over and you're to blame
Rolling, and throwing, consoling
Everything that goes this far
Joking and hoping, revolting
All that shit that's who you are
Hoping, and scolding, revolving
Peel it back, reveal the scar
Loathing, exploding, controlling
This is what you really are
Chasing Me
I'm thinking of
Thanking all the fucked people
Thanking all the shit I love
They are all the things I've made
Straight from my heart
Begging all the same people
Burning is the same evil
Somehow making me feel sane
Waiting all this time
I've got nothing to hold on
But the faces of my life
I can see before I'm gone
Sometimes I feel it chasing me
All the hate that's breaking me
I realise I'm taking everything
And the kids seem to follow
This time I feel it taking me
To a place I'm hate to be
All along I seem to make believe
And the shit seems to follow
I'm thinking of
Making all the fucked people
Making the bitches I love
Make them die and go away
Pain from the start
All my dreams are ripped apart
Thanking all the fucked people
They are all the things I've saved
Waiting all this time
I've got nothing to hold on
But the faces of my life
I can see before I'm gone
Sometimes I feel it chasing me
All the hate that's breaking me
I realise I'm taking everything
And the kids seem to follow
This time I feel it taking me
To a place I'm meant to be
All along I seem to make believe
And the shit seems to follow
Your life, I hate it
Oh God, can I reclaim?
Stop and help me
Sometimes I feel it chasing me
All the hate that's breaking me
I realise I'm taking everything
And the shit seems to follow
This time I feel it taking me
To a place I'm meant to be
All along I seem to make believe
And the shit seems to follow
The shit seems to follow
Full Of Sorrow
It ain't fading
Man I got to let it out
Am I quitting?
Screaming nothing ever come out
I keep feeling lost
I'll never find my way out
I'm not thanking them
Unless the truth can pour out
Give me some courage
Beating me down the (?) sometime
Are you laughing at my body?
I hate and slide
I hate and slide
I take this time
To let out what’s inside
Cause I will panic
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You may bestow my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside
My heart is breaking
Man you really ripped it out
You take pleasure watching as I claw my way out
The hurt rising
Soon it's going to tear my soul out
It’s not kosher feeling like I’m on my way out
Give me some courage
Beating me down the (?) sometime
Are you laughing at my body?
I hate and slide
I hate and slide
I'll take this time
To let out what’s inside
Cause I will panic
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You may bestow my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside
Feeling the haze as they cut down my spine
Peeling your flesh like the way you've cut mine
Do you feel happy you fucked up my mind
You’re going to pay this time
I'll take this time
To let out what’s inside
Cause I will panic
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You may bestow my pride.
And all this hate is bottled up inside
Tear Me Down
Going through the pages of my fantasies
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down
I wanna see you try to take a swing at me
Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground
Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying when you're dirty in the front of me (?)
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
Come and fill the pages of my fantasies
I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
And I'll pull the trigger
And you're down, down, down
Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying when you're dirty in the front of me
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
All my friends are gone, they died (gonna take you down)
They all screamed, and cried (gonna take you down)
I got my monkey, got my monkey back against the wall (?)
Gonna take you down
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
In Place
Life is boring
Sleep is boring
Don't stop running
I'm here counting
The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate
The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate
The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate
Really can't fuck with me
There's no where else to go
So I walk but seem to crawl
For I'm giving in today
Now I run into a wall
Cause I cannot find my way
You've got to come with me
I can not stand this place
We are crawling up the wall
And I'll give in this way
We had our chance to run
And now I can't believe
We're going all the way
And now the (?) in place
My life, worry, lifeless story
Give up beating
I'll start bleeding
The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate
The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate
The life, the hurt, the pain, the hate
Really can't fuck with me
There's no where else to go
So I walk but seem to crawl
For I'm giving in today
Now I run into a wall
Cause I can not find my way
You've got to come with me
I can not stand this place
We are crawling up the wall
And I'll give in this way
We had our chance to run
And now I can't believe
We're going all the way
And now the (?) in place
What really do I have to follow?
Nothing makes sense at all
Taking something for nothing
Watch me as I fall
I'm bringing me down
You've got to come with me
I can not stand this place
We are crawling up the wall
And I'll give in this way
We had our chance to run
And now I can't believe
We're going all the way
And now the (?) in place
D a d d y
Mother, please forgive me.
I just had to get out all my pain and suffering.
Now that I am done, remember I will always love you
I'm your son.
Little child, looking so pretty.
Come out and play, I'll be your Daddy.
Innocent child, looking so sweet.
Rape your mind, and now your flesh I reap
You raped. I feel dirty.
It hurt. As a child.
Tied down. That's a good boy.
And fuck. Your own child.
I scream. No-one hears me.
It hurt. Not a lot.
My God. Saw you watching.
Mommy, why? Your own child.
Little child, looking so pretty.
Come out and play, I'll be your Daddy
You raped. I feel dirty.
It hurt. As a child.
Tied down. That's a good boy.
And fuck. Your own child.
I scream. No-one hears me.
It hurt. Not a lot.
My God. Saw you watching.
Mommy, why?
It's alright
"I didn't touch you there."
Mommy said she didn't care.
"I didn't touch you there."
That's why momma stopped and stared.
Innocent child, looking so sweet.
Rape your mind, and now your flesh I reap.
You raped. I feel dirty.
It hurt. As a child.
Tied down. That's a good boy.
And fuck. Your own child.
I scream. No-one hears me.
It hurt. Not a lot.
My God. Saw you watching.
Mommy, why?
C l o w n
Anger inside, comes within my body.
Why do you hate me? What have I done?
You tried to hit me.
Scream at me, and if you like,
throw your hate at me, with all your might.
Hit me because I'm strange, hit me.
Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me.
What's with you boy? Think hard...
A tattooed body to hide who you are.
Scared to be honest, be yourself.
A cowardly man.
I don't run round, trying to be what's not within me.
Look into my eyes, I am free. You're just a wanna-be.
Scream at me, and if you like,
throw your hate at me, with all your might.
Hit me because I'm strange, hit me.
Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me.
What's with you boy? Think hard...
A tattooed body to hide who you are.
Scared to be honest, be yourself.
A cowardly man...to come out.
Hit me clown because im not for you to know. Now, hit me clown. 4X
Clown you ain't shit, turn around watch your face bleed.
Clown you ain't shit, turn around get your face split.
Hell you ain't shit, turn around watch your face bleed.
Hell you ain't shit, turn around get your face split.
Turn at me, and if you like,
throw your hate at me, with all your might.
Hit me because I'm strange, hit me.
Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me.
What's with you boy? Think hard...
A tattooed body to hide who you are.
Scared to be honest, be yourself.
A cowardly man.
Just a-fuckin' little... 8X
b l i n d
Are you ready?
This place inside my mind, a place I like to hide,
you don't know the chances, what if I should die?
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain,
you don't know the chances, I'm so blind, blind, blind.
Another place I'll find, escape to pain inside,
you don't know the chances, what if I should die?
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain,
you don't know the chances, I'm so blind, blind, blind.
Deeper and deeper and deeper is all i'm turning
to living a life that seems to be, a lost reality
that i can never find. a way to reach my inner self.
I stay alone.
How deep can I go in the ground that I lay?
If I don't find a way to sleep in the grave I crowd my mine
It 's time I looked to see which was realized
I can see, I can see I'm going blind. 12X
I'm blind. 4X