I have been thinking of him more and more lately. I have just completely fallen in love with an idea. I guess I just want it too much. I should be used to be alone by now, but I am not. And I don’t know why.
God, I just wish I could forget about it! But how do you stop loving someone you’ve never met?!?! How do you break free from the death-grip your mind has on an idea?!?! I just wish I could stop thinking! I wish I could kill the imagination that tortures me so. I wish I could stop the dreams and the wanting.
The worst moments are when I walk down the street and see someone who resembles this imaginary person. And I have to remember that he is only a figment of my imagination, and I have to stop myself before letting his name fall from my lips…the glimmer of hope in my eyes turns to despair and I continue walking because that is all I can do.
