Where Was I?

Random Acts of Journalling is back (again), so here we go... When I was five... I loved... getting to go to Kindergarten I hated... going to bed (I hated going to sleep at all, but really hated having to do so upstairs in my bed - I fell asleep downstairs and was carried to bed most nights. Yes, I was that spoiled. I wanted... a dog, a cat, a horse, a baby brother or sister. I feared... Sammy the snake, a character from a recurring nightmare who would bite my parents and turn their eyes into weird spiraly things, then come after me. I'd wake up and go into my parents, and make them wake up enough so I could see their eyes to make sure they weren't spirals! When I was ten... I loved... myself, and my kitten I hated... my parents getting divorced, my 4th grade teacher I wanted... my parents to be back together, a horse I feared... having to change schools for 5th grade When I was 15... I loved... not much I hated... myself I wanted... to have the life TV had sold me as what high school was meant to be I feared... high school really WAS the best time of your life. When I was 20... I loved... nearly everything about my life, especially conversations around the tables at Gabriel's Gate (or was it Gabrielle's Gate? I'll have to get back to Buffalo sometime to find out!). I hated... the little voice in the back of my head that told me I would be miserable again. And having to scrounge around for a believable fake ID. I wanted... life to continue on that same path, finishing up school, on to law school, etc. etc. I feared... failing. When I was 25... I loved... Gary and Rowan I hated... thinking about the "what if...?"s I wanted... more time for myself, more money, security. I feared... that I would totally mess up Rowan for life. When I was 30... I loved... my job, most parts of my life I hated... making phone calls! I wanted... a house I feared... that I would totally mess up Rowan for life. Can't help but wonder what the answers will be in another 4 years...