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When reading your testimony, parts sound a bit familiar. I wished I could say I was raised Penticostal, but instead I wasn't drawn to the Penticostal Religion until after I graduated trade school. Then, once I became Penticostal, I allowed myself to get into trouble I could never imagine I'd ever fall for. The one who has been abused by a heavy drinking father, who was raised Military Style and very abusive by his Abusive father, vowing to never drink and never become a Father because of fear of continueing the chain. Seeing a young friend across the street get killed in a car wreck due to alcohol. You didn't have to tell me it was wrong to drink. Yet my boss at the drug screening company had me working such late hours, missing church to stay up there doing "Billing", while she somewhat flirted with me. She managed to persuade me to have some whisky. I began social drinking, working 7am in the morning till 3am the next day on the average with a 30min. drive to my apartment and 30 min. drive back.... 15-20 min. to take a quick shower and turn on the A/C.... Leaving very little sleep.... One Rainy day, I got in a car wreck. My tires where bald, I tried to change lanes back to avoid hitting a car and rammed both sides of the interstate. Considering the interstate was jammed pack, it was an absolute miracle no one else was hit! I litterally felt God holding me and talking to me that day as never again so close. I got back to God that day, but only to fall short again..... Pressured to print negative results for drug test whose drug test weren't even ran (to save money basically), I finally had to give-in. It wasn't supposed to be long, but soon realized it was never her intention to stop abusing the system. Later, after quitting, having no idea where I'd find another job. Scared to death, the absolute last day I could hold off before telling the land lord I had to move out, I got hired on at K-Mart. That worked out for a few months, but soon I ended up loosing my apartment due to a cut in hours. Later, the FBI called me up, and I had to testify against my Boss. Turns out I found out later that she hired a hitman to kill her husband before and was on probation and rumors had it she hired a hitman to kill him again and he fled the country. After the trial, I was somewhat disapointed to hear that instead of getting the maximum sentance of 55 years, she received 1 year with 1 year probation. I later ran into some problems with a boss at work, and my mom asked me to help her take care of my Dad. She covered my bills, and I helped her take care of my Dad who was dieing of Cancer. A year or so later, when he died, a friend managed to get me back to work for H & R Block. It wasn't easy, no one else wanted to hire me, and H & R Block was only 3 months out of the year..... Later, I got to working for Sonic and H & R Block at the same time. This time, I met a girl who was the daughter to a "preacher" in the church I was attending. I should have broke it up with her on Day-1 or let her know what she was doing was wrong. Instead, I fell for her trap. She had pratically made a check list of the ten-commandments to be her to-do list. I fell in love with her later, despite the fact she put me down quite often. She later told me she slept with her ex-husband and 3-4 friends.... I gave her chance after chance, and was tempted to marry her in hopes that by my showing her that I love her enough to marry her despite what she's been doing to me, she'd realise how much I loved her and stop hurting me. Thank God my friends helped me get away from that girl. It wasn't easy. 1 Year later, she was still trying to e-mail me. Things are going great now (for the most part). I got in a bind financially, but got out of debt due to bankruptcy and am now starting to make a fresh start. I'm surrounded by people that love me far more than anyone ever loved me at my previous church. Though at times, I sometimes feel like "The Black Sheep", as our Cell Group is primarily Married Couples, I'm the only single guy at this time. There's a single girl, who can't quite understand my line of thinking due to the fact that she's been married 2 times already and is a girl. They want me to be a part of some of the Singles activities, but like many other things in the church, the singles is predomantely women, and at this time, I'd still feel like a "Black Sheep", more so than at the cell group. I told them if they could get more guys to go I'd see about it, but there's just not a lot of single guys. Either way, I'm fixing to be working 7-days/wk again at my job until we can find someone else to work evenings. I really don't see the need to "Socialize" myself, but my friends think I should be around people who share similiar interest as I do. If so, then that rules out the singles group, because the majority of the people there are girls who have been married at least once.... I have very little in common with any of them. Working graveyards, I really don't have the time to go to any day events either, and am not interested in blowing my career with this company just to satisfy a few girls who don't know what they want anyway. Out of curiosity, what part of Louisiana are you from? I'm from Westlake. (Just west of Lake Charles). BTW, I love your dancing Alligators! |
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