whee.. its been a while.
listening to: Switchfoot's "Meant to Live"
feeling: blah.. but its all good.
time: 7:35pm


well what's happened to my life for the past few weeks? i dont know how to wrap it all up into one.. besides.. if i post on here it might get taken to school and i might get in adapt! um.. lets see..

certain situations WONT stop.. and its bugging the hell out of me.. i cant handle this anymore. gettin played and gettin my hopes up just to be crushed really sucks. i cant handle that anymore..

but for the past few weeks.. ive been getting better.. i've been hanging out more and more with my blonde, rach.. and two guys from across the river which are really cool. so i wanna thank you two guys for making the past um.. like two weeks of my life actually enjoyable.. i havent had much fun in a few months. but now.. its all cool. thanks noop and ross :)

um.. what else.. i want to apologize to all of my close friends.. online and off.. if ive been on the edge lately or really not talkative.. because all this shit has gotta stop and it pisses me off.. if you havent noticed. but um, yeah.

for my problem after friday.. i wanna thank josh smith and josh carmouche.. thanks you guys.. i never really thought of you two as mentors ;)

brennen.. i love you so much stay my sexy boy ok? and yea.. thanks for helpin me too and making me feel better.

rach- oh gosh.. what can i say.. sorry if ive been a little out there lately.. but thanks for sticking by my side and helping me through everything. by everything.. i mean everything. i havent had as good of a friend like you in a while.. just keep my secrets, ok? ;]

chibs.. wow.. im back now.. and I LUFF YOU! lol.

jenn.. whee.. my cow.. i need some milk, get over here!


id love to know how this turned more into shoutouts.. but who gives a shit. im just very thankful for my friends.. im going now.. but the person whom these following lyrics are for.. knows who he is.


now listening to: Evanescence, "My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppresed by all my childish fears.
If you have to leave i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it wont leave me alone
these wounds wont seem to heal
this pain is just so real
there's just too much that time cannot erase.