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Welcome to Depression...
This is my world of depression....actually...I'm over it now...but the memory still remains...at this period of time all I can say is life sucks....suicide became my dream...and this is how the freak grew in me...I'm still proud to be a freak...I always will be....if you are not depressed...you don't need to be here...im sure you just wondered into this place...and asking yourself what the fuck am I doing here...but anyway...this is my world of anti-life...one thing i will tell you...suicide is not the answer to life...its the answer to death...and if you think you will rest after you kill yourself you are WRONG...it is a sin...but who knows...it's just burning in hell right?...sure...at that time I didn't know what to believe...and I still don't...but let me be your guide to lead you out of the world of suicide...by letting you enter the mind of who as been there done that....look around...
?
Nah....really?
How many teens commit suicide in one year?...I'm sure alot...but they didn't know what life was about...and didn't enjoy the gift of life while they had it...your life is what you make it...and if you don't care...then I'm sure your life is trash...and so are you...come on dude..wanna learn the hard way?...think about it...what makes you happy?..do you feel like throwing up when you're around happy people?...i felt the same...you just need to make the best of it...I mean...there is a group of people just like you....just don't do anythig stupid...like drugs for example...it messes you up bad...like i said...been there done that...if you have friends that care...you have the world...I know how it is...I need someone to talk to...half the time I was alone...I had nobody to go to...or say nobody cared...but I relized that they don't care because i didn't care either...whats worth helping somebody that doesn't want your help?...show a little effort...put your mind into it..life is great...only if you want it to be...and if you are thinking about killing yourself...sit down and write a little something about the way you feel...how you want it to change...it just might help...and one thing for sure...I care...I care about all of you people...call me weird?...I like being weird..I like being different...who wants to be the same as everybody else?...wouldn't it make life boring?..dude...look before you leap...think before you talk...live before you die...
- Hummm........
Life is like the wind...it comes and goes...
Life is like a frown...smile and it breaks...
Life is like spit...it dries out someday...
Life is like a rose...it can't last forever...
Life is like a toothach...bite down and it hurts...
Life is like a demon...it enters you and destroys you...
Life is like a nightmare...you wake up with fear...
Life is like satan...it drags you down with him...
Life is like a prep...they both suck...
Life is like the floor...you walk on it...
Life is all good...ain't it...???....
Sure it is...stop dreaming and wake up...life ain't over yet...
Forever -
Thy soul is hurt...
Thy heart is bleeding...
Thy spirit is trapped...
Thy love is forever...
You hurt me therefore I die...
You cut me therefore I bleed...
You capture me therefore I'm trapped...
You love me therefore I'm forever...
Live -
Who walks the land of the dead...
Becomes the dead...
It's all a dream...
It's all part of what you fear...
Wipe away the tear...
Live life the way it is...
Theres nothing there you can change...
It drags you on the way...
Life is very insane...
Just live out the pain...
Don't Breathe -
Hold it in...
Don't breathe...
All you're doing...
is inhaling the blades...
That life has against you...
and...
What death wants to become of you...
Suffering is what its about...
You learn...
Hope...
Wish...
And Dream...
Inhaling air...
Inhaling life...
Inhaling the pain...
and the demons all at once...
You know...
You know very well...
So don't breathe...
Life is short anyway...
Live it up -
Turning off the lights...
is like turning off your life...
Living in the darkness is quite a fight...
Walking into a room...
With every sweep of a broom...
Living it under...
Brings too much thunder...
Living it right...
Makes the world bright...
So lift your chin high...
And let it go by...
I am -
I am the tear you cry, you fear me when you die...
I am the blood you bleed, when you cut me I leave...
I am the nightmare that kills you, awake from the thrills...
I am the germ that makes you sick, nothing you can't get...
I am the hurt that you feel, it will never peel...
I am the hate that you give, it's just better to live...
I am the gun to your head, that's all to be said...
I am the bullet that shoots out of it, that's what life did
Dreams -
What's a dream to be...
Everything I dream loves to kill me...
Would I die before I wake...
I'll just find out someday...
Dreams abuse me...
All black, sad, and evil...
It drags me into a nightmare...
Everything uses me...
Would I ever awake...
I'll just find out someday...
Flames of Fire -
Feeling the flames of fire...
Stabs so deep into my ribs...
What would I desire...
You're just a liar...
The flames of fire...
Dancing so quick and wild...
Looking deep into the flames of sorrow...
Staring through pure evil...
Staring through the darkness of my life...
Staring through what kills me...
Staring right at death...
Love can -
Love can be sweet, nothing to defeat...
Love can be blind, but keep in mind...
Love can be insane, but who feels the pain...
Love can be dark, that's just from the start...
Love can be hidden, but who am I kiddin'...
Love can die, why would I lie...
Love can be you, that's who...
Suicidal Tears -
The tears you cry...
Dark and bloody...
What's the pain have to do with it...
You think its funny...
You judge my appearence...
And I cry my way to suicide...
The tears, oh so cold and sharp...
It stabs you in the dark...
You wait and see...
What you done to me...
Suicidal tears...
Is what I fear...
Suicidal Dreams -
Suicidal dreams...
is nothing like a sun beam...
When you wake up...
it pulls you in again...
Have no fear child...
Your soul is taken...
Lay back down...
With a frown...
Suicidal dreams...
is what it seems...
Just Insane -
Prick your fingers...
Lay back down...
You have not been found...
I creep around in your mind...
You're going to be just fine...
Stop shaking...
You're just faking...
Theres nothing wrong with you...
But who is there to sue...
You're just insane...
It's all a game...
But who is there to frame...
Lay back down...
Safe and sound...
You're just insane...
It's all in your mind...
Nothing kind...
Just the voices...
You have no choices...
You're just insane...
Back Stabbing -
Once a friend...
is not always a friend...
You tell me how you will be there...
When a friend is most needed...
Oh, the lies...
Feels like a knife going through my back...
You tell me i can trust you...
Then you steal from me...
Pain hurts...
Oh yeah, I forgot...
Like you ever cared...
It's my turn now...
Only this time you will feel the blade...
Killing Time -
I'm tired of being rushed...
It makes me mad...
I'd like to smash the clock...
Leave me alone...
I have enough time...
To get my stuff together...
Go away...
It's you that's slowing me down...
Oh, I'm just killing time...
Only one way to stop time...
For myself...
Taking my own life...
Death...
Yeah, death...
I won't be rushed again...
That's for sure...
Redrum (Murder) -
You never know when its gonna happen...
Before you know it you feel the flames of hell...
A shock of pain runs through me...
As a ghost I come back to life...
To see myself, just another bloody body...
I've always wondered...
Now I know...
Hell is a lovely place...
Full of hate, just like earth...
Who would do such a thing...
Oh, yet another stupid question to ask...
Taking away the lives of others...
I wouldn't worry...
You will know what hell is like...
Cause I've seen the list...
Your name is right under mine...
Only the next victim will suffer even more...
Nervous -
Biting down on fingernails...
Until they bleed...
Hands and legs shaking...
For no reason at all...
Bones cracking...
With every twist of the body...
It's that thing they call...
Nervous...
Heart beats faster...
Brain stops working...
Skin dries up...
Along with the tears...
Hearing and seeing things...
That aren't there...
Oh, I wouldn't worry...
It's that thing they call...
Nervous...
Stop, drop, and burn -
The way you learn...
From other's advice...
Always better to teach yourself...
And learn your lessons...
If not so...
Everything stands out clear...
That you aren't strong enough...
When the time comes to roll..
And the flames of hate...
That eats away the flesh...
Instead of putting it out...
It's going to burn straight though you...
And theres never turning back...
Kurt Cobain
Love Poems
wormwood
Nothing -
What do you see...
Nothing...
What do you hear...
Nothing...
What do you do...
Nothing...
What do you feel...
Nothing...
What do you say...
Nothing...
What do you wish...
Nothing...
What do you dream...
Nothing...
What do you like...
Nothing...
What do you love...
Nothing...
What do you hate...
Nothing...
What are you...
Nothing...
Memory -
What has happened...
in the pass...
Only a slight reminder...
Yet, its trapped in my mind...
Causing so much pain...
and depression...
Its hard to let go of something...
That hurts so much...
And it stays in me...
Leaving me with the guilt...
And at the worse times...
It all comes back...
To remind me, its all my fault...
This way...
I hurt my own feelings...
And is the most painful thing to be done...
Wishing the memory would fade away...
Without me fading with it...
My wishes never come true...
Therefore the memories remain...
Haunting me once again...
And forever...
Tears of Fear -
Cold and frozen...
Soaking wet...
Dripping blood...
Stone hard...
Cracks the skull...
Cuts the heart...
Numbs the pain...
Not the soul...
Tears that hurt...
To hold it in...
Breaking through...
With no choice...
Rolls down face...
Cutting skin...
Tears that fall...
Blood that follows...
Fear breaks through...
Once again...
From Winter to spring -
Starting off on a cold day...
Yet again to a brighter day...
Ice turning to flowers...
Frowns turning to smiles...
Darkness fades away...
With light breaking through...
Healing everything in its sight...
Pushing away the tough fight...
What has been frozen...
Comes back to life...
To start a new day...
From winter to spring...
Pure Evil -
The eye doesn't just see everything...
One person can hold so much power...
Against you and your friends...
Something that tricks the mind...
And plays games with the heart...
Be careful and don't judge those you don't know...
For they are much greater than you alone...
And so dangerous, nothing you can handle...
It seems so unreal, yet it isn't...
Come face to face with your enemy...
Meet the other half of yourself...
The twin you've never known...
The half who hides the darkest secrets...
Deep inside the soul...
If you've thought about it...
You know its there...
Feeding off of you...
And you only try to stop it when its too late...
pure evil can't be stopped, and never will...
Bored -
Its that time of the day again...
When you talk to yourself...
and the walls...
When you stare at the ceiling...
and day dream...
Days with nothing to do...
and wasting every minute...
Walking back and forth...
People start to wonder...
You start counting your fingers...
Already knowing how many you have...
Spinning around in a circle...
Just keeping busy...
This happens so often...
It drives me crazy...
I have no choice...
Theres nothing to do...
You should know, too...
What its like on these days...
Going way beyond your mind...
And finding yourself hanging in some weird places...
Again...
Something -
I dreamt a dream...
That can't be explained...
It meant what it meant...
Something so evil, so ture...
That no one can live with...
I know what I've known...
I saw what I've seen...
I believe what i didn't...
Something in the mind...
Enough to leave you standing...
With tears leaking...
Your body wasting...
So unexplainable...
Its hard to believe...
Such a thing crosses your mind...
And leaves you hanging...
If I can't explain it...
It never happened...
Positive and Negative -
Whats right and wrong...
is good and bad...
Underneath it all...
Positive and negative...
Balancing the two together...
Makes it one tough problem...
Its nothing to sit and think about...
When the problem is very clear...
and its meanings are very great...
The more you judge the nice and mean...
The harder it is to keep the balance...
Deep inside theres good and evil...
To think of it...
It must split you in two...
Half finding heaven...
and half finding hell...
If theres a god theres a devil...
If you love you also hate...
Its weird nowadays...
Positive and negative...
is what makes thing work...
I feel young, but I'm way too old...
I feel I'm fading, but I'm way too young...
Whats clean fears dirt...
If you're cold you're also hot...
Dazed and confused...
Sweetness mixed with sorrow...
Fate attacks everything...
Its just the way things work...
You have A right to be wrong...
God is Gay
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How it Ends
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