as you force your sick and desperate skin
upon my innocent confusion searching for a beautiful need
don’t you realize in which the sin you helplessly fall to is the sin i'm playing so mistakenly with
a fool disguised as a self-confident heartbreaker
loses all breath in this blind race of mine
the glass was shattered from the beginning
with your state of mind a cheap toy of mine.
delicate and naïve as i may seem
isnt it all a game
your hidden need chokes my longing refrain
though it may seem quietly as if you’re ahead
kindly showing me the way
being the god you think you are.
you’re the one falling behind
levels of mind swim into differences
but just when i think im almost out and dry as i subconsciously always was
you use your secret ways of drowning me
i know how you are and your whole guilt-stricken game plan
YOU do not keep me crawling back only your words
a safe conscious that i don’t possess and you supply
im not falling for you for it isnt right
doesn’t even feel right yet its always happening
don’t make it seem innocent
reasons and excuses don’t make it ok
its eating away at the sugar inside of me and adding to your list
what comes so natural to you and thought new to me
in reality is predictable and so low
spinning like crazy
whos really ahead in the stupid game called
i thought i was the one fucking around
but then i find myself missing my cheap thrill
i was supposed to end this fucked up game that you create
now im trailing behind
breath provided by only you
wheres the purpose?
where my exit?
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