you just love to have control.
everytime, i never see it coming.
you decieve me.
you're so bad for me.
you touch me and it makes me want to touch you more.
you pretend to be so eager.
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you love to see how far you can push my love.
i'm just dumb.
maybe its because you bring out the blonde in me.
i'm so dumb.
i scream at myself.
scars appear and shit gets concrete.
out of my control.
oh i forgot- you're sorry again, right?
i'm just a dumb girl.
yet i cant let go.
i get caught in your artifical sweetness.
it tastes so good
but chokes me everytime.
and i know it.
i am dumb.
it gets so intense.
we aren't ashamed that we can't stop ourselves.
we dont even try.
which makes me want it even more.
am i just dumb?
eager for my love.
but you live in your own shadows of shit.
and in your heart, deep inside
is where all the good things die.